Lonely Yi

2008-07-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

hello.. long time no post le.. haha.. nowadays i've been watching fei lun hai de show.. watched finish x family.. now watching KO One.. lols.. zhong ji yi jia and zhong ji yi ban.. actually shud watch ko one first de.. cus its the first season.. x family is 2nd.. lol~.. but den i know this show watching x family first de.. lols.. haha..

O lvl chinese oral over le.. thou i know i nvr did very well.. but at least.. its good enuff.. haha.. also can no need so stress over oral le.. now scare is eng oral.. in my whole life i hate oral.. and presentation.. i don like to stand infront of everyone and talk.. den all look at me.. lols.. oral is that.. i always dunno how to think fas.. haha.. thats y my oral very louya one.. but i guess.. my reading quite good xD.. haha..

tml is youth day.. yay~.. no schooling.. can slp at home.. haha.. also happy is that i no need to attend 3 lesson of english.. which i hate the teacher most.. xD.. so happy.. i love holiday that occurs on monday.. thats best man.. =D..

oh btw.. my comp has died.. my ps2 also died.. so sad man.. =(.. to think that my life are so unlucky lols.. those ppl who always read my blog de.. shud know i always complain my life being so suay.. blahs.. also not i want de.. but den.. im jus trying to show the unfairness treatness im getting.. =(.. i don wish much man.. i jus want to live more lucky =(.. at least.. let me led a life like normal.. unluckiness can be accepted.. but don over shot.. argh.. nvm -.-..

well.. last thrusday and friday i got go gym.. with twenyo they all.. haha.. train abit.. xD.. but body ache sia.. over worked xD.. weak sia haha.. too bad~~.. now jin keep want go gym le.. haha.. tio twenyo brainwashed le.. lame sia.. well.. thats nth bad too.. lets train! =D.. i also wanna be fit =p.. haha

ok le.. i think i got to go le.. haha.. cya guys.. bye

2008-06-19T02:36:00.007+08:00

hello.. im back..
lols.. holidays are ending in a few days time..
and my doom is coming nearer..
the nearest doom i get is..
i nvr done any homework PLUS..
i nvr attended alot of remedials..
and im getting feedbacks from fren
that our eng teacher marked attendants
and going to asked for letter to explain y nvr attend..
lols.. i haven prepared that letter too..
haha.. den.. eng teacher also given alot of hwk..
the most hwk during this holiday is from eng..
they all say.. 19 introductions, 2 compo.. wth~..
lols.. i have no clue on wad they saying abt this introductions..
lols.. hahaha..
i think..
im dead this time..
i wanna run on the first day of sch..
but dunno want anot..
haha..
cus monday got 1 period eng lesson =x..
argh!!!!!

lets see..
another doom is the chi O lvl result is coming on aug..
wonder how "well" done i have..
or shud say.. how badly i done..
LOL..
i cant even imagine that i will get a B3 for my chi..
if really get.. or higher..
ima rather go bang walls..
nono..
the teachers who marked my paper shud go bang wall..
lols..
another doom is..
O lvl coming in oct..
what am i gonna do abt it?
study hard?
or jus hack care?
and let things go by its own?
let everything to luck?
and to think abt it..
i've always leaving things to luck..
and to say.. that im such an unlucky guy..
to think i can survive till sec 5..
its really unbelievable..
really.. and to say unlucky..
my comp spoilt.. the graphic card..
drivers..
i nth to say..
i really super duper unlucky one..
only alot ppl dunno..
if i can add those minor things..
which i nvr said to ppl..
it can makes me..
the unluckiest ppl of all..
althou its exagerrating..
but it really is unimaginable..
it almost like..
every unlucky things jus befall upon me..
im speechless..

O lvl..
jus now at my big bro's car..
my mum asked..
if O lvl pass,
will go poly right?
if O lvl fail,
will go ITE right?
and after ITE go army
or army le den ITE?
this gives me a feeling..
my mum already have prepared,
that i will be going ITE..
my bro asked her y ask?
she said..
becus if mingyi don wan study
den go army lo..
she knew i don like study..
and becus of this words..
i dunno i shud felt happy
or not?
happy for mum can accept me if i go ITE..
as well as..
she had lose all hopes on me..
well.. to most of the ppl..
u all would be sad..
but for me..
i really dunno..
i really don mind of going ITE..
but den..
i dunno if i mind..
my mum has no hopes on me..
i know..
u all will think -
such a bu siao zi..
but den..
i don denied the fact..
i am..
but what can i do..
living in this world..
is to enjoy..
i don like to be forced to do things..
that i don like..
even u say me bu siao zi..
but i don want to waste time..
to PRETEND.. to be a good kid..
i like to be myself..
i don like to change..

normally..
i don liddat think as well..
but.. someone made me..
to have a change..
to this attitude..
which is a person..
who hurts my heart most..
she kills every hopes on myself..
not hopes..
but my spirit..
my xin ling..
i can feel that..
i lost alot of things..
everytime when i lie on bed..
i would go thinking alot of things..
be4 i can fall asleep..
and because of that..
i often slp at very late hours..
i can lie on bed for 4-5 hours thinking abt things..
but den.. after the clean break with her..
the letter she wrote me..
i've nvr shown 1 bit of sadness in my face..
maybe not to let my fren know..
yea.. u can say me act wei da..
act act only..
but den..
i can tell u that..
i jus do wad i think..
in my heart..
it aches..
badly..
it could almost killed me..
no.. im not exagerrating this time..
but totally truth..
it really did HURTS..
and its PAINS me alot..
now.. after this..
my interests are all crashed..
normally could think of alot of things..
but now.. i lie on bed..
i could'nt think of anything..
it jus blank there..
it makes my sleeping hard..
and because of that..
this few days..
im slping at the hours
where my parents and brothers have already waked up..
because at that point of time..
i am tired..
so i no need to think any shit..
and i can fall asleep easily..
u know how much she jus damaged..
she don know.. and..
she wont know..
she jus took always my life..
she changed all of it..
she is jus a plain murderer..
she make me this miserable..
wad she now owe's me..
isnt jus a sorry..
but a thing..
where she can nvr repay with..
which is..
my past life..
even now she love me..
i don love her..
i jus hate her..
i hate her because she forced me to..
i jus unable to love her anymore..

我的情根，
wo de qing gen..
已经被振断了。
yi jing bei zhen duan le..
我已经没有了情根，
wo yi jing mei you le qing gen..
无法去爱。
wu fa qu ai..
我已经不懂得什么事爱，
wo yi jing bu dong de shen me shi ai..
就算我懂得什么是爱，
jiu suan wo dong de shen me shi ai..
也已经感受不到了爱的滋味。
ye yi jing gan shou bu dao le ai de zi wei..
应为了一个“她”，
ying wei le yi ge "ta"..
却把我一身，
que ba wo yi shen..
给赔上了。
gei pei shang le...........

2008-06-10T04:08:00.003+08:00

the story begins.. when the first time i saw her.. esther.. it was yong seng, who brought me to the staircase.. under the hall.. the place where we always gathered.. during sec 1.. always sat underneath the staircase waiting for yong seng's father to fetch him.. me.. accompanied him.. not always.. but almost everytime.. to say.. seng was the chain.. that link me and her up.. without him.. the story might not have begins.. maybe will.. but in later years.. we always play around.. during that point of time.. i don talk much.. because im not good in communicating with new people.. known as strangers.. i always see send tgt with her.. playing tgt.. but with my courage at that time.. i couldnt get even close to them.. im being treat as a casual fren.. a hi-bye fren.. the first sight i have on her.. is the sight which brings me to the doomsway.. the first sight landed on her let me feels the happiness which could not even surpass the sadness it gave me.. she always also waited after sch.. nvr went home.. sitting in the canteen.. or the staircase underneath.. i after sch.. the first thing always is.. go to the staircase.. and see if she was there.. thou.. sometimes she's not there.. but i always think.. i got alot of time which i can still see her.. but that's where i started to wonder.. am i really having enuff time to see her.. is it enuff for me?.. to think that we went out of school.. go out.. anywhere.. never has it been that.. only me and her are out tgt.. never.. either having xian, jin, seng, or any ppl.. jus without a single time.. till now.. never has it been jus the two of us.. quite sad.. during the time sec 2.. we often go play basketball.. with seng they all.. she also went.. sometime she played too.. and i wish i can see her playing all the time.. but.. things werent that smooth.. i got 1 time.. i tried to express myself to her.. the thing that called love.. because i was so timid.. scare of anything.. courage was not there.. nth to push me ahead.. i can only write a letter.. gif it to her.. and run away.. to know that.. she kepts every letter she receive from ppl.. she often also write letter to seng.. they both are always passing letter to each other.. im envy of seng.. and i know.. they are the tian zao de yi dui.. the letter i gave her.. she nvr say anything abt it.. she went to the basketball court with us.. it was raining at that time.. she was playing with seng in the water.. and soon i found out.. my letter i gave.. was dropped and was soaked in water.. they didnt knew abt it.. i picked it up.. and threw it into the rubbish bin.. this hurt i get now.. cant even compared to wad i get from her.. to think.. when she really found out that i love her.. she has been telling me.. its impossible for us.. i tried all ways to get her attention.. to show her.. that i nvr give up.. one time.. she was talking to her frens in the canteen.. i walked pass them.. heard that some of my frens was talking to her abt me.. i looked at them.. she came walking to me.. and told me.. wo ken ben bu xi huan ni.. infront of so many ppl.. i felt so helpless.. but i never give up.. during sec 1 and 2.. i nvr been in the same class with her.. but at sec 3.. i same class as her.. i was so happy.. i can finally see her everyday.. but i nvr treasure it.. it was gone without me realising it.. during sec 3.. i even written her name on the tables.. whenever i missed her.. nobody knews.. except my close frens.. but den.. zaki found out.. and it was spread thruout.. and she was being bothered.. everyone was talking abt me and her.. and she was annoyed.. i felt so hopeless.. i didnt want it to be like that.. when we was out.. she called me be4 that.. im jus like a coward.. i always only know how to follow ppl.. because that time seng tell me to pull her back.. i listened.. but she said to me liddat.. i was totally hurted.. got 1 time.. i was trying to push seng and her tgt.. to make them kiss.. i knew that i doing this.. will give myself a larger injuries.. but i didnt care.. tgt with alot fren.. we at playground make them tgt.. tied their shoelaces tgt.. make them walk tgt.. while she accidentally falled.. i was so sad.. but after awhile.. when seng and her sit on the floor.. we at behind.. decided to push them tgt.. we did.. we almost make it.. but i really cant take it.. and said.. don play le la.. i stopped.. as well as them.. soon.. in a blink of eye.. we were in sec 4.. seng are no longer that close to me.. we are getting further and further.. but.. now i can talk freely with her.. she also thought i don love her anymore.. but.. when she knew it again.. she didnt talk me almost months.. that time.. i felt so hurt again.. i saw her.. stead and break.. stead and break.. but i jus nvr had a chance.. she stead with 10+ ppl during that year.. and break almost every one of them.. but in the end.. she are tgt with a person.. called jia ming.. at the late end of the year.. she found out she got jia ming's baby.. that time.. she called me and lai you down.. she told us abt it.. we dunno wad to do as well.. when i got that news.. i have been joking with lai you at that time.. but.. am i really happy? i felt hurt inside.. during the period of sec 4.. i stead with a girl.. called sandy.. thou i not sure if she are real to me.. but.. its true to ME.. that i have been tgt with her.. but.. she's nth more den a lier.. i can nvr know how many boy she has out there.. sandy stead with me.. WHILE.. she stead with my frens.. i couldnt believe it.. and its more den once.. i totalled.. have stead with her 3 times.. with breaks in between.. the 1st time.. is becus of my bro fren.. choon huat.. she stead with him.. and knew me.. she stead with me be4 she even break with huat.. soon.. becus of huat.. we break.. after she break with huat.. she stead with me again.. but becus of her attitude.. we break again.. be4 we patch back the 3rd time.. she stead with most of my frens.. i jus wish to believe her.. but she bluff me again and again.. (by writing this.. u don know the true story.. only the people who falls into the hands of her.. or the ppl who heard the whole story from me would know.) by the time she patch with me the 3rd time.. she already stead with my another fren.. she didnt told me.. but it was my fren (the one she stead) told me that they are tgt.. and den i found it.. but soon.. they break.. i continue to be with her.. trying to believe wad she said.. but.. she went on and stead to my bro fren.. lyesia.. and that was the time she was with me.. but i tried to tolerate.. but.. in the end.. it was esther.. who make us break.. it was jus becus.. esther make me become her gan laogong.. my gan laopo.. sandy jus becus of this.. we break.. and im enuff of it.. so i nvr decide to patch back again.. no matter how she wants it.. cus i know.. it is all lies.. but.. i don know y.. i still believe her.. that she said she coming to my sch to study.. again.. it was all the lies.. now.. back to esther.. after our graduation.. she nvr study.. becus of her baby.. she did not wan to abort it.. so she gif birth to a daughter.. she married jia ming.. at the age of 16.. but i still love her.. till now.. i finally give up.. with her.. hurting me the last time.. saying.. she dui wo yi dian gan jue ye mei you.. while when i asked her whether she like me in sms.. she told me be4.. she had.. and now.. its another story.. i really cannot tolerate life liddat.. im enuff of love.. after 5 years of loving.. after wad i've experienced.. wad did i get.. nth.. but the end of everything.. sadness.. hurt.. break of my hearts.. stop of my feelings.. lost of everything.. lost of direction.. hopeless.. nth.. i jus got nth.. i even lost the interest in studies.. becus of her.. everything was gone.. empty.. only empty are now exist..

2008-06-09T16:17:00.004+08:00

IM SICK AND TIRED OF LOVE!!

BUT THERE'S NO END TO IT!!!

IS BY HATING THEM THE ONLY WAY WE COULD GET OURSELFS OUT OF IT!?!?!?!?!

NOW, IM FORCED TO HATE HER!!

I HATE HER FOR BREAKING ME DOWN AGAIN AND AGAIN!!

WITHOUT ANY HESITATION, IM BEING BREAK DOWN AGAIN!!

I HATE HER!!

2008-06-01T02:42:00.002+08:00

hello all.. haha.. im posting becus im bored~~ well.. its getting late le.. haha.. today i went to brant house for birthday party.. got buffet eat.. i eat until very full lols.. me andy jin and xian went there tgt.. and we bought present for brant too.. a work out glove.. with 0.5 kg per pair =D.. haha.. it sure do cost alot for jus this few things.. haha.. but nvm bah.. well.. sometimes im envy of ppl getting so many presents during their birthday.. some even cost alot.. but i don think i have the fortune.. haha.. me andy jin and xian went there around close to 7.. lols.. den eat until 8+.. went to brant house.. see lai you they all play.. and watch tai wan shi shen ji.. lols.. den.. soon i go in the room.. cus saw jin went him.. so followed him inside.. since at outside also bored.. y not go in and see see =D.. but in the end i only can sit at the staircase and watch the same show again.. =.=.. haha.. den jin played cards with gene jenn they all.. haha.. den soon they went out.. but i stayed inside the room.. on the top floor.. den xian and kai jie and andy came up to play psp and fooling around.. at that time we dam HIGH.. lols.. and i can tell u we thruout the day very high lols.. also dunno y.. only me and andy dam high =p.. haha.. den we being called out for the birthday cake.. den pushed brant into the swimming pool.. lols.. i didnt eat the cake haha.. not i don gif brant face but im full.. i appreciate it =D.. haha.. happy birthday to you brant =).. den me andy jin sit and chat.. den we go in brant house to find xian.. went into the room.. go to the top floor again.. at there play psp with xian.. haha.. was bored =X.. den.. soon we went home.. we walked jenn home.. while walking.. me and andy keep push jin to jenn.. dam funny.. we were play around all the way to jenn house.. haha.. i find that i also dam high =.=.. lols.. den finally reached home at 11 30.. lols.. went to bath.. come out saw kian.. with his spec dmged by my bro.. den we 3 at there trying to fixed it.. but in the end.. fan used wire to hold it tight =.=.. screw got problem lols.. haha.. den i go out.. found that maple cannot play.. so played jigsaw puzzle with xian.. while playing.. i sms with jenn.. haha.. to 2 30.. den she went to slp.. well.. talk abt it.. i really lost interest in my studies.. i lost her together with the interest.. so sad.. at the beginning.. i always thought that it was her.. which make me lost interest.. but now.. i no feeling towards her le.. but the interest in studies are already gone.. and can nvr came back.. unless there is something which make me enjoy studying in evg sec sch.. and enjoy studying.. well.. i don think there will.. look at all the teachers.. i would nvr want to study i can tell u.. how i wish i can run away from the lessons.. yi qian.. got lesson i also wont want to run.. but now every lesson i wish i could hide in toliet thruout the day.. no need see those teachers face.. =.=.. so sad.. den studying to me.. is totally no meaning at all le.. sad sad sad.. wonder wad am i going to do now.. jenn keep tell me to study.. but i really cant.. lols.. suan le.. i think i go le.. 3 am soon le.. lols.. go le.. cya.. bb..

2008-05-28T17:03:00.004+08:00

lols.. sry guys.. have not been posting.. actually i wanted to post after my O's.. but den forgotten.. haha.. oh ya.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOONG TOU LAO DA (loong xian) well.. for the chinese.. i also not sure whether i do very well anot.. looks good to me.. but bad to me as well.. wish is good bah.. haha.. ytd.. got remedial.. but den.. i and jin and andy ran after recess.. we didnt go for the rest of the remedials.. and den.. eng got mark attendance.. den ratish want those nvr go de write a letter.. lols.. ok bah.. den jiu write lo.. lol.. den jin and andy came my house.. we played maple.. lols.. well.. jin went home quite early.. around 1 to 2pm liddat.. den andy went back at around 4 to 5 pm liddat.. didnt really notice the time they left.. after that.. was catherine and jerlin came my house.. 1 want use comp, another 1 want to charge hp.. lols.. so.. jerlin charge her hp.. around 6+ she went to her aunt house(think so) den catherine around 7+ den go home.. lols.. den im all alone again.. hahaha.. den for today.. got remedial but i didnt go sch today.. blehs =p.. today is xian's birthday as well.. happy birthday to xian! xD but den.. maybe this wasnt a very happy occassion for him.. maybe its his birthday.. but not happy.. cus.. his dad ytd.. jus set a curfew to him.. he wasnt allowed to use the comp during mon to thrus.. that was dam sad.. for us the gamers.. without comp.. we are going to die! lols.. well.. xian.. cheer up! live ur life with the fullest happiness u can ever get to =).. lols.. well.. now.. actually i am playing maple de.. but internet dunno y.. this few days hab prob.. keep connection low.. den play maple will lag like siao.. lols.. so came to post.. haha.. as well as saying happy birthday to xian =p ;) haha.. ok le.. i think i stop here le.. next time guys.. bye.

2008-05-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

hello all.. its been a week that i nvr post.. haha.. lazy to post.. also was busy playing games.. sleeping.. haha.. im a pig!.. haha.. monday jiu O lvl MT le.. and im still in a gaming mood.. lols.. 2 more days~.. wonder how "well" will i do.. lols.. i guess.. this time not many ex 4 caring students can go poly.. not i wanna talk them down or wad.. but im just got that feeling.. unless they can improve dam lots during the holidays.. cus i know some of their chi can do it.. like bee yee.. amy.. alicia.. jenn.. they all can do well i guess.. and charu already done his MT O lvl.. with an A2.. he only hab to cope with other subjects.. as well as the girls.. but den.. their rest of the sub not very good.. if i not wrong.. this time mid year.. none of the ex 4 caring students passed all subjects.. lols.. not even me.. cus i failed eng.. well.. and for combined sci.. im dam disappointed.. see.. told u all be4.. everything jus hab to went the backwards.. my sci quite good one.. now become c6 de marks.. omg.. lols.. even my combined humanities are better.. i cant believe it =.=.. lols.. well.. sad case.. haha.. must stay happy everytime~~ lols.. ytd.. went to road run at bishan park 2.. lols.. and i can tell u.. thats the boring occassion the ever.. lols.. xD.. well.. i woke up in the morning 5 40 liddat.. den go change into pe t-shirt and long pants.. soon.. andy called me and tell me open door.. it was only 5 50 liddat.. we told andy to come my house at 6.. actually is 6 15 meet my house de.. cus andy always late den tell him earlier.. lols.. but this time he dam early.. lols.. ok nvm.. den we watched young warrior of the yang clan.. (shao nian yang jia jiang) watch till xian came.. when i saw xian.. i tio stun.. we agreed that we will wear long pants to bishan park and run de but xian wear short pant and tell me that zheng hua convinced dao him to wear short pant.. at that time i really nth to say.. NTH TO SAY.. zzz.. den i also wear short pant lo.. soon.. jin came le.. den we went to causeway.. fetch some1.. and go to ang mo kio.. at there.. we went to AMK hub.. they all went to buy some things to eat.. while i nvr eat.. i stand there.. lols.. den we went to the bus stop.. saw a huge line of evg students waiting for bus.. =.=.. need wait 2 bus den can finish carry all of them lols.. so we wait for the 2nd bus be4 we can go to bishan park.. den on the way there.. we chat chat chat chat chat.. lols.. funny.. haha.. den reach le.. saw mr chua and ms ng.. lols.. den went to the field.. sing national song.. den start run.. i and xian walked thruout (except near the end, we sprint) lols.. at first want walk with jin also de.. but den jin ran at the begginning.. well.. at the 4/10 of the route.. we found jin.. lols.. and from there.. jin joined us to walk.. haha.. den we all keeeeeeeeeep chatting all the way to the ending point.. xD.. den reach the end.. went to drink milo lols.. funny.. still got milo drink.. and the milo was dam nice to drink.. cold without ice.. the taste was jus nice.. wish i can everyday drink that.. lols.. xD.. haha.. jk la.. =p.. den.. sit at the field.. waiting for others to finish running and finish giving out prizes.. =.=.. den was dam bored.. me, andy, xian and jin.. sit in the middle.. chatting.. den some sec 4 bastards came and play around us.. andy told them to stop playing.. den they was like gangsters liddat.. keep tell andy to stand up and fight.. was stupid sia.. lols.. wish they can get bang by car lols.. lesser this tpye of ppl no ppl will sad but only will happy for it.. haha.. den andy tell twenyo to help settle.. haha.. den me, xian and jin sit at the field (tgt in red house) wait wait wait.. finally.. return the number tags.. and WENT HOME! lols.. happy~.. den reach home.. andy came my house.. at first he want to use thumbdrive to take The Jumpers (movie) from my bro lappy.. but my bro bring out that day.. dam suay.. lols.. den he came.. i told him.. he stunned there.. lols.. den.. we watched bleach and d gray man.. den i go bath le.. come out.. saw him playing maple.. after that.. he went home.. den i live on with my usual life.. watching tv.. playing games.. den SLP.. lols.. there goes my post~ ok le.. i go liaos.. haha.. GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING O LVL MT!! haha.. bye~

2008-05-17T15:19:00.002+08:00

i feel so lonely~ no ppl come my blog often anymore.. lols.. haha.. i also not updating regularly my blog too.. haha.. cus also no ppl come anymore.. write so much also no use.. lols.. well.. my test.. i got back 4 out of 5 sub le.. only eng fail.. and is very badly done =.=.. F9.. omg. lols.. die liao.. nvr tot i will did that BADLY for eng.. lols.. i excepted an D7 at least.. lols.. too bad larhhs.. haha.. chi i get B4.. combined humanities i get B4.. social studies i get A2 one.. but the geo pull me down again.. every time liddat derhhs.. nth to say liaos.. geo i get C6.. lols.. den add up become B4 liao.. lols.. den math.. i get C5.. stil ok la.. my math not that good.. can pass is quite good le.. lols.. haha.. sci.. i scare lols.. but i still eager to take back.. but scare will fail nia.. my phy done badly.. 29/65.. failed.. lols.. becus of 1 fomula.. if not i can get alot marks le.. F-f = ma.. i go put F = mg.. sian diao.. if not maybe can get around 3 + 2 marks.. lols.. 5 marks.. T_T.. sadness.. den wish chem i can did abit well bahhs.. good luck to me.. lols.. but see how loke look at me 0.0.. i don think i did very well.. maybe also failed.. den jiu die liao.. lols. haha.. ok bahhs.. i go le.. bye.. take care all.. good luck..

2008-05-13T21:25:00.003+08:00

hello~ here come the crapper king! lols.. lame.. today get back math paper 1.. i got 52/80 =).. quite happy haha.. got alot careless mistake lols.. den.. today alot teacher also nvr come.. sian diao.. mark paper mark dao sick ah =.=.. lols.. we whole day only 1 period which is math.. the rest all no teacher.. we even run from sch.. around 12 50 we went home le.. tgt with hiro they all.. haha.. den today first 2 period.. which is suppose to be chem for ex 4 caring students.. but loke nvr come.. so we 1st period in class sort out those question papers of the MYE.. den 2nd period go library.. lols.. at there.. i crap dao siao.. really.. i crap to hong jin.. i at there seems to be mad.. lols.. today quite happy lols.. den after sch.. jin came my house play.. den same thing.. cabal.. den i slp.. lols.. den 5 he go home le.. me jiu continue slp till 9 lo.. lols.. haha.. k le.. i go watch show le.. next time den post le.. haha.. cya..

BaKa-Yii Signing off.

2008-05-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

lols.. my sincere apologise.. get depressed this few days xD.. exams too much.. wads coming next.. is O lvl MT le.. 26 may.. so fas ya? i think its doom for me le.. im walking towards the door to hell.. but im unable to stop myself.. there may not be any turn back after this.. should i really try hard to stop myself from walking to the doom's door? or force my way out from the evil path and back to the reality? thou i still have chance in oct.. but retaking MT.. but with harder and harder energy that pushing me to the door.. could i make it out? i wanted to pass with my pure luck.. but nth is free in this world isnt it? btw.. my luck has been down ever since small.. can i really make it for my O's? i can tell u.. i've regretted coming back for sec 5.. know y the first place i came back? jus as wad the teachers always say.. don come back jus for frens.. yea.. and thats wad i did.. i came back actually is for frens.. not really frens.. but i for love sake.. but den.. she didnt came back.. and my hope was smashed into pieces.. now i really wish there is no more school for me.. there aint any reason to stay there anymore.. my only reason is gone.. it has diminished.. what can i do now? haiz..

BaKa-Yii Signing off..
The Crapper King.

2008-05-10T15:31:00.002+08:00

today im so angry abt private maple.. which im currently playing(now no le).. hell it go.. the 4th job are bugged till i nth to say.. first.. i lvl 120.. den i go do the quest.. thou they say cannot do main de.. will bug.. but i not sure i did it anot.. and im stuck at getting the secret scroll.. ok nvm.. they say can bug from them at 50m.. so i bought.. and i went to complete the quest.. den i get the 2 hero stuff.. went to gif the 4th job instrustor.. and it jus stuck there again.. and i was wtf.. nvm.. i get kori(GM) to help me.. ok.. he helped me.. 4th job.. good.. and now i found out.. i don hab 1 extra skill point.. don hab increase of hp.. don hab increase of mp.. even 1 amount also nvr increase.. and i dunno y the hell today i can buy the secret scroll from the old man which i stuck previously(thats y i go buy from gm).. den i also dunno is buying of secret scroll at first.. he only tell me.. is there anything u want.. i click the button yes.. and he sold me the secret scroll at 10m.. and my money which i earn very hard jus went missing.. den buy the stupid 4th job skill.. wasted 150m.. i really get dam irritated.. thou im still can continue to play de.. but wad for train dao shuang so wad.. mp and hp so little.. is this called a arch mage? like hell.. i cant believe i jus that suay.. even my fren also can complete his 4th job jus fine.. and alot ppl also complete le.. all is fine.. only me so suay dao got so many prob.. stupid.. jus only wish to try 4th job.. need to like that ma.. i wonder wad have i done wrong.. need to get strike by heaven liddat.. whatever i wanted are always going to wrong way.. it jus sux.. ya there are alot ppl who are suay.. and u all see my living properly and good.. still ok.. but did u know? how much i suffer from small.. how much unlucky things had happen to me.. and the answer is NO.. u all only know my from outside.. u are not with me 24hr.. u cant see many things.. there are jus too many things that had happen to me which u all dunno.. some is my family know.. some is my best buddy know.. some is my frens know.. but no 1 knows all.. the unluckyness jus fall on my slowly.. it is nth massive and big.. but suffering from this jus gif me a hell lifetime.. could u imagine that whatever u wanted jus went wrong? and i mean almost everything.. whenever i wanted something to happen.. with confidence and everything.. and it jus hab nvr fail to destroy everything.. jus by studies i also can gif u an example.. u all see my marks in 4 caring and 5 thinking is not bad.. but u know wad? when 4 caring.. i have dam lots of confidence in my social studies.. but now my ss sux.. and i hab no confidence on geo.. my geo became so good.. it jus hav to opp.. i also dunno wad can i do le.. yi qian sec 3.. my science was good.. but at sec 3 mid year.. it came back with a fail.. i at that time emo in class.. recess also no go.. sec 4.. my chi quite good.. sec 3 also.. now sec 5.. every paper failed.. and i mean EVERY PAPER.. no test given back to me with a pass.. can u imagine? and i know no 1 know jus this studies thing.. and i gurantee that.. there are jus too many things that are hidden from u all.. know y i keep tell xian some of my xin shi? becus my heart are already too filled with all this nonsence.. i cannot contain anymore.. and i jus have to let go some of it.. and thats y.. xian shud know.. i have told him quite alot of my things le.. andy also.. hong jin also.. this are the ppl where i told them things.. not becus i want let them know or wad.. but im forced to.. if i don.. i think i will break down at that time.. everything are jus kept in my heart.. it jus felt so terrible.. even love also are playing with me.. i really cant sort my feeling out.. i jus couldnt.. unable to show my love towards who i love.. and it again.. was kept in my heart.. it jus hurt when im thinking of her.. it really hurt.. i really felt it.. the pain of sword piercing thru my heart.. i felt it.. i was in deep pain when i jus think of every sad moments with her.. maybe u all don believe me.. but i swear to this bloody god that i really felt the pain.. it really does look like a sword piercing thru.. thou i like to lie to ppl.. but this is no lie.. and when i lie.. i would tell.. thats all.. trust or don trust.. ur business.. i don gif it a damn to anyone anymore.. this is the limit im being pushed.. i really cant tolerate anymore.................

2008-05-09T16:40:00.002+08:00

yo.. i come here post post le.. this time will be a short one.. not in a blogging mood.. lols.. not unhappy.. but no mood to post.. haha.. MYE finally over le.. can no need so stress le.. but i also don wish to start school.. it jus sux.. rather exam all the way.. lols.. hahaha.. can early go home somemore.. lols.. xD.. wish i can pass most of them bah.. if fail jiu jia lat liao.. lols.. chi O lvl coming le.. 26 may.. scary.. but i haven been caring abt it.. lols.. doomsday for me.. ahaha.. wish its a easy paper.. can very easy pass bah.. lols.. haha.. k le.. i go le.. cya.. byee..!

2008-05-01T17:00:00.003+08:00

hiiya.. came to post le.. haha.. jus now i reading my history of my posts.. during march and april of 2007.. i always been talking abt my love towards a girl.. lols.. which is sandy.. every post hab her.. she's seems to be my everything liddat.. haha.. without her.. im jus a piece of heartless guy (without heart no evil).. lols.. haha.. but den at april 2007 top 3 post.. we break le.. lols.. sad case.. haha.. i only read this 2 month de.. read dao going to slp le.. lols.. haha.. i cant imagine that i keep writing abt her every post.. lol diao.. but now.. she not the person which stained my mind.. my mind now is quite luan.. also dunno haha.. theres a period of time.. where esther are out of my mind.. but now.. i dunno.. it seems to be back le.. god bless.. there's no hope of us being tgt.. i also dunno y i keep thinking of her.. nvm.. heck care le.. i guess slowly will go de.. haha.. and also.. ximin.. since i always talk craps and always bluff ppl.. den i don talk to u.. i think its better.. so no craps no bluff anymore.. ok.. write till here.. i also dunno wad im writing.. feel strange.. my feelings like being cut away.. i write halfway.. cut diao.. i talk dao like no link at all.. jump all around.. haha.. ok suan le.. i change blogskin le.. also not very nice.. but at least its new.. haha.. ok le.. dunno wad to post le.. i go le.. bb

2008-04-28T22:07:00.003+08:00

well.. hi.. come to post again le.. lols.. on the first day of may.. im changing blogskin.. so lets awaits to my new blogskin arrival =).. lols.. actually there's nth for me to post.. my mind is blank.. except, im thinking of a girl right now =).. lols.. i guess there's no 1 who know who she is.. except for..? xian.. haha.. secrets are safe with him.. wahahhaa.. LOL.. i feel sad for xian.. i guess he have alot ppl de secrets nia.. cus alot ppl say to him secrets de.. =x.. think only la.. i also not sure.. haha.. actually im also a keeper of secrets.. know y? not as if i wont tell anyone.. but den.. is i forgotten them cleanly.. LOL.. thats y im a good keeper.. hahaha.. now is resting period.. no test.. MYE will resume on friday.. so sian.. lalala~~ fail liao fail liao.. lols.. i think i shudnt always saying fail liao fail liao.. know y? i think i didnt considerate for other ppl.. as i read xian's blog.. i find that his MYE did very badly (not suan u) and den i keep say i fail liao when im doing alot better.. feel that im hurting him =.=.. lols.. haha.. i think im stopping here le.. cya..~~

2008-04-26T22:16:00.008+08:00

below is a post of my own thoughts and feeling.. i have no intention of sharing with anyone.. but i wanted to write it out.. this type of this normally i would put in my phone.. but i did not hab it with my side.. so i typed it out here.. even if u want to read.. u can.. but please.. no comments on this post.. thank you.

wondering y i del the last post? cus i think i written the worst post ever.. nvm.. i don wan to go into detailed with it.. i wonder wad's wrong with me.. i've been saying stupid things this few days.. and and and i dunno y the hell i say that.. it really freak me off thinking abt it.. haiz.. i really feel that im such a failure.. wish that i could hide in 1 corner and hide from the whole world.. nvr do i want to come out.. don ask me y.. cus i also dunno how would i explain it to u all.. jus that i feel it that way.. and really wishes it.. if i can get 3 wishes from heaven.. i would jus wish that i could died peacefully during slp.. and nvr wake up.. i no need 3 wishes.. jus this 1 wish.. im enuff.. i really hate to live in this world.. if can i also really don wish to reincarnate and come back to this world.. full of sorrows.. there will be no peace in this world.. haiz.. i was wondering if god are really doing their work anot.. if there are really god.. shuldnt god be kind and generous? but y did he be so stingy to me.. i only wanted 1 wishes.. is that hard? if there are 1 lesser ppl.. wont that be better? its good to them.. they jus hab to take me away while im asleep.. thats difficult? wont they jus answer my call? haiz.. im back to emo self again.. y? cus the reality we facing now isnt that easy.. it always make me fall when im jus abt to stand upright.. im trying my best to keep my smiles.. but will that bring me any good i wonder.. and will my smiles bring happiness to my surroundings? or it will jus be unaffected.. i wish i could be myself.. no need to bring out a fake smile infront of everyone.. jus wanted to be alone and quiet.. if 1 day everyone would nvr care abt me.. that may be a better thing.. yea.. maybe im anti social.. so what.. i am anti social.. becus thats me.. i jus want to be myself for some degree.. cant even i do that? y force myself to do things i don like.. but then.. u all have been always telling me to be more social.. do this and that.. and i listened.. but.. i wont not able to hold it any more longer.. im at my limits already.. i jus wanted to hide from this world.. haiz..

2008-04-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. haha.. today.. i think i done something which im happy about, which is i talk back to liu lao shi.. haha.. actually.. i not talk back alot.. jus somehow ignore her.. saying yaya.. she say she cant help me if i continue liddat.. den i say den don help lo.. lols.. thou not big case.. but at least im able to say wad i want.. i still got alot i wanna say de.. but don wan.. cus.. yi qian i still quite good with her de.. don wan be so bad.. but if she continue to aim me always.. i really cannot tahan anymore.. sure will say everything.. i really bu shuang with her liao.. her dictionary don hab a word called encourage.. gu li.. i nvr heard that she encourage me be4.. nvr.. i can swear with my life that it hasnt been 1 time she ever do that.. she only know wad is pour cold water.. dragging my dertermination down.. ok.. nvm.. don talk abt it le.. abt today.. i tio caught to cut hair.. zzzz.. my back too long.. tio mr vik cut.. @*#(*&!#@!@!.. den i nvr go cut hair today.. jin and xian go cut only.. well.. i too lazy le.. haha.. later tell my mum help me repair my hair ok le.. lols.. xDD.. den was chi.. after that.. pe.. we did not much.. got a game soccer.. thou i nvr played much.. but standing at the side.. see ball fly around only.. haha.. well.. after that is phy.. nvr listen to lee lesson at all.. he also same attitude as liu lao shi de.. but his better off den her.. but.. lee is aim all ppl de.. he don specific target ppl.. general.. lols.. haha.. den.. i at back talking with jin.. after phy recess.. didnt eat recess.. wanna save money.. wanna jian fei xD.. haha.. but today dinner make me fat again =.=.. lols.. sad case.. haha.. after that.. is ss.. henry today no teach anything.. cus teach finish le.. only let us self studying.. also gif us alot notes.. quite good.. haha.. den spend whole period talking again.. nono shud say half period only.. cus first half jin don wan talk to me.. cus angry =.=.. den i read notes.. den slowly we talk again.. =x.. after that.. is math.. 2 period.. but ms ng nvr come.. so relief teacher take over.. he brought us to ava room.. heard that he is ex evg student den become teacher de.. haha.. his good.. we at ava lab talk talk.. again.. i talk to jin.. been talking to him whole day.. haha.. den.. becus sch wan let us do self study at home.. so everyone was dismiss at 1 30.. so jin and xian came my house.. jin occupied comp.. while i take ps2.. xian continued his drawings.. i played ps2 for abt 45 min.. den i sian le.. so i go slp.. till jin and xian go home.. haha.. den comp is mine le.. but den.. nth to do.. lols.. haha.. ok.. tml.. mid year exam start le.. tml eng paper liao.. sad.. i can tell u.. 90% i will fail eng and chi.. this two sub i hab not pass from the beginning of the year 2008.. i also dunno wad happen to me.. during sec 4.. my all sub is pass one.. and chi is one of my best sub de.. or 2nd best.. cus my science 1st.. but now.. i totally lost hope.. lost the hope of passing chi le.. with pressure given by teachers.. i really cannot take it.. oh well.. take 1 step at a time bah.. no point le.. friday is chi test le.. hack care liao.. anyhow pia le.. maybe by luck.. i passed both papers, eng and chi.. lols.. haha.. but i don think so.. from small.. im been unlucky le.. i am a abandoned kid by heaven.. guess u all also dunno wad i mean.. haha.. ok le.. i write till here le.. cya all.. bye..

2008-04-22T17:11:00.003+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. today i nvr go sch.. cus overslept.. haha.. my mum alarm nvr ring.. lols.. sian sia.. today i wanna go sch de.. if don wan go.. i rather thrusday or friday don wan go.. cus go eng.. lols.. oh well.. too bad.. hahaha.. hmm.. abt ytd.. go sch.. first 2 period free period.. but with chem worksheet.. den at 2nd period.. ximin came to our class.. cus she also free period.. lols.. den me and jin and her chat chat.. after that.. the class left we 3 only.. amy they all go find mr zainudin.. den i go out.. don wan be gooseberry btw jin and ximin =x.. haha.. den go toliet.. come back.. saw jin wanna go bookshop.. i faster pull him back lols.. but he don wan.. so i pei him walk till the corridoor.. den i go back to the class.. saw ximin come out.. den i go in class.. ximin go to jin there.. lols.. so i in class sit wait for them.. after awhile.. jin came in =.=.. den i ask.. bookshop still close ah.. lols.. den he look at my eyes.. we had a "conversation" and i know y he nvr go buy the books le.. LOL.. thats wad brothers are for.. we can talk thru minds.. wahahaha.. den ximin also come in.. becus boring.. so i go take basketball and play.. with jin of cus.. lols.. den.. henry came in our class.. den tell ximin go to dynamic.. cus very noisy.. they cut grass.. so henry let them read newspaper.. so nvr study.. thats y ximin can go back.. lols.. well.. den i and jin in class.. we say.. "henry sure think that becus ximin girl.. den we two guys.. not safe.." our conversation was funny one lols.. but cant really rmb le.. so.. after sch.. attended chinese remedial.. (i became so guai) =.=.. but i not zi yuan de.. i only pei jin they all.. thruout the remedial.. only write compo.. dam sian.. i chiong all the way.. den do finish.. but know wad? teacher nvr gu li wo.. still puo wo leng shui.. cus my compo short (but that's not short to me le.. thats avg length i always write..) but know wad she say? she say.. this is the shortest compo i ever get from this class.. i heard that.. and i really wish to gif her 1 punch.. i gif her face attend remedial already.. (cus she complain to my form teacher that i nvr go remedial..) and she liddat.. du lan diao.. i rather don go.. if she wan.. go complain mr chan la.. i rather get expel or suspend.. i hav no heart on O lvl already.. go sch also for fun only.. i already heck care liao.. i really wish chen lao shi can come back teach me.. she is the best chi teacher i ever had.. now change to this stupid teacher.. to say the truth.. its 1 of the main reason i gif up on O lvl.. i had bunch of idiot teacher which make me don feel like going to sch at all.. first.. eng teacher.. mr chua.. chua sai.. see his face i no mood study.. 2nd.. liu lao shi.. chi teacher.. only know how to scold dunno wad is encourage weak students.. always very good to good students.. to me and those weak in chi de ppl.. nvr encourage.. only scold and lecturing.. fuck off.. 3rd.. mr clement lee.. phy teacher.. i really cant imagine how am i going to pass my phy.. i could not understand wth he talking.. his teaching method is sux dao siao one i can tell u.. but.. becus of some sub de teachers are better.. i still can hab some hopes.. like.. chem.. ms loke.. she teach very well.. i can understand wad she teaching.. only that i don understand the chem.. ok.. and geo.. mr zainudin.. his a very patience teacher.. he nvr get angry very easily.. only got 1 time.. cus our class really de chun jing chi.. out of 40+ ppl in the class.. only a few ppl pass up the homework.. somemore already gif alot days allowance to pass up the hwk.. but still no ppl pass up.. den he scold us.. after that.. he continue back to his own self.. he only want us to think abt it.. he want to help us.. his really a good teacher.. well.. in conclude.. i rather back to 4 caring teachers.. thou they are fierce.. discipline masters.. but they teach hell lots better den this batch of teachers teaching 5 thinking.. math teacher.. 4 caring.. mrs karen tan.. 5 thinking ms ng.. both are good.. so i don mind math.. eng.. 4 caring mr vik.. 5 thinking mr chua.. this one.. i confirm guarantee must change.. ratish or vik also can.. but no chua pls.. for geo.. i rather 5 thinking one.. chem.. 5 thinking one.. chi.. i rather 4 caring one.. which is huang mei.. thou i kind of dislike huang mei.. but she is hell better den liu.. i jus hate liu becus of her always pulling me down when im trying to climb.. SS.. sec 4 and 5 already same teacher.. so nvm.. his still acceptable.. which is mr henry.. den.. sec 4.. still got CPA.. which i want.. cus im interested in computer learnings.. rather den theory writings.. i want work on computers.. i want learn javascript all those.. haha.. ok le la.. i think im stopping here le.. i go le.. cya.. bye..

2008-04-20T10:45:00.002+08:00

lol.. hi.. i come post le.. actually nth to post nia.. but trying to waste sometime bahx.. time is like crawling.. lols.. i think the best way to waste time only by watching drama or anime le.. i spent whole of ytd watching drama.. xiao yu'er yu hua wu que.. lols.. i rewatch this for 3rd time le.. lols.. been rewatching alot shows.. haha.. well.. i think i going to go watch finish by today le.. left a few ep.. but den.. my mum has been nagging.. keep saying nvr study.. only play.. lols.. 1 more week jiu mid year le.. i nvr touch dao books.. i wondering.. after O's.. really will i regret? lols.. i bet alot ppl will say yes.. haha.. its common sense ya.. but den.. i really don hab the mood to go touch those books.. by looking at them.. i don feel like taking them and read.. lols.. haiz.. somemore love affairs made me headache even more.. thou there's no more family problem le.. but den.. my house getting lesser ppl le.. my big bro went oversea for dunno how long.. thou not very long.. but think got months.. lols.. den my mum and sis.. morning gone.. only at night 10 30 den come back.. sian diao.. fan also.. haiya haiya.. so lonely.. lols.. ok le.. i go continue watch show le.. cya..

2008-04-16T19:48:00.003+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. haha.. already a few days nvr sms her le.. i tried very hard not to sms her wor.. everytime at night.. lie on bed.. cant sleep de.. always thinking of her de.. don wan also cannot.. den will hand ichty.. den feel like sms her.. but need to hold myself down.. its hard u know.. lols.. haha.. ok.. lets talk abt this 3 days.. lols..

Monday, 14 april
well.. on monday.. nth happen except 1 thing.. which is.. rebellion =.=.. lols.. me, andy and hong jin.. (not sure kai jie did it anot) we left school at 1 30.. which monday we release at 2 15.. we run away from assembly.. lols.. we like getting bad and bad.. hahaha.. that time.. we also run away.. but den.. we stayed in sch.. this time.. we run out of sch.. next time.. even maths lesson also run.. den next time.. eng and math also run.. den next time.. no come sch le.. cus y? tio expel le.. hahaha.. ok.. but den.. we run away.. it was raining =.=.. i think we somehow run during the wrong time.. lols.. den all come my house.. soaked with rainwater.. lols.. den i said that.. later 2 15 rain stop how?.. so.. we wait till 2 15.. and noticed that.. the rain really stopped.. we was like.. wtf =.=.. shud hab stayed in sch.. lols.. funny.. lols..

Tuesday, 15 april
on tuesday wor.. same thing.. after sch.. jin came my house.. his been doing this for weeks.. almost everyday come my house.. lols.. haha.. always come my house to play cabal.. lols.. he really addicted to cabal liao.. but den.. he always liddat.. addicted to some games.. AFTER we have quitted.. lol sia.. ok.. nth more today le..

Wednesday, 16 april
which is today.. hmm.. in sch.. PE.. was surprising fun.. cus.. today was suppose to be fitness day.. no games.. but den.. vik let us play.. already almost 2 or 3 weeks keep game le.. so happy.. today i played basketball.. haha.. play with twenyo.. lai you.. weldon.. kai jie.. syfudin and andy.. lols.. was fun.. haha.. den after sch.. jin came again.. den this time.. i went to slp.. lols.. den when jin wan to go le.. he tgt with xian wake me up.. lols.. xian also dunno when come my house de.. so i say ok and continued my sweet dream.. after i wake up.. which is 7.. well.. not exactly wake up la.. i only wake up to take my hp.. but nvr did i tot.. xian was outside of my house.. he waited outside.. for 2 hours.. lols.. that was lame.. know y he waited? becus he left his hp and key at my house.. thats a good one.. he lucky nia.. i come out to take hp.. but at first.. i walk out.. nvr expect to see him.. i tio stun.. lols.. saw him at my door.. lols.. lucky bastard =x.. hahaha.. if not i will continue to slp like a pig.. till my bro back.. lols.. hahaha..

ok le.. nth more to post liao.. haha.. mid year exams coming le.. felt so stress.. nvm.. i think im not striving for the best le.. not aiming for poly le? haha.. i also dunno myself.. haizz.. wad to do~~.. nvm.. i stop writing le.. cya.. bye..

2008-04-12T19:50:00.002+08:00

ok.. i guess i really want to let go of her le.. believe or not is ur decision.. i will try my very best already.. yi qian.. i always say i want to let go.. but i will still remains feeling that i want to wait for her.. now.. i really getting rid of that thinking le.. i want to let go.. truly.. i know it's not gonna be easy.. and my hearts gonna hurt alot.. but.. to wait on liddat.. is not gonna help me.. rather than clinging on towards a hopeless route.. i rather to change the route.. maybe its longer.. but it brings me another hope.. to a new world.. i will change.. sayonara "my love".. now.. without target.. no love.. no game.. no studies.. i really dun know wad i should do.. shud i really go for my studies.. sometimes.. i really wish i can chiong for studies.. but.. i have a very weak memories.. formula are forgotten really easy.. i can understand concept well.. but with weak memory.. after a week without touching the topic.. it will all be forgotten.. i know i know.. ppl will tell me.. den keep on revising so u wont forget.. but.. im not interested in studies.. i cant stick to books.. i tried be4.. by revising myself at home.. but nth gone into my head.. and also.. even if i keep revising.. am i able to revise 5 years of studies in 1 day? no right.. i today study 1.. tml forget.. den study another one.. forget again.. how am i going to study.. u tell me.. if u don believe that my memory really that weak.. u can ask my best fren.. xian or jin or andy.. they can prove it.. u tell me something today.. tml u tell me again.. and said u ytd got tell me.. i only will reply.. "got meh?".. its too often that this case happen.. so.. i don think studies really fit for me.. and u know.. normally.. u find that my class test sometimes can get very high.. u know y? as i said.. i understand concept very well.. and class test is test abt that topic.. so i can do well.. but when real exams come.. which test everything.. i become weak.. becus i don rmb alot of things le.. except those just taught one.. sometime i even forget all.. like wad this time the chem class test.. i forgotten how to do redox reactions already.. jus becus of 3 or 4 days nvr teach dao that topic.. if i not wrong.. den i forget le.. neutralization.. teacher has been teaching and teaching.. but i forgotten.. thats how bad my memory can be.. haiz.. sadness..

2008-04-11T21:30:00.004+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. haha.. today.. hab 1 news that shocked me.. the girl i love.. she said she hab feelings for me.. that was wow.. but den.. everything is too late.. we cannot turn back.. so.. maybe frens is still a better thing.. well.. to hear that she hab feelings for me.. im already very happy.. i hab been always thinking that.. i might be irritating to her.. maybe she dislikes me.. or things liddat.. but to hear that she got feelings! so happy.. cannot tgt.. but still better den nth.. but.. got 1 thing that is sad is that.. shud i even let go? or continue to love her leiis? u know we cant be tgt.. the chance of tgt is almost 0%.. well.. maybe jus a few %.. but.. its jus too low.. so.. with a meaningless love..wad shud i do? love, or not? it is such a difficult choice.. my brain is going to broken down jus by thinking of this question.. lols.. at last.. i found a temporary answer.. which is continue to love first.. lets see how things go bahx.. haha.. 1 thing abt me which is good.. is that.. i think my emotionally controlling is good.. things which shud can make a person emo i can make dao very happy.. even if im sad.. i can be back to happy within a few moments of silence.. within a day.. really.. lols.. hahaha.. well.. today also not much things happen.. except i jus said de things.. so not going to write anymore le.. haha.. cya all.. bye~..

2008-04-09T18:25:00.002+08:00

hello all.. im back.. but guess also not many ppl viewing this blog also le.. hahaha.. nvm.. i reached 2 thousand visitors le.. thx all =).. haha.. okay.. u all know wad? i go tell a girl that i liked her.. i think i kinda regretted for saying that.. now she is troubling with this.. and also.. i kind of don dare to look at her also le.. wtf =.=.. she said she wont avoid me but it seems that IM the one who is avoiding.. hahaha.. cannot blame ma.. i tried to look at her.. but den my eye like keep want to repel to the side.. lols~ funny haha.. now we talk very less le.. that time be4 i said i like her.. we were still having fun lols.. but now.. sadness.. we become more and more stranger.. but den.. i guess this is better.. wait till the feeling was gone again.. den go back to frens bah.. now let me calm myself.. try not to think abt her haha.. because.. now i also confuse with my own feelings.. well.. this girl which i jus told her abt my feeling de.. the feeling is still not very deep.. but den.. got 1 more girl.. which i love her from the beginning of secondary life.. i guess u all know who.. my feeling with her has nvr been removed from my heart.. im serious.. i also dunno y.. it's been too deep i guess.. it's hard for me to forget her.. really hard.. tried and tried to forget her.. but its gone to waste.. maybe i can.. jus 1 day.. not thinking of her.. but next day.. if i don think of her.. im going to be mad.. trust me.. lols.. so.. trying to stable my feelings now.. okay.. stop talking abt it le.. lets talk abt wad happen this few days bah..

9th april
today.. hmm.. normal sch day as usual.. hab math test.. which i did badly.. wanna cry le.. the 5 marks fly away.. because i pressed my calculator wrong.. den ans wrong.. =.=.. stupid me.. hahaha.. den after sch.. jin came my house.. play cabal.. lols.. i quite sian of it le.. so nvr play le.. many ppl also quit liaos.. so sad nia.. T_T.. well.. now only xian keep playing only.. but he also getting sian le.. he not very chiong liao.. hahaha.. well..

8th april
tuesday.. same again (=.=) jin came my house.. played CABAL AGAIN... lols.. den i was slping at the sofa.. listening to music from my phone.. well.. normally.. my phone when listening to music.. will sot diao one.. as in it will restarted anytime de.. when listening music halfway.. it suddenly restart.. dam irritating one.. but when i was slping.. during that time.. the phone nvr restart dao.. miracle.. lols.. hahaha.. den at 5.. jin went home again.. haha.. nowadays jin keep come my house play cabal le.. cus my house cabal better to play.. no lag no disturbance graphic (blur) lols.. 1 thing that it sux is that my comp might get restarted for no reason.. but that happen not really often.. hahaha..

7th april
on monday.. same thing.. jin also came my house after sch.. xian also.. den at 5.. we all went out.. jin went back home.. while me and xian go to eat at 768.. after that.. we went to xian's house.. at there watch my lucky star.. i showed him the episode which is quite funny.. but romantic.. hahaha.. stayed till 9 30.. i decided to go home.. xian pei me.. den we walk walk walk.. but i don feel like going home also.. so stay outdoor.. den we go 1 playground talk.. talk till abt 11 15.. den we went home.. haha.. well..

6th april
on sunday.. well.. not much hav happen on that day i guess.. maybe cus i couldnt rmb bah.. but nvm.. on sat happen alot of things.. lets see..

5th april
on saturday, 5th.. went to esther de buffet.. well.. xian came my house at around 1+ liddat.. well.. couldnt rmb that well.. den he were playing cabal.. lols.. den andy came my house at 3 30 i guess.. he went to shao mu.. den come to my house.. after that.. becus was raining at that time.. we wait till around 4 15 den go.. but den.. on the way to esther house..(jia ming house) it started to rain again.. and it was so heavy.. den we reached esther house finally.. but drenched.. haha.. den.. at esther house.. she was so....... dao =.=.. she didnt even care abt us man.. she only talk with her relatives/friends but not we 3.. (without jin cus he at home playing cabal =.=) i was.. wtf.. how can she liddat nia.. we are guest.. and we was wet she didnt even bring us a towel.. OR TALK TO US.. =.=.. i was sian diao.. lols.. well.. after that.. it was so jiang ying.. the qi fen there was so sux.. me and andy talk hab to whisper nia.. lols.. den xian so sian.. after that.. xian dunno for wad reason went out of house without informing us where he going.. den we continued to sit at esther house.. den after a period of time.. cus jia ming they all at there playing with dog.. (maybe looks like torturing =.=) andy couldnt bear to see anymore.. asked me to go with him to 883.. den we went there.. here's the funny part.. we went to 7 eleven which he wanted to buy the prepaid card.. after he bought it.. we decided not to go back esther house.. because it was so sux.. haha.. den we go find some spot to sit or rest.. but den.. couldnt find it.. den suddenly andy started something.. he said.. "i really wish i could change channel" (cus we couldnt find any spot to sit) den we finally found a place to sit.. but becus jus rain be4.. its abit wet.. but not the seat we sit on la.. not wet.. but table wet.. lols.. i said.. "wooo.. finally find a spot.. but exp very low.. jiang jiu yi dian" (we are talking abt games.. cabal..) den we at there keep crapping.. i said to andy "i also feel like changing channel.. this spot sux.. exp so low.. gonna take hours to lvl.. (i stop for awhile den continue) nono.. here only can change server.. so if we want to change.. we hab to cre8 new char..(can understand? nvm i'll explain.. it means that.. in reality.. if we want to change.. we hab to kill ourself and recarnate.. so we'll hav to begin our life from the beginning.. as wad i saying.. we 16 years old so i continued to said) we lvl 16 le.. difficult train one nia..(so to begin a new char is begin a new life.. which is from zero lvl.. zero years old..) den i tell andy to call jin becus we very sian.. tell jin to come pei us.. den he called.. we waited for jin to come.. but jin was very slow.. so i said.. "wa lao.. jin comp hang issit.. den keep restarting issit.. waiting for him to login nia.." while we are waiting.. suddenly.. rain droplets drop on my hand.. den more and more.. but andy didnt tio.. i keep say "wtf.. stupid tree" den.. andy also tio.. it was super funny if u were there hearing our conversation.. becus it's not tree droplets.. but is.. it starting to rain again.. den more and more droplets of rainwater.. i said.. "stupid sky, ks our spot, raiding raiding! sky raid our spot!! u think u pro can ks us issit.." (becus we have to go to other place as it is starting to rain =p) lols.. den we still hab to move away.. we find another spot to "train on" lols.. which is we sit at staircase.. esther block 1st floor which is outside of the lift.. i said "another spot, another spot, let's train.. thou exp low.. but better den nth.." andy said.. "ya ya, we now fighting green snail.. we can lvl very high one but keep train on low lvl monster.. thats y only lvl 16.." den we crapping again.. we keep saw ppl walk pass ma.. den we say abt wad lvl he was.. wad class.. den saw 2 adults 1 kid.. i said " wa got 2 lvl high one.. party sia they all.." den andy said.. "got 1 low lvl de.." den i said.. "maybe they 3 party tgt.. training the low lvl one.." super funny.. den got 2 girl was walking down the stair.. got 1 wear mini skirt.. den becus we sitting at the 3rd step of the staircase.. they was walking down.. as i need to look up.. saw ppl coming.. den i move away let ppl walk ma.. den i look up.. i was wtf.. mini skirt.. i quickly turn my head over and move away.. (i not that pervert, trust me).. den i and andy was laughing all the way.. den cat suddenly call me.. ask me where am i.. den i asked where is she first.. the funyn thing was.. she said she at the lift.. but den.. arent we sitting outside of the lift at the first place? LOL.. so funny.. at first i dunno wad she mean.. but she was at the 6th floor de lift.. thats y nvr see her.. haha.. den she came down and find us.. soon.. saw twenyo jenn shuyi beeyee amy alicia they all.. den they all went up tgt.. 1 more thing that is funny.. as they were calling me and andy go up.. we said don wan.. den the lai you.. stand at the life middle.. (the lift don hab sensor de) den he cross his hand den diao us.. we keep shake our heads.. den the lift was closing.. lai you get pulled in by twenyo.. if u see how laiyou was being pulled.. u sure laugh dao siao.. hahaha.. he was looking at us.. den stand until so shuai.. den suddenly get pulled in.. LOL.. hahaha.. den forget who le.. got 1 ppl tell me buffet come le.. so we called jin again.. and he told us he still at home.. going to bath.. i was wtf.. den we lame again.. i said.. "wa lao.. his comp sux to the core.." andy said.. "ya lo.. make us wait so long.. training on green snail.." lols.. den.. suddenly.. got 1 person bringing some kind of garanguni de bicycle down the stairs.. den both of us need to move away.. den after they go away le.. i said.. "wa.. they ks us sia.." den andy said.. "lightning mage.. tele, lightning, tele lightning.." we was laughing till siao.. hahaha.. den we decided to go up.. when we reached 6 floor.. twenyo they all was still standing there.. it was funny.. when the door open.. den saw jennifer.. i tio scare dao.. hahaha.. den we go near esther house.. den stand at the corridor.. becus alot ppl le.. we don wan go in.. den soon.. twenyo they all went in.. we at there say.. sure cannot go in one.. house too small =.=.. den wan to squeeze all ppl.. lols.. haha.. den we went to sit on the stairs again.. but this time is 6 floor de.. haha.. den they went in.. we wait for jin to come.. so at there crapping again.. say this time fighting slime.. lols.. cus henesys hunting ground ma.. go up 1 step is slime.. lols.. hahaha.. den after that saw hiro walk past.. den finally.. jin came.. tgt.. we went into the house.. and andy called xian to come.. btw.. xian went back home =.=.. lol diao.. den at there.. we eat the buffet at abt 6+ .. den xian gave esther the hong bao which me, xian and andy shared and gif her tgt.. lols.. den.. we sit at the sofa chatting.. well.. not going into detailed abt this.. den after that.. at 7 45.. we go le.. jin and andy went home.. while me and xian go cwp.. pei ximin buy present.. present for gc de.. haha.. well.. also not much to say abt this.. but i have been silence thruout.. cus ximin say i very chao.. ok lo.. den i diam diam.. lols.. den reached home.. finally.. at around 10+.. lols.. haha.. finally.. the day ended..

The End
well.. i guess i write very long for today de post haha.. SLOWLY read =p.. hahaha.. so stopping here le.. cya all.. bye~~..

2008-03-29T18:20:00.004+08:00

hello~ welcome me back? haha.. know y i this few days will post le ma? cus sian of cabal liao.. hahaha.. me san fen zhong re du de.. haha.. but den im happy to play till 80 lvl lols.. hahaha.. one more reason is sian is cus.. most of the ppl also quit le.. super boring.. left me.. xian.. kian.. and chen hui playing only.. lols.. ximin only come in disturb.. gc playing his cnc.. den seng elliot they all quit le.. =.=.. super boring.. haha.. ok.. talk abt today.. well.. my bro fren are now playing ps2.. got derrick.. joe.. huat.. and one more person i dunno de.. but i know.. his name almost same as me.. wad yi de.. lols.. ding yi i think.. lols.. me ming yi.. so alike.. hahaha.. den jus now they playing mahjong.. lols.. also got lyesia.. but he went to meet his gf.. heard that his neck got love bite =x.. hahaha.. 2 love bite.. ming xian.. hahaha.. wonder how his gf bite de.. haha.. i also dunno.. blehhs.. as for me.. from morning till afternoon was in cabal.. den come out.. cus too sian le.. den i go find songs.. find le around 10 songs.. nice =).. haha.. 1 of them is my blog song.. haha.. quite nice right.. haha.. =p.. must enjoy the song wor~ haha.. and also rmb to tag me.. haha.. k le.. i think thats all.. haha.. cya.. bye~~

2008-03-27T14:33:00.004+08:00

ellos everyone.. lols.. long time no post le.. blog rotting le.. everyone else blog also.. almost (and i mean almost not all) all of the blog is dead.. really.. almost all the link to other blogs is link to the dead.. lols.. haha.. soon my one will also dead le.. no mood to post haha.. =p.. maybe long time post one time only.. haha.. too bad.. i also wont know how many ppl reading only.. write also no use liddat.. cus i don share my xin shi on net.. except sometimes.. den i write only to entertain the wall.. lols.. hahaha.. jus now watched ppl play piano.. i really wish i can have 1 and learn how to play.. i really likes piano.. it brings out someone feelings.. haha.. ytd.. went to esther de house.. see her baby.. quite cute haha.. but all my attention are more on the dog.. and esther.. ahahaha.. don think too far.. jus more attention on them.. lols.. i quite like the dog.. wish my dog could become like hers.. at least.. it wont bark =.=.. lols.. haha.. den on esther is cus.. long time no see mahx.. hahaha.. on 5th i also going to esther de buffet.. lol.. but i think also wont eat and stay very long.. hahaha.. thats me =).. hahaha.. ok le la. i talking alot of craps.. nth much to say le.. cya.. bb..

2008-03-15T18:03:00.007+08:00

My sex appeal is 6.4 out of 10.
Ladies beware!!!

lols.. hello.. haha.. this all things is i visit jia hui's blog den saw de.. so i took it too.. since i so long no post le.. den post some rubbish to cover it up =x.. LOL.. hahaha.. well.. lets say abt thursday.. i went to twenyo's chalet.. to celebrate 3 ppl de bday.. forget who le.. hahaha.. i only know got lai you's birthday too.. haha.. den at there was boring lols.. nth to do.. but i guess its still quite fun thou.. hahaha.. oh ya.. we at there.. nearly fight.. lai you and some other ppl.. lols.. lame sia.. that guy nth to do hahaha.. but in the end.. miss ng... urmm.. wrong wrong.. mrs lim go report to the.. i also dunno where.. counter? LOL.. hahaha.. den they change our room.. to some deserted places =.=.. lols.. haha.. den after that.. we at there BBQ.. hong jin.. he BBQ from afternoon to night.. and has been eating from afternoon to night.. as if everything was his.. and he will nvr full =.=.. he eat dam lots of food lols.. hahaha.. after that.. around 10+.. we went home.. we includes andy, hong jin, loong xian, me and mrs lim.. haha.. we ride MRT home.. lols.. we at first.. was waiting for the shuttle bus.. but den.. after waiting to 9 30.. we found out.. the shuttle bus 9 30 got break.. 10 den can ride.. we tio stun.. we waited there for 30 min in waste.. hahaha.. den we walk to the bus stop and ride Bus to the interchange.. lols.. we on the way back home was very fun.. i like the moment.. we suan each other suan dao siao.. really fun.. den mrs lim also suan tgt.. hahaha.. den hong jin at ang mo kio get down.. cus he need to go his granma house.. den we went on to admiralty den get off.. left mrs lim who get off at woodlands.. lols.. hahahaha.. den each of us reached home.. me.. on comp and start playing cabal!! hahhaa.. k le.. think thats only the part where got things to write abt haha.. =p.. cya.. have a nice day..

2008-03-01T17:31:00.005+08:00

hello fellas blog reader =).. haha.. change of a method of my opening post wahaha.. today also start of first day of march.. change of something also good hahaha.. =p.. lols.. i now is dam sian de lo.. nth to do.. cabal dunno when den open beta den start.. zzz.. wish it faster open haha.. btw.. all my CT test back le.. kind of sad with my sub.. my chi and eng fail -.-.. i was wtf diao.. wad am i learning den -.-.. tamil or malay ah.. lols.. hahaha.. but the rest of my sub passed.. and some is quite good de wor.. chem and geo top in class.. physics also top few de.. lols.. hahaha.. when CT test de marks out in report book le.. i think i can get at least a top 5 in class.. lols.. or maybe top 3? woot. lols.. hahaha.. dunno can win hiro ma.. hahaha.. weldon nei.. sure lose him.. haha.. sometime i feel like going to ITE lols.. sec 5 is stress + sian.. my motive to sec 5 like only for frens leiis.. have no mood on studying.. 5 subject only.. need pass all.. somemore is O lvl.. hard de.. sure will fail at least 1 sub de.. how to go poly sia.. dam sad.. T_T.. i shud hab choosen higher nitec lols.. that time i keep think of i want pei hong jin and xian to sec 5 de.. so nvr choose ite.. lols.. somemore now pei li also go ite le.. she repeat sec 4 to take n lvl again.. but in the end.. still give up.. quite sad for her la.. lols.. if her that time got higher nitec for sec 4 le.. she now already in poly.. lols.. haha.. me leiis.. i also dunno sia.. maybe this year i fail O lvl.. den go higher nitec.. quite waste of time.. 1 year.. lols.. but now i only can think of O lvl.. if i now go ITE.. more waste of time.. need study extra 2 year.. wasted 3 year lols.. so if i try O lvl.. maybe i tyco go into poly.. better lols.. if cannot.. den higher nitec lo.. thou i think liddat.. and i know its correct.. the problem is.. O lvl fees.. am i wasting money liddat? 300+ leiis.. my mum work so hard for money.. den i liddat waste.. so sad.. but i dunno wad can i do lols.. haha.. haiz.. hao le bah.. change subject.. don wan talk abt it le.. very saddening.. lols.. for those who are hu ge de fans.. u all got listen to his song.. shud hab notice that.. all his lyrics is chen yu lo.. dam pro.. his chi is dam pro one lo.. i mean the lyrics cre8tor.. lols.. for him to come out such a nice lyrics is difficult nia.. haha.. den all hu ge de song is so nice.. haha.. to think of it.. i still dunno wad is my dream targetted at.. got think of becoming a game professioner.. but i wondering can i anot.. game is hard to cre8 sia.. i dunno if i got the determination to take up the task.. lols.. as u all know.. im lazy pig.. lols.. somemore.. to go into that course is also difficult.. 13 point.. it as if want my life lols.. hahaha.. wondering if ITE got that course anot.. haha.. god bless me.. ok le.. i think i stopping here le.. i wanan go eat le.. haven eaten anything from morning.. dam hungry.. stomach shouting le.. lols.. hahaha =p CYA!

2008-02-28T06:36:00.003+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. since i got time den post wahaha.. look at the time slot.. its 6 30!! lols.. i today woke up early in the morning which is 5 30.. also dunno y.. hahaha.. den come post haha.. ytd those 3 idiots came to my house again.. haha.. no need names also know which 3 idiots which always stick tgt.. =x.. hahahaha.. den we were all playing dota.. using lappy and comp.. we play LAN.. lols.. den after 5+.. they went back home.. which leaves me a silent moment~~ lols... haha.. den i went to slp.. early right? thats y today also early wake up haha.. and i also dunno.. i today abit mad.. go around tagging ppl is always wad i do.. but this time im tagging like im MAD!! lols.. wahahaha.. wish today nothing that makes me sad bah =p.. jus now also do some homework which i nvr do.. hahaha.. today might be getting back our eng result.. quite nervous.. but think i can pass =).. hahaha.. oh ya.. cabalsea closed beta have ended.. so sad that it REALLY had a server wipe.. my char.. my item.. T_T.. oh well.. nvm =).. lets retrain with all our frens inside!!! let the game begins! wahahaha.. my common test mostly i did well.. im so happy.. but for 1 particular sub which make me sad.. is chi.. i FAILED it!!! how could that be possible man.. that should be one of the subject which i can gurantee a pass.. suddenly fail T_T.. okay.. so im determined to learn well for my chi.. lolsssss.... u think i will? if i will.. thats a miracle lols.. hahaha.. but maybe i can try.. hahaha.. afterall.. the first O lvl paper is coming at may.. and that paper is... chi.. so better buck up hehe.. =).. k i go school le.. hola! byeeeee

2008-02-23T02:04:00.003+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. ytd (22 feb) is the start of the cabal close beta.. well.. cabal is quite fun.. but the time limit is too little.. T_T.. also is so late.. need wait dao so late den can play.. boring.. lols.. 7 pm to 1 am.. sadness.. nvm.. at least can play.. well.. i lvl 12 le.. blader.. in our frens im highest i think.. lols.. but got ppl reached lvl 20 le.. omg sia.. i wonder how they train.. i only slack abit nia lols. hahaha.. maybe cus they know how to play.. and also cus of job difference.. blader is mostly single targeting job.. so training abit slow.. dmg also very low.. lols.. but i think blader was fun.. hahaha.. den got alot ppl playing also.. everywhere also alot ppl.. sian diao lols.. but nvm =).. haha.. den.. oh ya.. lets talk abt my common test.. ytd is the last paper le.. physics.. it was quite difficult nia.. scare will fail.. but den.. my chem did quite well.. top in class (13 people take chem) lols.. den also get back math and geo.. math i also pass.. but is the passes inside last person.. only 7 ppl passed.. which mean im the 7th position.. lols.. also quite happy.. den geo........ the most surprising one.. i wonder wad was happening to me.. always liddat de.. u see.. the subjects which i always wish for a very high marks end up with a low marks.. and the subject which i did not have faith in it end up so high.. like my geo.. i've been failing alot time of geo nia.. but suddenly.. after this common test.. it became the 1st position in class.. i was.. WTH!?!?!? lols.. thou i nvr show out.. but my mind was full of.. impossible.. lols.. i always thinking.. aiya.. geo i not interested.. let it fail.. heck care it.. but den.. 26/30.. top-ed.. wad..the..hell.. lols.. but den.. its better den don hab hahaha.. so.. i really dunno wad am i going to do le.. i guess i can pass alot of sub.. but i no faith in eng.. lols.. i dunno how the shit tyrus chua mark.. because.. he return our compo back to us.. that compo.. i have been waiting for it le.. cus i think thats the best compo i even write.. but wad the hell again.. he say my sentence structure is very bad and almost need to force him to rewrite every sentences.. i read dao that one.. dam du lan diao.. he did not even mark finish.. he mark only the first 2 paragraph only.. den nvr mark le.. even if i have done badly.. as a teacher.. he also cannot liddat do lo.. dam hurting u know.. when i take back.. i saw the marks.. saw the remarks.. i nvm.. but saw he didnt mark the rest.. i dam sad.. he can at least entertain me by marking crosses.. but he didnt even write ANYTHING.. feel like whacking him.. haiz.. i really hate tyrus chua alot.. since the first lesson.. i really hate him.. my senses didn't prove me wrong.. im correct.. he really sux.. I HATE HIS LESSON!.. I HATE ENGLISH LESSON!!! god damn it.. freako~.. argh.. dam angry now.. to think of it.. boooooo.. suan le.. already decided.. cant be changed.. zz.. wish he today get banged by a car and become paralysed in hospital for the whole of his life.. im serious and i mean it.. i really wish that.. god bless me.. zzz.. hao le.. i think i stop here le.. bb..

2008-02-17T20:21:00.002+08:00

yo sei! here to post liaos.. hahaha.. 7 days nvr post le.. cant blame nia.. i want go blog also cannot.. blogger cannot go.. blogs cannot go.. google also cannot go.. also dunno wads the reason.. today jus can go in only.. hahaha.. happy.. no need see send/don send thingy le.. lols.. haha.. ytd i went to jin house.. to help him install ft.. ft = frozen throne.. now andy, xian, jin got ft le.. can play tgt le.. haha.. but play with them will vomit blood.. don wan to dirty my comp =x.. hahaha.. den after going jin house.. we went all the wayyyyyyy to orchard.. to collect cabal invitation code.. haha.. its was in the E2max.. orchard's cineplex.. lols.. far right? we went there not even 1 hr come back le.. was wasting so much time jus to go there.. hahahaha.. got me.. xian.. andy.. and kian go there.. hahaha.. all got the code.. those who want to get the code but don hab the invitation also can go de.. but it was on "while stock last".. so want jiu must fas le.. maybe now already dun hab le i also dunno.. hahaha.. but my cabal disc like got prob.. so sad.. lols.. im disappointed with them.. hahaha.. jkjk.. maybe im jus too suay bahx.. ytd.. i reach home.. with a very happy mood.. cus got cabal installation disc le.. but den.. something make me very du lan.. cus comp spoil.. dunno y.. came back liddat.. dunno wad the hell happen.. den comp keep restart after a 10 counts of seconds.. i mean.. count from the login screen start.. lols.. not 10 sec bah.. 20 sec.. den will restart le.. den i go safe mode.. system restore to 1 point of time.. lucky can.. if not im really the very suay person le.. go all the way to orchard.. done nth but get 1 disc.. get back home hurrying.. and found out comp spoilt.. i can go bang the wall.. lols.. hahaha.. den today.. mainly playing dota.. with alwin and kian.. from morning till now.. cus play very long le.. so decided to take a rest.. so come here post.. xian also say i no post no tag.. so here the post he wanted.. slowly read.. wahahaha.. =p.. hahahaha.. k le.. i go talk msn le.. cya..

2008-02-10T19:17:00.001+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. nth to do so come type type things.. lols.. well.. this few days of holiday went pass so fas.. tml will start sch again le.. so sad.. lols.. i didnt really went out and enjoyed myself lols.. hahaha.. my bro ask me to go WWWet one.. lols.. but i lazy to go also don wan to swim.. hahaha.. den also lazy to go xian house or anywhere lols.. only stay at home.. watching tian wai fei xian.. so touching T_T.. lols.. ariel lin is quite a good actress i think.. her action also very cute.. hahaha.. well.. im envy of couples of those dramas i watch.. so en ai.. lols.. but in order to earn this 1 love.. it sacrifices so many things.. is it worth.. lols.. ppl always say.. if u try ur best.. gif it all u have.. try ur very hard.. u can do it.. but really? i kind of don believe.. as in love only.. cus u try how hard.. true love cant be earn by hardworking.. don u agree? u try how hard.. if u don have the partner around with u who u will be with.. theres no point.. don tell me u go around the world and shout who is my love.. no right.. they will come to u by time.. but.. when will it be.. and maybe even if u wait.. also cannot wait dao.. in this world.. u cant only depend on working hard.. it also seems that u need some luck.. ur destiny ur fate.. no matter how hard u try.. its still has been decided.. u cant change the facts.. haha.. so sad.. maybe tml die le also dunno.. u now try hard.. later do dao half way die den everything would be wasted.. might as well go enjoy urself den working so hard for nth.. lols.. well.. im jus saying only.. don treat it as real lols.. if everyone thinks liddat.. i guess their children will suffer big time.. lols.. hahahaha.. =p.. k le.. don want to say le.. im going off.. cya~

2008-02-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. first of all.. happy cny to all of u.. lols.. was lazy to post this few days.. hahaha.. very sian >.<.. haha.. ytd.. went to my ah ma house.. and my father de workplace.. lols.. went to see them.. and take ang bao xD.. hahaha.. i only got 8 ang bao this year i think.. 8 can gif me 160+ le.. lols.. hahaha.. all bao very big.. hahaha.. =p.. den went on the way there.. is my big bro drive us there de.. again.. he drive so fas.. turn also no brake.. when going down slope.. scary sia.. like fly lols.. hahaha.. den he also bring his 2 fren along.. cus after that he going to other place.. so don wan ma fan go bring them along.. lols.. den went back home le.. this few days also at home play dota with xian.. haha.. think i stopping here le.. nth to post le.. lols..

2008-02-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

fuk.. today dam suay la.. hp tio stolen.. ccb.. be kind got wrong issit.. lend ppl hp to msg ppl.. become tio stolen.. is this wad a kind person receive? dam this stupid world.. fuk off la.. cb.. mood now dam bad lor.. wad more is that my home no phone.. now hp also no hab.. wad the hell can i use to contact ppl.. fuking angry.. everything in my house is not perfect at all.. everything spoil or is not there.. wth is this.. cb la.. somemore is that i only want to walk xian go home sia.. become liddat.. ccb.. what hab i done wrong to led to this consequences.. argh dam angry la.. don wish to say le.. today also jus nice 1st of feb.. give me this kind of things.. somemore chinese new year jus around the corner.. win liao.. great.. *claps*.. i hab nth to say anymore.. how suay can i be? .............................................

2008-01-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. lols.. haha.. today.. went to jin the house with xian.. was fun there.. hahaha.. we helped him alot.. like dl msn.. dl maple.. lols.. thou abit sian la.. but still quite fun hahaha.. his house was really tidy de lo >.<.. lols.. my house is dam.. untidy.. dam sux.. hahaha.. those come my house sure know de.. hahaha.. its unbelievable!! wahahaha.. =p.. den we go until 5+.. den we go 768 eat.. always eat same thing.. same drink de me.. LOL.. hahaha.. cus i dunno wad else to order.. blehhss.. hahaha.. den at there sit sit chatting.. lols.. came back home.. watch tian wai fei xian.. i wanna know where can watch sia.. except youtube.. lols.. very sian one youtube.. awhile need to change.. den got alot parts.. zzz.. lols.. anyone know can tell me thx.. hahaha.. o ya.. i go search for yui de songs.. she really got many nice songs.. =).. i changed my blogsong le.. changed to yui's one.. hahaha.. so nice! maybe alot ppl dunno how to listen to jap.. so i guess i feel nice only.. maybe with xian also.. hahaha.. okay.. den jus now rush awhile hwk.. the eng one.. write full page of comment without leaving lines except paragraphs.. siao one.. teacher want us to write a full page comment on 1 article.. he siao one ah.. he tot writing wad.. where got comments so long one.. lame sia.. den i write.. write abt higher nitec de thingy.. btw the article is abt 4 in 10 of sec 5NA cannot go poly after o lvl.. den principle encourage students go ITE.. but parents very upset of this incident.. den i say cus now offer higher nitec.. den go sec 5 also same de.. den high nitec is better.. cus can let us adept new social place.. rather continue studying in a place where u studied 4 years.. and one more year of sec 5.. and higher nitec changes to course le.. means its more close to poly.. as for sec 5.. its jus same old thing with theory only.. and is subjects.. so its better to go higher nitec.. but i nvr go.. also dunno y.. hahaha.. actually higher nitec is better one.. but den.. i afraid of new environment.. especially without frens.. so i rather stay on secondary.. lols.. but den.. after sec 5.. i still need to move on.. was sad to think abt it.. lols.. den our sch also keep say tell us go ite.. cus sec 5 difficult.. ite better.. i also dunno which to choose.. but after heard.. say that higher nitec not accepting pupils le.. den i think i can stop thinking abt ite le.. now go ite also wasted.. might as well try my luck on o lvl.. maybe pass and went on to poly? rather den wasting my time go ite den higher nitec den poly.. if it was ite.. den waste one more year i think wont affect alot.. i mean.. it will still affect.. but den.. i don think i will mind bahx.. i think i have to work hard for this whole year le.. but dunno if can i anot.. wish can bahx.. also.. they say this year alot ppl didnt make it to poly.. was scared.. >.<..but.. see how it goes bahx.. im actually also quite clever one ma haha xD.. so lets try hard tgt.. tgt with all my frens who going to take o lvl this year.. JIA YOU!!.. =).. okay.. think i stop here le.. cya =) bb..

2008-01-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. lols.. today was flag day.. doing CIP hours.. lols.. we went around for donation.. but for our group.. i think we nvr go around asking for donation.. but we went loitering around.. when we under the void decks.. was funny.. choosing who is the team leader.. den bring us around.. hahaha.. but still to no valid.. lols.. den soon.. we went to find hui cheng.. as she live near to where we are.. den ask her for donation lols.. den we went tgt with hui cheng to eat breakfast.. btw.. the group includes.. me, xian, jin, andy.. thats all.. lols.. den was fun chatting around at the coffee shop.. haha.. den send hui cheng back to her home.. den our next destination is cheung tze.. go there.. also ask him donate.. den talk awhile.. jiu go le.. den walk walk walk.. finally decided to go back sch.. den gif them back the tin.. but i lost the paper!!.. lols.. funny.. lucky is nvm de.. lols.. haha.. den we went xian house.. first we want to pei xian go buy ram de.. but later on.. we play ps2 play too long le.. den nvr go buy le.. lols.. hahaha.. den we went home.. i reach home.. use comp awhile.. jiu went to slp le.. den wake up.. wake secret.. lols.. cus jus now got talk abit of it.. den wanna watch.. feel so sad again.. haha.. it was a great movie.. hahaha.. den.. feb.. got alot movie i wanna watch sia.. got 4 movie.. chang jiang 7 hao.. kung fu dunk.. ah long pte ltd.. L changed the world.. so many nice show.. but den exp la.. so waste money.. sian.. y all come tgt.. maybe i don watch ah long pte ltd.. but still 3 movie.. zzz.. lols.. think hab to waste money le.. haha..

2008-01-22T15:53:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. now so slpy >.<.. lol.. haha.. hmm.. ytd was quite fun haha.. after the dismiss of mr chan's talk.. jin left for his group presentation preparation.. while i, xian, and andy discuss wad we shud do.. after that.. we had a conclusion.. is that we wait for jin.. so we went to find hong jin.. we went block to block.. search comp lab and library.. but all close.. which means they cannot do the preparation.. so we search and search but to no valid.. when andy suggested maybe they at canteen.. i replied andy and said.. hong jin sure wont go canteen one la.. but after we reach the canteen entrance.. there goes hong jin siiting on a branch talking happily.. it was so zhun.. lols.. den we tell them library and comp lab nvr open.. and jin tgt with us.. went to xian's house.. we at there played ps2.. game: devil king and wild arm 5.. and comp.. den after 5.. jin went home.. and andy played wild arm 5.. i at the sit infront of comp.. staring at screen.. dunno wad to do.. and slowly.. i wondering y xian comp so slow.. den we open up the comp.. i go figure the ram.. den we suggested 1 gb ram will be good.. and xian want to buy it.. lols.. rich guy.. den saw esther on9.. den chat with her.. den was very funny.. me xian and andy playing around.. keep want to di siao each other.. try to type words or something liddat.. i keep xian hai andy.. den andy keep pull my hand away.. he grab dam hard sia.. pain T_T.. but was fun.. den until 1 part.. andy start to threaten with a cup of water.. den i don care.. den he pour -.-.. den we started a water war.. was dam funny.. hahaha.. den after that.. i and andy went home with wet clothes.. =x xian didnt tio.. but his bed tio.. LOL.. hahaha.. den pei andy go supermarket buy fruits.. apples.. lols.. den cant find any good one.. den anyhow choose.. hahaha.. den went home.. on the way back.. we was talking abt moon and stars.. den talk abt the horoscope.. lols.. den reach home.. watch tv.. bath.. SLP!!.. hahaha.. today leiis.. got so many hwk.. need to do and pass up tml.. so need to go le.. cya.. bb..

2008-01-19T12:24:00.000+08:00

hello.. quite a few days nvr update le.. lols.. find that days end very quickly leiis.. cus always reach home slp.. slp le jiu next day le.. no time to realise it.. haha.. ytd i went to play basketball.. also wanted to play badminton.. as requested by jin.. but ytd was very windy.. couldnt play.. lols.. well.. den went xian house played a game called devil king.. not very fun.. but very shoick.. lols.. hahaha.. den now doing eng project.. i still got alot homework to do sia.. math.. chi.. eng.. geo.. so many.. den math and chi got alot to do.. sian sia.. don feel like doing homework at all.. haiz.. sadness.. think i stopping here le.. nth more to post.. cya.. bb..

2008-01-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. lols.. now very slpy nia.. haha.. hmm.. lets see.. there nth much to post for today.. except that today jin and andy came my house.. jin want to cre8 blog one.. but ban tu er fei.. LOL.. hahaha.. im sure he will say is i don wan teach him.. wtf lo -.-.. tell u choose skin don wan choose.. lols.. den andy.. follow jin tgt come my house one.. den he play wild arm 4.. hahaha.. xian today got chem remedial.. so cannot come also.. i wanted to play basketball one.. but nvr play le.. lols.. today also.. the PE lesson.. so torturing -.-.. sian diao.. vik angry we so late come down.. lols.. den double the training.. ahhhh.. going to die lols.. haha.. jin and andy came my house until near 7 den go lols.. they order mac to eat.. know y jin can so late go home? cus raining lols.. he no umbrella.. hahaha.. =p.. den he told his parent he wait rain stop.. lols.. hahaha.. ok le.. think nth more le.. haha.. cya.. bb

2008-01-12T09:37:00.000+08:00

hello.. sry guys.. nvr been updating.. haha.. cus this few days keep go play or go visit poly.. by the time i reach home.. my minds been thinking - slp.. haha.. even at 6 pm i also slp like pig until the morning 6 am.. hahaha.. cant blame me.. im pig =).. hahaha.. okay.. lets see.. also dunno wad to post.. cus forget most things.. but i try.. oh ya.. i also hab been excersizing alot.. so body aching all around.. den reach home jiu slp.. thats y.. hahaha.. okay during monday.. went sch.. same as usual.. but monday got pe.. pe teacher is vik.. same as A1.. den heard from them that vik tortured them -.-".. den we all very scare scare.. den while we sitting on the parade square.. vik came.. be4 he reach our class.. he talked to taufiq.. and trying to get a key.. that time.. i told jin.. "hmm.. i think we can play game.. cus if not y vik take the key to pe room? haha" den when vik come.. den first thing he say.. make us so happy.. he say.. "you all want play wad games" LOL.. we stunt tio.. vik when become so nice.. hahaha.. den we played badminton.. was fun haha.. with andy and jin only.. lols.. den after sch.. we went to play basketball.. tgt with xian also.. den play until jin going home.. den we went xian house.. den.. until around 8 or 9 den we went home.. if i not wrong.. lols.. haha.. den tuesday.. sch not same le.. cus change to.. evey tuesday.. sch start at 8 30.. lols.. den i wake up.. at 6am.. body aching all over.. jus to go xian house.. play basketball again.. LOL.. hahaha.. den play till 8 den went sch.. den same thing again.. as we no more cpa le.. during 5 thinking DNT and ART.. we have free period to go around sch.. lols.. hahaha.. i and jin walk around.. den went to library.. lols.. den after 2 period.. we went back to class.. den after sch release.. we went to play basketball again.. lols.. den same thing.. only this time no hong jin.. lols.. he cannot come play.. den we play without hong jin.. den after that.. went to xian house.. andy played wild arm 5.. den i and xian watch him play.. den was fun.. den 9 30.. den we go home.. haha.. den wed.. same as usual.. but today also got pe.. den today vik not very nice.. but okay la.. not torture.. jus training for nafa test.. den been doing exercise.. den body dam ache.. everywhere.. hahaha.. den after sch.. still nvr give up.. played basketball again.. but this time no andy.. with hong jin and xian.. den play play play.. after jin gtg.. den i also go with him.. den thrus.. first period and 2nd period was dnt and art.. so = our free period.. hahaha.. den the rest was the same.. only today normally we release at 2 15.. but become 1 30.. cus got poly visits.. need time to eat.. den that day.. we went to SP.. the bus was full man.. dam squeezing.. hahaha.. only 1 extra sits.. the rest all we take and teacher take.. hahaha.. den we at there.. got free roam.. den we walk around.. den finally.. we stop at 2nd floor de corridoor.. think so.. hahaha.. ppl walk de place bahx.. den at there.. we bio zha bo.. well.. jin and andy say got alot chio bu's.. but den i only saw a few.. 2 or 3 only.. den they say is my standard for chio is too high.. where got sia.. is my style diff from them ok? my chio maybe is not same as theirs.. thats y.. lols.. if high de hua.. i wont like her for so long le.. she consider chio meh? thou i dunno but i think most ppl don think she chio.. as for me dunno is cus.... i always think she very chio.. thats all.. so i dunno she chio anot.. den after that.. we go back sch.. we went to eat.. at 768.. me jin xian + jin's bro went to eat.. den at there.. eat finish le.. we at there chat.. den here come some1.. esther and jia ming.. they also come here eat -.-.. lols.. i sian diao.. hahaha.. den she talk with us awhile go back to sit le.. den we also go le.. den friday.. same thing.. study study study.. den went to poly again.. this time.. tp again.. but my bro no come find me lols.. hahaha.. den we got guide bring us around one.. very sian.. i take 2 bags.. 2 coupon.. lols.. some ppl don wan ma.. hahaha.. den went around tp.. den finally go home.. den reach sch.. went to eat again.. this time got only me and xian eat.. den aftre that.. we went to xian house.. he design his clothes and mine.. den me play wild arm 5.. hahaha.. den thats all.. went home at 9 30.. hahaha.. thats the summary of all things.. but got alot details wrong.. and also missed out.. like.. got 1 time go 768 eat.. but with xian, andy and kai jie.. but den.. think is thrus.. also lazy to change.. den hong jin bro with esther those one think is wed? lols.. hahaha.. confuse le.. hahaha.. don care bahx.. know or dunno also same one.. =p.. hahaha.. den today.. dunno going to do wad.. haha.. so i stopping here le.. cya all.. bb..

2008-01-05T08:24:00.001+08:00

hello.. well.. some ppl say i haven been posting.. well.. here i post.. haha.. school reopen le.. so kinda busy abit.. cus go sch.. after that go out.. no time to post le.. reach home slp liao.. haha.. hmm.. i cant remember very well abt the dates.. so anyhow write.. haha.. i went to xian house this few days.. got play naruto.. play comp.. also played a few hours of basketball.. haha.. ytd.. xian and jin came to my house.. at first.. we wanted to buy new clothes.. not me.. is xian and jin.. but in the end.. nvr buy le.. lols.. den we played awhile yugioh cards.. haha.. i win most of the match =x.. hahaha.. cus i clever =p.. hahaha.. den they went home.. den cus my big bro using comp.. i went to xian house.. and for y i want use comp is cus.. that time i was thinking of going ite.. but den.. while i was walking to xian house.. saw andy and kai jie.. we at there talk talk talk talk.. alot of craps.. but they suggest me not to go.. cus sec 5 naturally is better.. den i was thinking.. maybe i try bahx.. den go on ahead to xian house.. didnt use comp.. i and xian.. study SS chapter.. tested each other.. but den.. i think now i also forget wad i study le.. LOL.. haha.. after 2 and a half hours studying.. know wad? i and xian.. only studied chapter 3.. HALF of chapter 3.. wtf.. lols.. so many things to study.. how could it be possible sia.. 2,3,5,6 chapter leiis.. sian diao lor.. sure fail one lor my class test.. den the henry.. kns one.. catch my hair.. his stupid or wad sia.. naturally hair stand also want me put down.. as if my hair stand he got prob with that liddat.. cb sia.. dunno wad the hell is he thinking.. HOD so wad sia.. anyhow jiu catch.. catch my frinch nvm.. cus its long.. i know.. but my hair standing??? wtf is that.. catch me only.. as if only mine will stand.. stupid right.. and wads wrong with that anyway.. did it disturb u in ANY ways??? no right.. zzzz.. kns sia.. suan le.. i today going to cut it short.. if still cannot.. i want complain liao la.. zzz.. k le.. nth more le.. stop here le.. cya all.. bye..

2008-01-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! WISH ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! WELCOMING THE 2OO8!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee wish all happy thruout the year.. NVR SAD EVEN 1 MOMENT!! wahahaha... LETS LAUGH THE ALL WE WANT!! wooooooo hahaha.. the day coming nearer and nearer.. the dangerous O lvl.. the year has come.. now awaits for the month.. and den for the day.. and for the moment!!! well.. im gonna miss the 2007.. thou got alot of sad memories.. but i have quite alot of happy memories too.. im gonna miss you, 2007!! well lets say wad happen this few days.. ytd.. i mean 30 of dec.. i went out tgt with jin, xian and alwin.. we went to go buy clothes.. but in the end only me and jin bought clothes.. i bought 2 with 17.80$.. jin bought 3.. well.. if on offer.. we went to AMK hub to buy.. also dunno y go there buy.. we any how choose de.. hahaha.. den we walk around.. talking.. chatting.. wanna watch movie but like nth to watch.. haha.. den after buying things.. went to admiralty mrt eat dinner.. den went home.. the next day.. 31 dec.. i went out again.. with xian this time.. other two like busy.. haha.. jin cannot come out.. den forget to ask alwin.. haha.. we go buy clothes again.. this time xian buy 1 shirt at 30+ dollar.. i bought a shorts at 39.90$.. converse one.. thats y that exp.. lols.. haha.. den we wanted to go eat sakae sushi.. but all full.. bishan one full.. yishun 1 full.. den we also asked alwin and jennifer.. but both no reply.. alwin is cus he on slient.. thats y.. den jenn dunno.. she no reply.. so we went to admiralty eat again.. haha.. den went back home.. this few days also keep play maple.. after 1 week de maple. i lvl 41 le.. now on 2x.. xian bought for me.. cus he said he wanted to treat me half price sakae.. but nvr eat.. so bought 2x for me.. i really hab to thx xian alot.. he gave me alot free things.. really alot.. dunno how to repay him.. thou he will sure say no need repay or some sort of things.. but he too kind le.. later he broke LOL.. hahaha.. k le.. i think i go back maple le.. cya all.. bye..

2007-12-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post lerx.. sian sia.. now dam frustrated.. with all my things at my home.. first.. computer.. spoiled.. cus always auto restart.. 2nd.. router.. spoiled.. keep unstable connection.. 3rd.. tv.. sometime on power nth come out.. press button den got prob le.. cus need keep press again.. most of u dunno wad i mean bahx.. until u really tried on my tv or seen it.. its difficult to explain in words.. next 4th.. my playstation.. play wad game also hang.. hang dao du lan.. how to play.. i felt very unfair.. y all my things seems spoiled.. cant i be lucky abit? i really dam suay u know.. alot of things happen to me le.. such as this one.. now think of it.. dam frustrated.. it was like i agitated the god/heaven.. wad i did wrong sia.. y so unfair.. do wad also unsucessful.. dammit la.. felt so angry now.. guess i stop here le.. no mood at all..

2007-12-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

hello.. woot.. today nearly forget to post.. haha.. first of all.. happy lay egg festival.. if anyone was wondering wad this means.. read in chinese.. shen dan jie kuai le.. lols.. merry christmas!! =).. this was taught by xian.. haha.. he teach me bad stuffs =p.. hahaha.. well.. sad thing is today i stay at home whole day.. still only eat mi goreng.. lols.. today play maple whole day.. so wasted my time.. haha.. =p.. well.. im playing aquila server.. jus in case anyone want to know.. my nick is either.. lonelyyii.. swiftslayerz.. tifa91.. cutiemagee.. lols.. but i guess most of the time shud be lonelyyii.. trying to chiong him.. haha.. cant find me? msn tell me.. i try to reply as soon as possible.. haha.. anyone wanna play also? trying to tell kian and alwin play.. lols.. but i wish some girls can play xD.. if not boring nia.. no teasing de.. tease boy.. like gays liddat.. lols.. but too bad.. only a few girls i know.. haha.. in maple.. i know non.. not even 1 girl.. lols.. got.. but is yi qian le.. haiz.. think of it brings back sad mermories.. well.. don think abt it le.. haha.. guess today ended just liddat bahx.. nth le.. =(.. merry christmas is gone in 1 more hr.. lols.. so sad.. i no lover to go out with.. =x.. hahaha.. who will be my partner.. so sad.. lols.. where is she~~ ah~~ i cant wait le.. lols.. hahaha.. shud hab choose ite.. cus can know more girl.. =p.. hahaha.. go sec 5.. only same faces.. unless i know some younger den me de.. but thats gonna be very difficult.. i not a popular person.. also nvr stay out with strangers lols.. hahaha.. =p.. k le.. i think i stop here le.. hahaha.. byeeeee

2007-12-22T11:01:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. lols.. today hab some dreams nia.. lols.. but guess no need to say out bah.. got 1 funny.. game de.. the kingdom hearts.. LOL.. i dream dao all char inside.. include anime =.=.. and the shen diao xia nu.. lenalee was inside.. and was huang rong daughter.. wtf sia.. lols.. ahahaha.. sho lame.. alright.. lets say wad happen.. ytd.. went to xian house.. (that last post was about 20 not 21 dec, this is talking abt 21 dec) go pass up those 3 things.. form.. report book.. and a photocopy of result slip.. xian and jin come my house first.. den we went to school.. on the way there.. saw esther at the traffic light.. dunno where she going.. maybe to 888 bahx.. greet le den we continue on our way.. reach there.. saw gao chang and zheng hua.. they at there waiting for henry and mr chan.. cus zheng hua top scorer in school for n lvl.. 5A's.. den we pass up things le.. at there wait.. wait for zheng hua and gao chang.. they keep drag us lols.. hahaha.. den finally we can go le.. all go xian house.. cept jin.. he going his grandma house.. so need back home early.. as for me.. go shuang lols.. hahaha.. den zheng hua and gao chang and xian go play bb.. i at xian home play games.. but nth to do lols.. den wait them back haha.. den see them play naruto.. ps2 de game.. was funny lols.. hahahaha... they fight dao very funny lols.. den.. 1+ zheng hua hab to go le.. gao chang went tgt with him.. den i at there.. play maple for ahwhile.. cus nth to do.. den xian was slping.. his hobby lols.. hahaha.. den at 4+.. went home.. sometime hor.. walk home alone quite shuang.. cus can think alot of things nia.. lols.. hahaha.. den reach home.. SLP.. haha.. den 7+.. fan wake me up.. and wake my big bro up.. cus ytd.. actually is my father's birthday.. we all going to my father's place to eat.. den my big bro around 8 den wake up.. by then my father's place close le.. cannot eat there le.. den went oppsite of his shop eat.. btw its at bukit merah.. hong shan.. LOL.. danny's homeplace.. was quite far.. YEA.. now talk abt far.. my big bro.. AHHHHHHHH.. he drive dam fas.. almost 140km/hr... wth.. forget is almost 140 or 160.. cant see properly.. but both already very fas nia.. imagine.. normal cars drive dao is 90km/hr.. for normal.. zzzzz.. den reach there.. i come out of car dizzy.. sit on chair.. fan wei.. no appetite diao.. lols.. den eat very little.. but my father gave us each 100 dollar.. and the dinner was 69 dollar.. lols.. so exp.. shud eat more.. >.<.. den go back home.. lucky is got many car blocking infront.. den my big bro cannot drive very fas.. lols.. but keep cut lane.. wei xian ah~~.. lols.. i mean dangerous.. for those who dunno lols.. not hello xian =p.. hahaha.. den reach home.. use comp ahwhile.. den went to slp le.. den occur those dreams.. oh well.. don wan write grandmother story.. btw.. the dream got liang bao and jia qing leiis!! LOL.. unbelievable.. haha.. hmm.. got esther also.. and got 1 princess i forget who le.. lols.. and liang bao and jia qing was guarding her LOL.. as for me.. i forget i wad role le.. maybe is servant lols.. den i always laughing no matter wad.. ppl say me very not good or wad.. i smile and nodded.. lols.. quite a saddist..( dunno i use it the correct way anot) haha.. den till now.. wake up.. btw jus now help her.. to shao xiang.. the incest? intense? forget how to spell le.. don care haha.. understand can le.. hahaha.. cus it stop burning.. and that 1 is for reveal number de.. those got pray one shud know.. burn that to get 4 number buy 4d haha.. den got prob with that.. i refer that to the xiang.. lols.. haha.. that thing keep cant burn.. den the number cannot come out ma.. den was keep use fire burn.. burn dao finally.. the two last number come out.. but first 2 gone le.. well.. my mother got remember it if i not wrong.. hahaha.. so thats all until now.. lets wait for more story.. haha.. k stop le.. cya.. bye.. =)

2007-12-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

yo.. come post le.. haha.. well.. ytd went to xian house (since its over 12 am).. cus going to print n lvl result.. den cheung tze also there.. lols.. he playing ps2.. while xian playing maple.. haha.. den i at there watch they two play.. den lend tze ff 12.. borrowed from him nfs prostreet.. he also lend forsaken city.. (forbidden or forsaken forget =p) which xian borrowed from me.. lols.. well.. i at home.. eat my lunch.. cus my mum cook.. den walk to xian house.. around 3 liddat.. den at there wait until 5 den go 883 print.. have alot fun chatting with them.. alot laughters hahaha.. =p.. den on the way back buy bubble tea drink.. love bubble tea =).. haha.. den go back home le.. cus kinda tired.. wanna go back slp.. den slp dao my bro back.. he on tv make me wake up from my nice sleep.. lols.. hahaha.. liddat lo.. den waste time till now post lo.. got nth to do leiis.. morning.. sit at comp infront.. complaining got nth to do.. lols.. cus kinda bored of everything.. and i mean everything.. jus bored man.. nth is fun.. >.<.. jus wad in the world can make me feel fun to play with.. =.=.. lols.. watch xian play maple.. den got abit feel like want to play.. but den.. still kinda feel sian.. play ahwhile sure stop de.. cus slow la.. the training.. and so kiddy stuff lols.. haha.. don want spoil the game bahx.. later tio scold by xian.. =p.. hahaha.. k bahx.. guess nth to post anyway.. cya.. bye..

2007-12-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. lols.. ytd didnt post.. cus hong jin and xian came my house ma.. den after they go i went to slp.. lols.. haha.. ytd get n lvl result le.. i got 9 point.. lols.. choose to go sec 5.. tgt with jin.. haha.. and jie too.. dunno still got who can promote to sec 5 nia.. only know this two.. (for 4 caring).. lols.. oh and 1 more.. esther also can.. but she not studying le.. so nope.. haha.. den.. see liao lo.. next year can see who.. most likely chinese friends only la.. lols.. haha.. well.. now i feel kinda sick.. dunno for wad reason again.. maybe haven gotten better from the sick.. >.<.. i now watching air gear.. but veoh suddenly updating.. den stop.. lols.. so come here post post.. haha.. k le.. i think i continue to watch le.. cya..

2007-12-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. slightly feel better from my illness le.. haha.. thou still hab abit of feeling of going to vomit liddat lols.. today i slpt most of the day.. den night.. my big bro back home.. bring me go see doc.. but i and my 3rd bro at there wait.. wait dao i cannot tahan.. already wait more den 1 hour le.. den i say suan le don see doc le.. den go home lo.. btw my big bro already go le.. cus he got other things.. tell 3rd bro to pei me only.. lols.. while going home.. i tell my bro to buy bubble tea to let me drink =x.. hahahaha.. den buy le.. nvr drink alot.. now at refrigerater.. lols.. dunno how to spell =p.. haha.. den eat medicine.. den slp =)... lols.. den now wake up.. post post lo.. today going to take result le.. normally i wont worry de.. but now i worry le.. bad omen.. be4 taking result come illness.. jus nice sia.. lols.. even my bro also say.. on the way back home.. nvr tot that he also liddat think.. same as me.. lols.. so how? retain? lols.. >.<.. haiz.. see liao lo.. 1 step by 1 step.. lols.. haha.. k le.. i better be slping soon le.. haha.. cya.. bye

2007-12-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

hello... come post le.. i sick le.. at night dunno vomit like around 5 or 6 times.. zzz... den lao sai 1 time.. now got feeling going to lao sai again le.. zzz.. sian.. as u all know.. tml is 18 dec le.. taking n lvl result de day.. lols.. den now sick.. still liddat.. seems like bad omen liddat.. super bad luck.. maybe tml get result.. 13 grade =x... den retain.. haha.. den jiu good luck le..if really liddat.. i can slp for every class le.. lols.. now feeling abit heavy.. my head.. lols.. >.<.. sian.. tml see my classmate last time? lols.. last gathering le.. next year dunno will go where le.. haiz.. kinda miss my classmates.. haha.. k le.. i think i go le bahx.. kinda tired.. cya.. bye..

2007-12-16T03:10:00.000+08:00

lols.. hi i come post le.. tried a few times den can come in de.. from my old comp.. lols.. nowadays.. quite du lan with my connection.. seems like my router have problem.. but heard the it was the starhub problem wor.. but den.. if it was really was.. how come i close router.. on again.. everything can be very fas.. but only for awhile? cant possible is starhub problem nia.. thou some ppl say is.. but if it was.. there wasnt only me who is using starhub only right? y like only our connection tio dao so badly.. i play dota also cannot in peace.. make me quit in btw playing with my frens.. dam irritated by those delays during play.. dammit.. wonder am i that suay? haiz.. suan le.. hack care abt it bah.. zuo yi bu shuan yi bu bah.. this 2 days i've reading comic.. now read finish le.. lols.. and also playing ps2.. kingdom heart.. but somehow.. feel bored again le.. lols.. i very fas tired of things.. i dunno y.. jus suddenly no motivation of that thing anymore.. come to think of that.. sometime i wonder.. if this was in my relationship how? wad if i i like a person.. den sian le.. how? cant possible throw her aside right? i was worried abt this nia.. i wanted to change myself.. i don wan be san fen zhong re du.. u know wad i mean right.. after awhile all my determination will gone de.. i don wan this.. i wanna change.. but i jus cant.. how.. even now i say i want change.. sure awhile forget all abt it.. and nvr thought of changing le.. thats y.. and this type of thing.. dam hard to change.. if u feel bored.. u are bored.. how u change? force urself? thats aint possible.. lols.. well.. i used alot of "impossible" in this post.. haha.. dunno y.. cus i jus write wad i think.. well.. i nvr edit post one.. i write wad i think during that time.. and jus continue down.. lols.. unless i want add something onto it if i forgotten.. if not i wont edit the post.. lols.. or maybe spelling error or something.. lols.. haiz.. guess this few days cant play games le.. maybe jus wait for the downloads of the ps2 games bahx.. lols.. i think i dl some not fun de game le.. but i dunno wad game is really good.. anyone got any recommandation? tell me pleaseeee.. ty =).. some games cannot download lols.. no hab.. hahaha.. and btw.. don tell me to dl game for u =.=.. because it gonna take a long time.. after opening my comp for about 3 days.. my percent only gets to 8 lols.. and will get caught lols.. hahaha.. well i did help a person thou xD.. hahaha.. k le.. i think i write till here le.. cya.. bye.. connection lost again =.=.. oh by the way.. this is an add on after posting.. i just notice that.. MOST of my post are in A.M... lols.. haha.. k le.. i go le.. cya.. =p

2007-12-14T05:01:00.000+08:00

hello =).. i come post again le.. lols.. hahaha.. well.. im so early wake up =x.. hahaha.. no la.. cus today i slp at 5+ i guess.. den wake up at 11+.. den cant slp le.. not cant slp.. is don wanna slp.. tired thou.. hahaha.. o ya.. i forget to mention this in my last post.. about my ps2.. it spoil.. but.. its not spoiled.. its actually the socket spoil.. and i change other socket.. can can le =.=.. hai wo thought ps2 spoiled.. and been finding ppl to help me find place where can repair lols.. now.. its all fod good =).. hahaha.. den the kingdom hearts II.. which i lend from xian.. cus he cannot play with he ps2.. lols.. den my ps2 can play nia.. hahaha.. den i play.. at first.. i tot it would different from the kingdom hearts II which i played on xian house (xian got 2 kingdom heart II which different cover).. but i can load my save!! wooo.. im so happy.. and i played ps2 from 11 to now.. lols.. while i also dling games in my comp.. sweet sia.. i take 1 full whole day.. and a few hours more.. and the dl.. only gets to 5%.. hooray.. this gonna take forever.. lols.. heard that will get caught one leiis.. so i scare lols.. faster dl fiinsh >.<. lols.. btw i dling is ps2 game.. which i further burn it to dvd.. den can play le.. lols.. haha.. wish can work.. and wish it faster done.. lols.. hahaha.. =p.. k le.. think i write till here.. i go slp liaos.. haha.. bye.. cya..

2007-12-13T05:32:00.000+08:00

hello guys.. i now posting on my old blog.. finally can post eh.. hahaha.. but i don think this can be happening often.. jus some luck on my side.. hahaha.. hmm.. lets see... this few days only dota nia.. no other thing le.. lols.. today i dam early wake up.. due to some dreams~~~.. lols.. got 2 dream.. 1 wake up at 2+.. 1 wake up at 4+.. lols.. the 1st dream i guess i don wan to talk abt it.. its utterly rubbish.. lols.. well.. the other dream.. i really wish it could come true.. its abt that i with a girl.. a cutie.. well.. i couldnt see her face.. its blur.. but den.. i could feel it.. and also.. all of her actions.. its really.. cute.. i cant believe i have such a dream.. well.. i haven had this type of dream be4.. always i dream.. is abt something which i knew.. and not something which i didnt knew.. well.. maybe alot ppl don understand this part.. but i understand can le =p.. hahaha.. lols.. thru her attitude.. i can assume that i dunno this girl.. but.. i guess i have a chance to get to know her maybe? in ite? in poly? or internet? games? or jus fate which pull us tgt in some streets.. LOL.. being dramatic here ya? hahahaha... =p.. ok la.. lols.. don say abt it le.. later ppl think i sot lols.. sometime.. i read other ppl blog.. some ppl de.. their post hor.. was like.. i also dunno how to say.. kinda.. strange? lols.. i dunno how to explain in words thou.. but jus feel kinda weird.. oooo.. i think i get it.. like trying to get attention den post those things.. i guess my post also liddat lols.. haha.. don u think so? jus now i write on top de part.. i also liddat think.. but well.. its all true.. im saying wad i think.. not trying to get attention.. and all my post is liddat.. i guess some ppl already think that way that its getting attention.. so im making sure of it.. its all wad i thought.. wad i had on my mind.. i jus try to write it out.. cus feelings are hard to write.. so when writen out.. its kinda trying to get attention.. don u think so? lols.. haha.. im reasoning here.. lols.. like one old man.. hahaha.. =p.. sian sia.. now how.. broke nia.. o ya.. jus now de dream.. the with cute girl one.. i inside.. got work very tiring lols.. i go work for my mum whole day lols.. jus becus of her.. i jus feel kind of.. energetic lols.. den work work.. den going out with her to trying to closen relations.. don wan let it broke.. lols.. we also got decide when we grow up.. wants to marry.. lols.. den it got 1 place.. connected to the 1st dream.. really.. i didnt try to fake it.. the place.. shud say.. person.. 1 time only.. lols.. well.. don wanna say out anything.. blehs.. haha.. lols.. well.. my mum work up le.. think waking my bro up.. hehe.. he study dao very ke lian lols.. den jus now.. at night.. 11+.. i go wet dao his papers =.=.. i take the cold water.. nvr see table got his notes.. den jus put on top.. LOL... den take away.. didnt tell him.. after a few min.. he saw.. den i thinking.. oh god.. LOL.. den he at there blame me =.=.. lols.. den the words cannot see lols.. holy shit.. hahaha.. =p.. well.. don care la.. if he really got study.. those notes.. even if a few words cant be seen.. still know wad it is.. if dunno.. den he really cannot le.. lols.. must pay attention in class xD.. hahaha.. this is wad i learn.. when my result turns out to be so good.. i realise its becus i pay attention to teacher.. thou sometimes i naughty at class keep talk.. but i got pay attention one hor.. lols.. if not i don think i can score so well =p.. hmm.. maybe im a genius?.. LOL.. next time try studying? maybe i score dam high.. lols.. hehe.. lols.. next topic.. =x.. i jus found out 1 webby.. to dl ps2 game.. psp game.. but will tio catch one.. scary.. i now dl some.. lols.. >.<.. hopefully it success without being caught.. hahaha.. if tio.. den die le.. no money.. lols.. toooo bad.. wow.. i still can so cheerful lols.. if really tio caught.. really dead lols.. really no money.. my whole family.. all broke.. lols.. well.. good luck to me =x.. lols.. haha.. btw.. do u all feel difficult to read my post? cause those words is small.. lols.. if really cannot tahan.. or maybe is colour prob.. tell me.. i might change blogskin.. cus this blogskin.. if words bigger.. they will overlap each other.. so very difficult.. but.. i put this post normal size.. thou abit difficult to read.. cus if highlight.. u can see overlapping.. lols.. other post is all small size.. lols.. so if difficult.. tell me.. i change it back to small.. haha.. i think i post quite long le.. dig out everything lols.. haha.. next time den.. =p.. haha.. cya.. bye.. good luck..

2007-12-12T04:19:00.000+08:00

hello.. long time no see =x.. i still dare to say sia.. hahaha.. thou i was lazy to post lols.. how long did i neglect it? hmm.. 27 nov to now.. haha.. few weeks.. =p.. ah nvm.. here i come post again =).. lols.. later no 1 read.. T_T.. lols.. hahaha.. hmm.. vik going to mary le.. at 13 dec.. dunno at wad temple.. lols.. vik is my form teacher.. we call him liddat xD.. hahaha. viknes.. well well well.. congrats to him here.. but i nvr go attend.. cus 1st is lazy.. as most of u shud know.. 2nd is wad the hell is it doing in a temple? and the temple name.. ah po nei nei name.. lols.. cus vik is indian ma.. haha.. cus of that.. i abit racist.. so don feel like going.. lols.. den.. well.. 3rd is cus of my hair.. too long le.. den all flat.. very ugly.. don wan let my teammates see haha.. =p..waiting for n lvl results out.. den i go cut.. lols.. my result determine my haircut lols.. ite jiu leave my hair front, side and behind long.. mean spike at center.. lols.. if sec 5.. den sayonara to my long hair.. lols.. kaoz.. got a mosquito keep flying around.. lols.. now so dark.. >.<.. using my bro lappy.. while he was slping.. and in the middle of the night.. den the stupid mosquito keep fly here and there.. irritating.. lols.. haha.. btw.. i cancel my job finding le.. >.<.. sian sia.. i really san fen zhong re du.. lols.. say yes ahwhile no le.. lols.. i wanna work for my mum.. but i keep lazy.. den kaoz.. guess my future is doom.. >.<.. xD.. haha.. i going to broke le.. T_T.. need money.. faster reopen school.. den got ling yong qian le.. hahaha.. =p.. i only earn by that.. xD.. but if i really go out work.. i can earn alot.. heard that my mum there is $5/hr.. den think abt my ling yong qian.. is $5/day.. den with my pocket money.. i can earn alot le.. wonder if i go out work......... my money sure alot.. but too bad.. lazy.. lazy is my most vulnerable weakness.. xD.. haha.. too bad.. im born liddat.. lazy lazy lazy.. getting fatter and fatter le.. hahaha.. cus of lazy also.. keep at home.. no exercise.. lols.. hahaha.. don ask me out either.. cus i will reject de.. unless i got the mood.. and mood that can devour my laziness.. thats gonna be rare.. xD.. hehe.. im so bad =p.. weldon got ask me out alot times le.. but i keep reject lols.. baddie =x.. lols.. well well well.. im getting tired le.. im good already.. to post in the middle of night.. >.<.. gonna slp le.. cya guys.. byee

2007-11-24T03:17:00.000+08:00

haiz.. felt depressed again.. jus now.. lying on bed.. think about alot of things.. write notes in my hp as well.. well.. other den blog.. i guess i write many of my xin shi in my hp.. those are some of my feelings which i don hab the courage to say out bahx.. therefore i write it in my hp.. haiz.. guess i have return to old self again.. thinking about dying and all things like this.. i was wondering.. if i can die peacefully.. it would be good.. cus theres too much thing to worry about le.. jus wish it could end immediately.. really wishes to die.. now.. haiz.. yeah.. maybe some of u might say im running away from problems.. but wad else can i do.. i really does not have the determination to fight those problem.. and without determination.. you are fighting a lost battle.. determination is all you need to have to win a battle.. without it.. you are jus like an empty shell.. y.. there are so many things to worry about.. i don want to have any troubles.. its jus too troublesome.. die le.. everything will end le.. den theres no need for me to care about ANY thing anymore.. so y not.. its not like i scare of dying or wad.. and dying might be a help to me.. haiz.. im so depressed.. i need someone.. to pei wo.. to cheer me up.. its that kind of people like xian or ronald or brant.. i need de person.. haiz.. nvm.. no use saying it.. it wont become true.. well.. i guess i shud thx xian and all ppl who always helping me all around.. my life would be meaniless without them.. haiz.. i felt like saying it.. but i dunno.. i jus don have the courage.. and don want any misunderstanding or wad.. its jus making things more difficult.. might as well don say it.. haiz.. jus now at bed.. thinking about things.. talking to myself.. make myself drop my tears.. hahas.. im jus a idiot isnt it.. die wont solve any problem.. thats what ppl usually say.. running away from problems.. you are jus like an coward.. but den.. die really does not solve problem? no.. i don think so.. and i would think that it solve every problem i have.. thou cre8ting some problem for ppl.. but who cares about that when i die.. right? haiz.. at most only slowly been forgotton any sooner.. where so care about that.. at most only become ashes.. put up in a place.. and only a few visitors will go there to pray.. isnt it.. and most likely to be only parents.. siblings.. and i don think friends will.. at most only attend furneral.. arent im saying the truth.. don try to say no.. because thats human for u.. human.. they cant change it.. they are born to be like that.. its easy to see.. friends is not a human who cares the most.. u jus go and think about it.. im jus stating the facts.. im not trying to insult anyone or wad.. but.. i jus trying.. maybe trying to help myself from ppls questions.. haiz.. guess you all wont understand it.. jus treat it as im talking to myself.. jus wish later.. when i slp.. can same as wad the newspaper has been posting.. ppl who sleep to death.. i think those are peacefully dead.. for me.. i would choose that kind of dead.. and i wish later can be 1 of it.. i really wanted to die.. haiz.. im depressed.. very depressed.. ppl who cared about me.. i think u all will jus say hundreds of reason and jus to try to tell me don die.. haiz.. nvm bahx.. for those who really cares about me.. don care abt me.. k? im jus trying to say wads on my mind.. haiz.. i guess i stop here le.. bb..

2007-11-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

lols.. come post le.. sian.. i today.. 10+ jiu slp le.. but also dunno y.. always 2am or 3 am will suddenly wake up de.. y ah.. zzz.. i wanna slp jiu slp dao morning liao.. but always wake up.. den cannot slp le.. zzz.. how ah.. now cannot slp back.. so come post lo.. lols.. nth to do.. haha.. today also done nth.. only use comp.. play dota.. some win some lose.. some own some tio own.. thats all.. lols.. my regular life.. i also dunno wad to post more le.. o ya.. today i actually wanna go cut hair.. but den.. lazy >.<.. lols.. i ytd night sms hong jin tell him le.. lucky he come my house also.. haha.. =p.. haha.. den "her" baby is girl.. know le.. lols.. den i ask her.. she wanted girl or boy.. den she told me.. boy or girl also my baby.. lols.. haha.. wish she can be a good mother bahx.. hahaha.. so young become mother le.. firece lols.. wonder she easy to angry anot.. lols.. o ya.. heard that she still working.. zzz.. got baby le still working.. and already so many month le.. guess now also already starting to big le stomach.. zzz.. dunno how to take care of herself nia.. i got abit worried about how she going to take care of her baby lols.. and this care is none other den friends worried.. not some sort of love or anything k? don misunderstand me.. lols.. i jus care about her as a best friend.. lols.. wad if she working halfway hurt dao her own stomach.. dangerous leiis.. den i ask her.. y u stil working.. ask ur husband work la.. den she say.. he still under probitation.. guess is liddat spell.. and is still schooling.. lols.. den i dunno how to say.. i also cannot say that u don work la.. cus i know they really will need money for their baby.. so i only can say.. don overwork.. take care.. lols.. hahaha.. sad.. as a friend i 1 help also cannot.. >.<.. haha.. wish she and her hubby.. bai tou xie lao.. lols.. k le.. guess i stopping here le.. night =).. byee..

2007-11-18T20:27:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. hahaha.. ytd.. i went to my biao ge de wedding banquet.. hahaha.. eat dao very full.. but go out from 7 to night 12 den home.. lols.. hahaha.. tired =p.. den i watch anime.. watch dao 6 in the morning.. lols.. hahaha.. den 6 go slp.. afternoon 3+ den wake up.. den go eat.. den use comp.. hehe.. im a slpy pig =).. wahahaha.. lols.. anybody want me? T_T.. no girl want me de.. so sad.. lols.. hahaha.. im so lonely~~~ hur hur T_T.. lols.. oh well.. feel like watching my lucky star <<放羊的星星>> lols.. cus it really very nice.. watch it.. haha.. by lin zi ying.. den the girl also quite chio de la.. haha.. its romantic >.<.. can make ppl drop tears de.. lol.. they good actors.. lols.. awww... im jus out of things to write liao.. hahaha.. hmm.. at afternoon asked shuyi when get back result.. she say either 17 or 18 dec.. i stunt tio.. i tot end of nov? zzzz.. haiya.. lol.. hahaha.. too bad den.. have to wait a month more.. T_T.. scary.. hahaha.. den hong jin.. go cut hair le.. nvr wait me lols.. hahaha.. i kept over slept.. last time.. i 11 am also haven slp.. and he tell me go meet with him cut hair.. lols.. den i say i want slp lols.. den next day.. he tell me 3 pm at a place meet.. but den.. i 7 am den slp.. slp dao 4 30.. den see his msg.. LOL.. hahaha.. den he go cut hair first le.. lols.. normally can both can tgt one.. but shop under maintanece that day.. (dunno how to spell it xD) den we both have to go back and wait.. lols.. den hai dao we two nvr cut hair tgt.. T_T.. lols.. hahaha.. k le.. guess i stop here le.. cya.. bye =)

2007-11-17T04:12:00.001+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. early in the morning.. lols.. i wake up den nth to do.. so come post post.. hehe.. i change home phone le.. and i guess most of the ppl know le.. lols.. hmm.. hp no change so no need go around telling ppl my house phone change le.. cus they can contact me by hp.. den i tell them.. lol.. clever me.. hahaha.. pui =p.. now waiting for job nia.. but den.. like very late le.. normally we got a long holiday can work le.. but wasted too much time.. lols.. left 1 month only.. 30 days.. at most only 200+ money.. hahaha.. sad.. waste waste.. T_T.. blehs.. den.. n lvl result are coming also le.. jus few days more to end of november le.. lols.. also dunno how they contact us.. lols.. maybe by calling house? den die die liao.. i change phone number.. lols.. nvm la.. i got frens.. frens which i can rely on =).. haha.. result.. wish i can get good result.. not that i want go sec 5.. but if i get really lousy result.. den how am i going to ite with a happy face.. zzz.. scare nia.. also.. if i retain.. who will retain with me.. lols.. most of my fren marks so good.. T_T.. lols.. not that i want to suan myself or wad.. thou i can get first in class.. but i is tyco den get de leiis.. trust me.. i nvr even study dao.. how possible.. maybe only cus i pay attention in class.. but mostly i talking with hong jin and alwin.. zzz.. den in n lvl.. i know and i very sure.. i did alot of mistakes in the test.. i might did badly.. thats y i scare.. wad if i get more den 10 marks.. like 13.. 12.. den this is the end for me le.. i go ite no future lols.. i also wish i can go ite get at least top 10 earn money.. lols.. i go ite i want to work hard for it.. haha.. ma chiam talk big again.. later lazy again.. hahaha.. =pp.. hao le.. i stopping here.. cya.. bye..

2007-11-16T11:28:00.000+08:00

hey.. sry for so long no post le.. im slacking this few days.. heh.. now 11 45 le.. i still haven slp dao.. lols.. im scary.. hahaha.. i watch show can no need slp le.. this few days.. keep watching show.. called fang yang de xing xing.. its nice.. it let me know what a love is.. this show is abt relationships.. its so touching.. i really might drop tears for jus watching this show.. it let me know and hold more abt love.. to have a person that u love.. is not better than to have a person who loves you.. because.. you can repay the person.. with your love.. because you love him/her.. so you should let go.. the moment when you should.. clingling on to a meaniless love.. trying all ways to get your loves heart back.. it will only cause hurt.. might as well.. let your loves.. go to where they should belong.. and let them lead their own happiness life.. arent love.. means that.. whenever you saw your lover happy.. you will happy.. they sad.. you sad.. both sharing a bond btw.. so.. might as to hurt each other.. y not try to let the other one.. get their happiness.. and.. looking at their happy.. you got your own inner happy.. maybe im not as good to express off my expression to this.. but i write whatever i can think of now.. y not try to take another side of view to see things.. maybe you will see an scene which you nvr would think of.. change a view.. be positive in life.. everyone here was given a chance in life.. y look at negative side? always on positive.. because.. everything you only got 1 chance.. missed it.. and you will nvr see a beautiful scene again.. haha.. i guess im jus bullshiting again.. life is beautiful.. it is just the way you look at it.. positive? or negative.. its only your choice.. you can make your way out in a beautiful way by trying hard to get it yourself.. or make a beautiful way out.. with a guilty heart.. by trying evil means to get it.. everyone has a chance in life.. so get hold of it.. and balance yourself in life.. in way of positive.. hahas.. ending my bullshiting here.. haha.. don read it if your're bored hahaha.. this few days also watching naruto.. rewatch it.. den.. maybe going to work on ntuc le.. not sure when.. but i trust that i will work with my own two hands.. i can fight against my own laziness.. hahas.. k le.. i go slp now le.. bye..

2007-11-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

hello.. haiz.. this morning.. again.. dream dao her again.. this time i guess i kinda remember wad was it.. i and her was waiting for sunrise.. where she slept on my legs.. i was looking at her the whole night.. thinking about things.. im thinking.. how i wish she was my gf.. but she belongs to other ppl already.. and wad makes me think that she will like me even if she don hab.. den when sunrises.. i didnt woke her up.. because i wanted to look at her slping like that more longer.. till when she wake up.. she asked y i nvr wake her up.. den i told her becus i wish u cus slp more longer like this.. den i woke up liao.. maybe cus i scare of her reaction bahx.. i scare she will some kind of reject me liddat.. haiz.. suan le.. no point saying.. will come to end one day.. ok.. today.. play dota with bao.. 2 match all own.. lols.. bao too pro lols.. hahaha.. i and alwin and bao and kian play tgt.. vs other ppl.. lols.. 2nd match kian left le.. but also own.. hahaha.. den i went to watch anime.. den big bro came back.. so i come posting blog with my bro lappy.. also going to watch again.. lols.. btw i woke up at 1 pm.. lols.. hahaha.. k le.. i stop here le.. cya.. bye..

2007-11-05T10:26:00.000+08:00

elo.. come post le.. jus wake up only hahaha.. i ytd watch anime till 3 am lols.. i wanna rewatch naruto ma.. hahaha.. cus some naruto parts i miss diao.. dunno wad happens.. hahahaha.. always i watch naruto is when my bro watching den i beside den watch de.. so confirm + chop got missing parts.. hahaha.. den ytd.. play dota whole day again.. only this time after alwin go le i no play le.. watch anime.. hahaha.. ppl jio me play i also reject lols.. today ma.. i think i chiong anime.. don want play dota.. xD.. hahaha.. sry alwin >.<.. lols.. k le.. i write till here le.. cya guys.. bye..

2007-11-03T11:38:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. guess wad.. i dream dao some1 wor.. sian sia.. i dunno y i keep thinking of her.. i keep telling myself.. stop thinking of her already.. but it jus come naturally.. i dunno how to help myself.. i tot because holiday come le.. cant see her le.. den can easily forget.. but den.. its still so difficult.. what shud i do.. i know.. i cant force myself to forget her de.. cus forcing wont help.. it only makes me think of her more.. but if i leave it like this.. i will still think of her.. zzz.. how.. haiz.. suan le.. talk abt ytd bahx.. ytd.. whole day play dota.. from morning to night.. dota dota dota.. ytd last match.. tio thrash dao siao.. yeu de fren so strong lols.. i still a newbie T_T.. i was playing thru ggclient.. almost same as lan.. lols.. but more good.. prevent hackers =).. lols.. no mh no spoof no ck.. so great.. hahaha.. ok le la.. i post dao here le.. nth more.. i go play my bro de hp games =p.. hahaha.. bye

2007-11-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come to post again le.. today is a new month le.. november.. but i still yet to find a job.. that job which i say de cannot liaos.. sad.. now maybe waiting for sandy to find dao a job with is maybe flyer.. lols.. i also dunno how to help her find >.<.. jin also dunno.. sad.. now we only depending on her lols.. hahaha.. sadness lols.. 28 more days to my bday liaos.. going to 16 le.. grow up liaos.. don want to be a kid-like person le.. lols.. blehss hehe.. i long time no go outside of my house le.. going to rot le.. too lazy.. and no place to go.. haha.. wonder where got place to go de u all.. >.<.. sadness.. hahaha.. today pia dota again.. all win again.. weeee... so sweet hehe.. feel shiock.. hahaha.. k la.. i guess i write till here le.. theres nth to write about anymore.. hehe.. bye..

2007-10-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

elo.. come post le.. haha.. nth to do so come post lo.. hehe.. but den come here also nth to write.. let see.. hmm.. o ya.. tml maybe i go interview for work wor.. not sure.. dunno will go anot.. with hong jin.. at yeo chu kang.. factory de.. dunno wad factory is it.. haha.. =p.. if can.. good lo.. got money le.. hahaha.. dunno ite when den start sch.. wish is same as poly.. april den start.. den got 4 more month to work.. money money.. hahaha.. =p.. when i got money.. i wanna buy 1 comp.. hehe.. dunno la.. YEA.. first things first.. HANDPHONE!!.. and a new line.. lols.. hahahaha.. comp i see first.. maybe wont.. but if the old comp i really cannot tahan le den i buy 1.. hehe.. =p.. today.. keep play dota lo.. almost all match win haha.. so happy.. play with alwin 3 match.. all we win.. yay ^^.. hahahaha.. ok le la.. think i write till here.. i go le.. bye..

2007-10-30T17:11:00.001+08:00

hi.. long time no post le.. heh.. theres getting lesser and lesser ppl coming to my blog le i guess.. hahaha.. den also no ppl will read de la.. =p.. xian gone to malaysia le.. have a safe trip there and coming back.. gonna miss you xD.. and ur craps lols.. hahaha. now holiday le.. dam sian.. hahaha.. always do the same thing only.. and u all shud know wad i do everyday.. wake up.. play.. eat.. play.. eat.. play.. slp.. thats the routine.. hahaha.. =p.. what else can i do? lols.. today jin come my house.. got ppl pei wo hahaha.. but i got abit xin xu.. cus i keep play dota.. den he at there nth to do.. until he left.. i feel that i very bad xia xD.. hahaha.. aiyo.. den he also.. confuse with love.. hahaha.. now i want to make up my mind le.. and that is to give up love.. till i really find 1 which i believe can last.. hahaha.. =p.. if cannot find den jiu bu yao marry lo.. like will die liddat.. lols.. den those boy will tell me "wa den u cannot enjoy ***" lols.. hahahaha.. don jiu don wan lo.. hahaha.. i guess its alright de bahx.. lols.. hehe.. sian.. going to nov liao.. a 30 more days is my bday le.. include today.. my bday lands on 28 nov.. who will buy me present? anyone want pity on this little guy? i have no bday present be4.. exclude bday cake.. but bday cake also given by parents.. lols.. i from small till big.. i don think i get bday present be4.. haha.. den my bro this year de present.. omg.. dam lots.. lols.. ahahha.. sad.. after my bday.. i guess my worst bday present coming.. n lvl result.. woot.. now let god decide whether is it a bad gift or a good gift.. hahaha.. ok la.. if my result is bad.. at most go ite.. don die one.. not so bad.. if is really good.. den go poly.. also not so bad.. but if cannot go poly or ite.. i rather die.. LOL.. hahaha.. sadness.. i don wan retain la.. very de ma lu.. hahaha.. later im the oldest there.. ewww... xD.. den i also no hab sec 3 any frens over.. if got sec 3 fren still nvm.. lols.. hahaha.. too bad den.. haha.. lols.. dunno how many ppl will say happy birthday to me.. im gonna count.. guess its still countable.. lols.. let me guess... btw exclude my family.. around 9 or 10? LOL.. hahaha.. sad.. bday present ah.. guess this year at least got 1 le.. from xian i think? lols.. at most 1 nia xD.. cry T_T.. lols.. 16 years of living.. 16 time bday.. and only get present from 1 ppl and only 1 bday present.. LOL.. worst of all man.. LOL.. hahaha.. sadness.. =p.. who wanna buy present for me~~ i would be glad to repay u with my life...... jus joking.. LOL.. hahaha.. sian.. now do wad? after posting.. nth to do le.. thats y i don wan to end this.. at least i write here sometime i make myself laugh.. self entertaining.. but after this nth to do le.. haha.. sad.. any good game to introduce me? hahaha.. must be fun.. and no more audi.. i don wan play audi.. lols.. hahaha.. k le bahx.. i think i post finish go find blogskin change.. haha.. cya.. bye.. good luck..

2007-10-17T02:54:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today is sch le.. wonder y i so late slp? 3 am le.. almost.. i also dunno.. i slept at 11 de.. but dunno i keep occuring some sort of dream.. and now i dunno wad is that.. den i keep waking up.. dunno wth is that.. den now i cant slp back.. i like very scare in my heart.. aiyo.. i also dunno how to tell u.. somewhat i feel like im scare of the darkness.. y o.0.. dunno.. maybe that dream scare me.. sad.. dunno wad to do now.. i off light den got a feeling of scare.. cant slp.. keep thinking about it.. zzz.. how how.. i need to go sch de wor.. lols.. maybe i jus keep on awake until sch? but i scare today got wad thingy wor.. not stay in class lols.. if stay in class i can stay awake.. cus can slp in class ma.. lols.. how... what shud i do.. haiz.. den got one more thing i worried lols.. haiz nvm don wan to talk about it either lols.. guess that im posting now is trying to let out my fear in heart bahx.. also dunno wad to talk about haha.. i finish watching claymore.. watch code geass.. also finish watching.. now watching d gray man.. hahaha.. im chionging anime nowadays.. also dunno wad to do ma.. don wan keep playing games lols.. hahaha.. o well.. guess thats all for me to write.. i go watch some anime be4 i go to slp bahx.. bye..

2007-10-15T00:57:00.001+08:00

alright! its time to post =).. but wad shud i post nei? o.0.. at home rotting only hahaha.. have been dota-ing all this while.. hahaha..=p awww.. im getting fatter already.. god damn it.. lols.. i didnt went out for so long.. gaining weight liaox.. i nvr exercise ma T_T.. lols.. hahaha.. and my pimples is getting more and more.. it just look awful man.. grrr.. booooooo.. hmm... i really cant find anything to post nia.. not i don wan.. maybe when sch reopens for that 8 days.. i can post quite alot isnt it? heard from henry that that 8 days is excusion day wor.. means that we'll be keep going to see ITE and poly.. lols.. yay it would be fun!! hehe xD.. lols.. kaoz.. im missing her already.. wth is this.. i cant believe it.. jus a few days nia.. T_T.. stop it >.<.. u all cannot blame me.. things like that cant just go away that easy, can it? hahaha.. whenever see couples.. i jus would think of her.. headache.. how am i going to throw this thinking of mine away? hahaha.. guess it just takes time xD... weeeee... so lets wait.. don be so eager ya? haha... =p.. yea.. got 1 more things to say.. hmm.. i just watch a anime called claymore.. its quite nice hehe.. have to watch it ya? weeee i think im going le.. hahaha.. cya guys around byee.. ^^

2007-10-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

awwwwww... holiday is just so sian! argh.. i got nothing to do now T_T.. lols.. feeling sleepy again.. yawnz.. lols.. hahaha.. sian sia.. this few days only play dota and o2jam.. zzz.. nvr go out nvr do anything else.. super duper sian.. i wanna go school~.. lols.. not to see her! but to chat with jin they all T_T... lols.. now talking abt this.. i think i have a long time nvr talk with jin le.. aww.. so sad lols.. seems that when it comes to holiday.. our communication went down.. i wonder if we leave sch.. i guess we will forget each other lols.. hahaha.. sad wasnt it? hmm.. sian.. nth to write abt also.. suan le.. write till here.. haha.. bye guys

2007-10-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come to post again lerx.. lols.. guess it's getting lesser people that will read my post already huh? lols... xian is now out to work.. and is working until very late.. guess he cant be sitting at the computer front and stare at the screen anymore.. haha.. now i have made up my mind le.. im going to fully focusing on forgetting all the love for her.. i want forget her liaos.. thou i always say i love her for 4 years.. but i only round up abit ya.. for actual i love her for 3 years and 10 months.. the date started and date ended got write in my first page.. haha.. got add in some of the words too.. lols.. ok le.. talk abt wad happen to me bahx.. ytd.. hmm.. morning wake up.. play computer.. den in the afternoon.. my bro fren come.. got yeu, leong, joe, jeremy.. lols.. they was so sian hahaha.. they come here also nth to do lols.. den at night den they go.. lols.. with fan.. he was slping the whole afternoon haha.. den they go down play basketball.. i at home play comp lo.. den at night.. fan back home.. den i was around 2+ den slp.. lols.. watch fan play dota ma.. haha.. den today morning.. need wake up at 10 =.=.. lols.. i 8+ wake up.. but my body cannot get up lols.. my eyes open but body cannot move xD.. too tired le.. lols.. den at 10.. alarm ring.. i stop it.. and slack in bed till 10 30.. when the meow meow call me lols.. she tell me to pei her to meet a guy she know at audi.. i don wan de T_T.. get forced to go nia.. lol.. den i go lo.. den go there very lame sia.. we all no talk de.. only i and meow meow talk.. we nvr stand very close to the guy lols.. btw the guy likes meow meow =x.. hahaha.. but meow meow don like lols.. den we was waiting for another fren.. ya zhen ah.. if i not wrong.. hee.. den she was so late den come lols.. hahaha.. den we all go kfc.. den the meow meow =.=.. ask the guy to go.. cus she uncomfortable lols xD.. lols.. pityful guy.. lols.. hahaha.. den at there see them eat den wait for a girl call kai ying.. sec 2 or 1 de i forget.. lols.. haha.. den went to synthesis.. wait for them to buy finish things.. den went home!.. wa sad thing is that.. it was raining at that time.. it was so heavy.. lols.. reached home soaked with rain water hahaha.. xD.. den bath den play again.. den i went to slp.. till now wake up le.. come here post post.. lols.. haha.. k le.. thinks that all for today.. cya.. bye.. =)

2007-10-09T02:24:00.001+08:00

well well well.. hello guys.. im here again =).. guess im just too bored haha.. today don wan use standard eng liao haha.. very ma fan. need burn some of brain cells lols.. hahaha.. =p.. look at the time!.. its almost same as ytd's one hahaha.. blehss.. heh.. ok la.. lets talk abt today.. morning.. wake up.. around 10+ lols.. 10.30 maybe? haha.. den went to living room.. saw my bro and chee leong watching the movie "secret" as my bro ytd buy de.. i ytd watched liaos.. haha.. nice sia.. haha.. ok.. afterwards.. i use comp.. den not many ppl on9 that time.. xian went to sch.. the rest i dunno xD.. den at afternoon.. leong go le.. den after 1 or 2 min xian come my house lols.. haha.. nice timing.. he come up pass me the topup card only.. haha.. =p.. i asked him to buy cus he buy de place cheaper den i buy de.. haha.. den at dunno wad time.. near 6 bahx.. raining that time.. cus too bo liao.. kian no online pei wo play ft.. so i went to slp at the living room.. wooooo.. it was soooooooo cold.. lols.. hahaha.. den just slp ahwhile.. lai you call me.. make me wake up -.-.. he tell me want to go 888 de kfc sit sit lols.. den i say i want slp.. but after that call.. i couldnt slp back le.. =.=.. went to room try to slp.. but got my big bro watching anime.. tio fan dao.. so cant slp.. den went to use comp again.. lols.. hahaha.. ya also.. esther very funny sia =.=.. forget wad time le.. i know its in the afternoon.. but forget wad time.. sms me.. ask me where me.. den i reply.. i sms her back 3 time lols.. all no reply =.=.. lols.. dunno wad happen.. den lai you go kfc ma.. so i asked lai you if esther is working.. lai you tell me no wor.. den i thinking maybe she fell asleep bahx.. i don think will have anything happen to her bahx.. wish so o.o.. lols.. hahaha.. den at night.. keep playing vamprism in ft.. sup.. lols.. since here de ppl reading de nvr play.. so i also don need to say so much abt.. if kian got read den go alot to tell =x.. hahaha.. den just now.. play with xian o2jam.. woot.. he gif me 2 songs.. identity and identity 2.. wooooo.. thx xian! =).. den he also helped me lvl up.. 2x thx =).. hahaha.. den after that.. went to bath.. den now post blog.. cus after bath not very tired le.. lols.. but after writing all this.. think i going to fall asleep le hahaha.. =p.. ok le.. write till here le.. cya.. gd nite.. swt dream.. take care.. farewell.. good bye..

2007-10-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

well hello everyone.. im here to post again.. it's been a long time since i post again am i right? anyone misses me? haha.. guess only xian will read dao this.. =x.. well.. its alright.. why do i want to demand so much? many people read this so what -.-.. lols.. heh heh.. hmm.. "N" lvl has over already.. haha.. think its doom with me.. did quite badly ya? when discussing the answers with friends.. its kinda sad to hear that i have alot of careless mistakes.. maybe just abit too over-confidence didn't i? well.. ITE wasn't a bad place after all.. heh.. well.. there's one more thing that sads me.. kinda heart pain ya? well.. i couldn't see her more often than going to school.. only going to school which i can see her.. haha.. well.. i guess it wasn't that bad.. at least i can see her.. but not that much.. well.. think that this is enough for me thou.. hehe.. haiz.. getting emo back already.. nowadays got alot of xin shi.. lols.. i don't wish to tell anyone.. all trap in my heart.. these xin shi also about her.. i write these things in one place.. trying to make my heart lesser down.. try to make that place which i write down those to be a person who are able to lend me a ear.. haha.. since that only xian will read this entries.. i might as well write some here.. heh.. or maybe also ronald gonna read this =p.. haha.. you two are the only ones that support this blog after all.. haha.. well.. it begins.. loving someone is so painful.. not apply to those which got their happiness.. but for those.. who are loving someone.. behind them.. lets not say behind them.. just that their love are not accepted by the other person.. its kinda sad to see this.. well.. i'm one of it.. loving her for so long.. doesn't seems to have any effects at all.. well.. maybe got.. just a little bit.. by becoming her gan "laogong".. in the past.. i always thinking of being with her.. not more that i thought.. or even consider.. but now.. at least i knew something.. i should at least know.. if i really suitable for being with her.. if i had not.. stead ahwhile.. can't accept her attitude.. than break.. what for at first that we stead.. and also.. can i even support her? i'm such a poor guy.. and lazy to even go out to work.. don't say i'm lazy.. just saying that i can't manage big crowd of strangers.. haiz.. now i don't wish anything.. i just wish i can remain as her gan laogong without changing.. i don't wish to be her stead.. her boyfriend.. her husband.. or don't wish to be her friend.. or more worst.. becoming strangers.. wish all this won't happen ya? well.. i'm just talking craps aren't i.. trying to use standard english.. boo.. what's all this about.. sometimes i just get envy of all those couples.. and i really wish to be just like them.. take an example.. the movie "secret" by jay chou.. that was one of my envy relationship.. it really nice to see them like that.. thou all last they couldn't be together.. but i not wish to be exactly same as them.. just the part which both of them are really happy together.. that's what i really wanted.. haha.. well.. what's the point.. i don't think i have the honor to have this kind of relationship.. well.. maybe i can just imagine.. heh.. well.. looks like it's kinda late already.. got to go sleep already.. haha.. ending here lerx.. good nights.. see you.. good bye..

i just can't forget her, can i?
i love you.. but i have to forget you..
just wish you can be happy forever..

2007-09-26T20:20:00.001+08:00

Hello! here i come post again le.. hahaha.. nothing much to say la.. cause always never come post.. things keep pasting.. den all forget le.. LOL.. haha.. ok la.. n lvl coming nearer le.. few more days.. less den a week.. hahaha.. fail this one and no more sec 5.. lols.. hahaha.. hmm.. lets see.. today.. at sch.. sit tgt with jin, alwin, jennifer, and esther.. at there chat and revising work.. haha.. revise? umm.. got la got la.. abit xD.. LOL.. mostly chatting.. haha.. den after sch.. went to 888 kfc.. this few days keep go there lols.. sometimes is pei esther and meow meow.. lols.. esther work there mahx.. haha.. den today.. at there.. same ppl.. only add one more xian =).. lols.. den at there.. same thing.. chat and revise work.. because the time was more longer den in school.. thats y it seems that they studied alot.. but they not study ALOT.. lols.. still chat and play most bahx.. if i not wrong.. haha.. =p.. aiyo.. i also dunno wad to say le.. no more important thingy le.. hahaha.. sad sad.. k bahx.. jiu stop here.. next time see when den post again le.. haha.. good luck to ppl taking n lvl le.. cya.. biies =)..

2007-09-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

sry for so long no post le.. hmm.. going month soon.. so i ask xian help me update.. hmm hmm.. think most of u don know bahx.. break with sasa again.. hmm hmm.. dunno y also la.. getting further and further away de always.. i also dunno how to keep the relationship.. haiz.. y liddat.. many time le.. haiz.. i just dont know how to treasure this relationship issit.. or she just not my type which do not suitable with me.. sometimes she make me really very annoyed.. she bluff me alot of time le.. i forgive her many time too.. but i really dunno her.. we have not seen each other.. she maybe still bluffing me many things.. and she told me she not bluffing or anything.. but sometimes i can just see that she bluffing me.. and when i asked.. she told me i don trust her.. how am i trust her when at first she bluff me so many times.. im really don understand wad is she thinking.. girls are hard to understand.. really hard.. y is that so.. are we not same human? y the thinking are so different.. haiz.. sometimes i wonder.. am i bad? we have been keep patch and break.. many times le.. haiz.. so sad.. i really dunno who is going to my girl.. maybe single forever liao la.. who will like me de.. so cowardy.. zzz.. no use.. no an quan gan la.. all girls need an quan gan.. but i don think i can gif them wad they need.. and more than that.. im so poor.. stick with me suffer together meh.. no right? thats y.. there cant be anyone who choose me.. haiz.. now n lvl le.. i didnt study dao.. look.. studies also sux.. always so lazy.. haiz.. sometimes i really wonder.. y is it that i could get 1st in class.. i really really did not study.. and i don think that i have any talents.. by right i should only get 10 or lesser de lor.. y suddenly i become so high marks.. 380.. i don think i can.. and not for 1 time.. 2 time.. common test and mid year.. its kinda strange.. now get so high.. more pressure.. if suddenly get low marks in n lvl.. really tio laugh dao siao de lo.. i might as well always get average mark for 4 caring ok le lo.. den go ITE liao.. don waste so much time.. i know i wont study de.. when did anyone see i serious in studying 1 subject.. just 1 subject.. for just 1 hour.. nope.. no1.. not even myself.. don say 1 hour.. even for half an hour also no.. y.. because im too lazy.. everytime see book want slp.. how to pass.. but i also dunno y i can pass.. now i pass.. i dunno wad to choose le.. ITE or poly? which one is better.. poly has poly good.. ITE has ITE good.. how i choose.. might as well get low low.. den go ITE straight.. no need think so much.. haiz.. im just talking crap now issnt it? hmm.. don talk so much crap la.. lets talk abt wad big things happen to me.. lets see.. first 3 N lvl paper has over le.. Eng, Chi, SS.. now i most scare is geo.. my die die subject which will bring my combined down.. i just couldnt get my geo right.. hmm.. sad bahx.. ok.. today.. my gan jie de birthday.. jennifer.. happy birthday jie.. wish your N lvl pass with flying colours.. u said u want come back for sec 5.. u must work hard.. as for the me coming back for sec 5 to pei u is dunno le.. cus i not sure can anot.. maybe mid year and common test is just toooo tyco.. now n lvl is just suay.. so i cannot gurantee i can come back pei u.. sry abt it.. i don have a aim sia.. keep changing.. sometime say want go ITE.. sometime want go poly.. sometime dunno want go which one.. sry ah.. i think better don believe me.. don make promise with me too.. i dunno how to keep secret one.. better don let me know.. ok? hmm... talking craps again.. zzz... sry about it.. tml is prelim math paper le.. wish me good luck.. lols.. k la.. don talk crapps le.. ppl will bored to tears de.. haha.. k biies guys.. nite.. swt dream.. xD.. cya.. gd luck to all of u taking prelims and n lvl.. biies..

2007-08-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

hello.. long time no see.. finally is i post myself le.. lols.. hahaha.. i using my bro comp now.. lols.. hmm.. this few days happen not alot things nia.. jus abit feeling that.. my dear is getting far away from me le.. i dunno y i hab the feeling wor.. sms her she no reply de =(.. online also nvr tok to me.. haiz.. sho sad.. y must everytime me start conversation.. dear.. cant u start one too? i really dun understand.. =(.. one more person also.. sms her also no reply de.. is esther.. zzz.. am i really so bad that no one wan to sms with me? den meow meow also got prob with her lover.. zzz.. so many problem.. haiz.. but wad more important is dear.. dear u seems to be running away from me le.. are you starting to get annoyed by me? if so pls tell me.. i don wan u to hide anythings from me.. i wish this is only my thinking and is not true.. wish bahx.. dear.. don bluff me.. jus tell me wad u feel.. ok? k now.. talk abt wad happen this few days bahx.. monday get back test le.. ss prelim paper.. i got 30 out of 50.. source base 21 out of 25.. top in na.. so happy.. as my source base is still so good.. but my essay.. it was badly done.. 9 out of 25.. haiz.. den now wan study also cannot.. suhermy took my file and hasnt return me yet.. i dunno how to study.. sad.. den eng paper 1.. keep haven take back.. becus of the vik la.. keep nvr come our class de.. how to take back.. i also don wish he come.. come also go thru test ok liao.. scare abt the homework.. i lazy to complete the summary.. so sian one.. everytime summary.. he not sian marking but i sian at writing.. zzz.. wish he could forgot abt the homework.. hahas.. ok.. this few days.. after sch.. go xian house with jin.. i wan pei them ma.. den go there play games lo.. haha.. we don look serious abt n lvl sia.. its jus days to n lvl.. abt 5 day? lols.. hahaha.. its time to die liao.. bleh.. =p.. monday.. the ccd lesson.. went to listen to the talk abt ITE and the printing thingy.. after listening.. i felt that.. ITE wasnt a bad place either.. its not the end.. but it might be a good place afterall.. haha.. maybe if i cant go up i could choose ITE.. its not a bad idea.. but i comfirm wont retain.. either up or ITE.. haha.. dear.. i dunno how to tell u.. but u make your choice bahx.. u said u want to folo me.. if i go ITE u also.. but if u really wan den go leiis.. don jus becus pei wo.. its not good.. i also don wan force u to go poly.. i jus wish that u go by your heart.. do wad u want.. all we do.. most importantly isnt it happy? so.. don jus care abt following me.. choose your decision k? ok.. den tuesday night.. xian pei wo go home.. we very funny.. at my block downstair.. keep chat chat chat.. its not normal chatting.. we are playing a fool.. and wad are we playing.. we are talking abt those "things".. we joking abt it.. omg.. lols.. its lunar 7th month.. and we doing that? we jus don treasure our lifes don we? haha.. den today also.. but nvr talk abt those "things" we chat abt other things le.. abt our life de thingy bahx.. den my bro going back home.. at downstair saw me.. den we go up tgt.. tgt with lyesia and derrick.. den they come my house.. den i go bath.. den dunno wad time.. chee leong come my house also.. haha.. now they went downstair le.. also dunno doing wad.. don care la haha =x.. friday is teacher day le.. fan they all say they coming to evg to celebrate teacher day.. abt 10 30 liddat.. hahas.. dunno that day got half day anot.. xian say that liang say got normal lesson.. i also dunno.. also.. that day also jus nice is be yourself day.. den we cant wear our own clothes i think.. dunno la.. they say sec 4 and 5 must wear singapore past.. diao ta la.. =.=.. i don think i would wear those clothes.. either is wear nice nice clothes if not is wear school uniform.. haha.. =p.. ok le la.. i write till here le.. haha.. have a nice day.. cya guys.. biies.. gd luck to all of you de n lvl =) biies..

2007-08-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

hello there.. i come post le.. tell xian help me paste up de.. hahas.. comp sux no choice.. haha.. this few days very sian.. and also.. dear dear.. when u on9.. talk to me.. i dunno u when on9 de.. not i don wan to talk to u nia.. =.=.. i nvr check the msn very often de. k? next time.. see me on9.. just talk to me.. if i nvr reply den thats mean i busy.. and when i nvr reply.. don wait for me.. go play your games or do something else.. don stare at screen =.=.. lols.. haha.. k? love you =) muacks.. ok.. lets talk abt wad happen bahx.. this few days.. went to xian house.. with jin or alwin.. lols.. they wan use comp.. and wan air-con.. lols.. hahaha.. den take back some prelims test.. chi.. overall total all add up i got 67 over 100 haha.. yay =).. den eng.. get back paper 2.. monday den get back paper 1.. paper 2 i get 49 marks out of 80.. yay =).. hahaha.. so funny.. nvr study actually can get high marks.. nono.. can say i study not more den 1hr.. den get all this kind of result.. lols.. hahaha.. blehs.. and 1 more sub.. get back.. im top in class.. haha.. or maybe whole sch =x.. haha.. cus no1 can higher den me =.=.. lols.. i get full marks for cpa pratical test.. 90 out of 90.. blehs.. hahaha.. den the class keep say me =.=.. lols.. haha.. don care them.. they always say i copy =.=.. always get so high.. LOL.. if i get 1st in class.. i can copy who =.=.. copy ppl to get wrong? lols.. hahaha.. most of the teacher say prelims harder den eng.. if my score is like that.. wont it be crazy for my n lvl o.0.. lols.. cpa no need say comfirm A1 liao.. hahaha.. but now.. monday.. get back alot prelim test.. ss.. eng.. wa.. scary.. eng i -10 marks!!.. shit sia.. i nvr do that bloody planning.. den -5 marks.. wad is this all about.. =.=.. still got force ppl do planning de.. =.=.. lols.. sad.. den ss.. SBQ think cannot get highest at NA le.. yu hui got it.. haha.. i also got no place to fight yu hui they all.. mid year total 500+/600 =.=.. siao de.. i only 380+ lols.. hahaha.. seems like i go 4a1 i would become last in class.. lols.. jus joking.. around half of class.. hahaha.. from 1st in 4a3 to half in 4a1.. aiyo.. 4a3 de standard is too low le (no offence).. so many mid year fail.. lols.. haha.. ok liao la.. i wan edit my cursor le.. =).. hahaha.. cya guys.. gd luck in getting back prelim test.. =).. biies.. take care all..

2007-08-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. hahaha.. sry for so long not updating.. but i got update my tags =p.. hahaha.. let see.. on friday.. sho sad.. only 4 caring need go sch.. =.=.. for the stupid cpa prelim test.. lols.. hahahaha.. but i got full confidence in it.. at least must get 85+/90 marks.. hahaha.. =p.. very easy nia.. hahaha.. okok.. morning.. jin come my house first.. wa sian lo.. toot sia -.-.. i can slp dao 8 30 de lor.. see la.. he come my house become must 7 wake up.. lols.. haha.. nvm bahx.. hahaha.. den jin came.. i let him use comp play o2jam.. den i behind slowly tutor him.. haha.. den around 8 liddat.. heavy pour lols.. rain so heavy.. den i and jin 8 30 go sch.. we take 1 umbrella only.. den ho.. was like.. toot~.. hahaha.. jin sleeves all wet lols.. hahaha.. den.. when we on the traffic light.. jin very ke lian.. hahahahahahaha.. know wad happen? he stand infront of me.. den suddenly.. a car drive pass us.. den the water on the ground.. splash on him.. i laugh dao stomach ache.. hahahahahahaha.. den walk dao the puddle of water.. shit.. my socks soak in water.. lols.. pants also wet dao siao.. den when reach sch.. we go toliet dry our clothes and socks and shoe.. thou not that dry but at least better.. lols.. we inside use the hand dryer.. lols.. den around 8 50 we go NE library lo.. den my pants was very smelly.. lols.. cus wet ma.. sian sia.. lols.. den go comp lab.. den test!.. den after that.. i and jin went to xian house.. hahaha.. den see him play o2jam.. den i and him compete.. den jin play maple.. den we went home.. hahaha.. den reach home.. slp =).. hahaha.. den wake up.. my big bro bring food home.. den i eat.. den after that.. around 11+ i called my ba0beiix.. den i and her chat.. chat dao my bro back.. den after ahwhile jus hang le.. lols.. was fun talking to her =).. wish can everyday hahaha.. =p.. but also not that often la.. later we keep chat.. chat dao nth to chat lols.. den jiu wan dan liao.. hahaha.. btw chee leong also come my house.. haha.. den i went to slp.. around mid nite.. saw chee leong slping on my bro de bed.. haha.. den turn saw my bro lying beside me.. hahaha.. ke lian =p.. hahaha.. den morning.. my bro like no slp dao hahaha.. den heard chee leong alarm rang.. was funny.. ti ti ti, door's closing.. LOL.. the mrt de door closing sound.. hahaha.. den i went back to slp.. den chee leong went out cut hair.. den come back.. that time i slping =p.. den around 10 45.. i wake up.. den saw no one in the room.. den went outside.. see my bro and leong slping on sofa.. haha.. den i use comp.. den play o2jam.. i went in find xian.. hahaha.. den after that.. near 12 if i not wrong.. fan go buy food.. and buy for me.. den come back.. bring huat, joe and derrick come.. lols.. den i was play mofunzone at that time.. cus i play a few match of o2jam i come out le.. sian hahaha.. also dunno y i abit disconcentrating.. den better don play.. hahaha.. den they come my house play ps2.. den after awhile.. lye came too.. hahaha.. den they at my house.. until 8 den go down play basketball le.. hahaha.. den now i using fan's lappy to post.. lols.. ok le la.. write very long le.. time to stop le.. hahaha.. blehs.. =P.. kk.. cya guys.. gd luck.. take care.. 2 more weeks to n lvl le fellow frens~.. study hard wor!.. i wan to see most of u in sec 5 ya? we will meet each other in sec 5/caring!.. we must cre8 miracle!.. that most of the 4 caring students come back for sec 5 and thinking / dynamic has no more space for them.. and principle opened 5 caring!.. lols.. hahaha.. wish that would happen.. hahaha.. ok le.. biies.. =).. blehs

2007-08-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. today.. prelim actual starting.. mt first.. hmm.. i got confidence in myself.. i can pass.. thou not high marks.. but i know i can pass.. with confidence i can do it!.. haha.. but ho.. the compo.. actually can do better de.. but no time nia.. i from beggining i know wad to write le.. but write halfway.. cus find those words.. den waste alot time.. keep check dictionary.. lols.. den write until halfway.. at a nice story le.. suddenly i need to make it a end =.=.. like suddenly drop down liddat.. the story.. haha.. like i very urgent to end it.. so sux.. lols.. too bad nia.. haha.. den tml.. SS le.. i got confidence in my SBQ.. but essay.. difficult to say le.. might drag me down.. now im still struggling with it.. i see the notes.. wanna faint liao.. zzz.. wish tml hab a easy question.. like chap 3.. den ask easy question.. den i can ans.. den happy liaos.. lols.. wish don get low bahx.. i can count nvr study lols.. yep.. nvr study.. only touch.. take a look.. den off i go.. lols.. gd luck to me haha.. blehs =p.. ok.. talk abt another thing le.. is.. piano.. well.. as all my frens shud know.. i like piano alot.. how i wish i can play it myself with a awsome skill.. but that cant be true anyway.. haha.. im not that pro ya? im not good in studies le.. still play piano.. im might die in stress.. lols.. but piano can relieve stress o.0.. but my mind couldn't take it.. lols.. haha.. today.. i see lai you play.. so well.. so envy.. his maths so good.. den piano also so good.. haiz haiz haiz.. wish i could play canon.. i could only play canon in o2jam.. so sad.. with that 7 keys.. who also can.. i wish i know how to play canon in PIANO.. haha.. den thats wad call pro =).. haha.. wish i got more money.. den but 1 keyboard at home play.. lols.. hehe.. but thats not coming true anyway.. lols.. even hab money.. also will use on other things.. so sad.. blah blah blah.. guess i only can give up hope on piano learning nia.. only watch ppl play.. and not myself.. haha.. sometimes.. i really wonders.. am i a genius? thou some ppl might think im mad.. how could i be a genius.. maybe this is true.. but sometimes.. i think that.. y i nvr study.. could jus improve liddat? and sometime.. for me is easy question.. to others.. they are not.. i also dunno wad they thinking.. so easy.. but so difficult to them.. hmms.. den althou im a destroyer.. but somehow i can fix some of the things.. like my house de comp.. o2jam.. it would be lag when played.. but i got a trick i found out.. i jus login.. quit.. and login.. den all would be fine.. jus that graphic would become lousy abit.. den.. tv.. sometimes.. when on power.. it jus wont come out anything.. den.. i also know how to on.. jus by knocking at it.. off power.. on power.. and its ok.. lols.. surprised? i also dunno y.. its jus happen to be that way.. now its jus fixed.. no need knock le.. on power will ok le.. only for sometime.. haha.. hmm.. sometimes.. i also think ho.. y im this person.. and i have the thinking.. maybe im special.. cus we cant see ppl thinking.. we only see ourself.. den i tot.. i do wad i think.. aiyo.. i think u all also don understand.. think don say this le.. lols.. but then.. its jus very shen qi.. haha.. everything in this world comes suddenly.. sometimes i just could not accepted it.. but wad is always true.. i jus have to accept it no matter wad.. jus wish everything would be fine den.. haha.. maybe i tml would jus died liddat.. who knows? haha.. maybe enjoying everyday passes is the best thing ya? treasure everything.. don wait till u lose it.. den u came finding for it like your life depends on it.. i also dunno y suddenly i write all this.. haha.. i think my zi bi zhen come again le.. haha.. im getting retarded le.. lols.. maybe stick too close to zi jie le.. sad sad.. well.. u might not believe me.. but im really quite siao de.. lols.. talk to lift o.0.. talk to trees.. lols.. i also dunno la.. haha.. write alot of craps today.. hahaha.. well.. its all depend on yourself to create a own world of yourself! heh heh.. jus wish i can pass all subjects in exam.. thats all i wan.. haha.. this prelim.. i guess i wont get first in class anymore le.. haha.. maybe is jin? or balqis? anyone else except me.. haha.. i wont get first de la.. with the standards of mine.. how could it be.. i guess the mid year that one.. all jus tyco marks nia.. lols.. this prelim.. no more tyco le la.. hahaha.. crapps crapps crapps.. hahaha.. i jus dunno y i don wan to stop writing.. jus wan to keep on writing.. hahaha.. can i? this is my blog wad.. y asking u all.. hahaha.. now.. i wanna talk is fate.. do u all believe in fate? i dunno i shud trust anot.. haha.. there's seems to be fate around the world.. but for me and sa.. fate is harming us.. we like no fate ya? but.. as mr vik says.. every couple has to gone thru those T words.. testing, tempting.. maybe we jus being tested on? and we are tempted to quarrel.. cus everyone from different part of world.. everyone would be different.. and sometimes.. diffierent things.. different ideas.. different thoughts.. and when that happens.. quarrel began.. we are tempted to quarrels becus of different ideas.. well.. if a couple without quarrel.. it wont last long.. as vik says.. i agree with him.. cus one day.. anytime.. with all things crumbled in your heart.. lie ji yue lai yue duo.. den one day.. it explode.. den i think that is more worst den everyday have a small quarrel.. as couples shud be trueful to each other.. saying out wad u think.. and not keeping from each other.. ya? so say all the true things to your other half.. don keep it in your heart.. one more thing.. thou i liddat say.. everything shud say out.. but first.. you and your partner.. shud know how to control.. the emotions.. and how to handle things finely.. example.. u told your other half.. i don like your now de attitude.. and for that sentence.. most of the couples.. might jus quarrel big time.. cus the other half.. which is the attitude bad one.. would think that.. like your one very good.. i also dunno how to explain.. den it was like.. they keep quarrel.. den say break.. den its over.. thats wad so scary.. well.. for me.. im exceptional one =).. i handle well i think so.. or maybe jus above avg.. cus.. i would like them to tell me the truth.. rather den hiding it from me.. like frens.. if u think im bad.. bad attitude.. jus tell me ya? i wont be angry or wad de.. it wont hurt me that badly.. cus i know that i will think.. u told me that.. den i will start to think.. where am i bad at.. den i will try to change it.. but think is difficult.. a habit is difficult to kick aside.. but at least u tell me.. and for that i can put some efforts to change or wad.. lols.. aiyo.. i said so much.. i bet not a single one who read till here understands.. haha.. cus even me myself also dunno wad im talking abt.. if someone who can really reads my heart thinking.. i guess they shud understand.. im a bad person at saying wad my hearts exactly wants.. really.. im not trying to exaggerate or anything.. but im jus thinks that.. haha.. maybe this would be the longest post i have ever posted.. i still have lots of things to say nia.. dunno wan write anot.. lols.. hahaha.. think stop better bahx.. next time.. duno when liao.. haha.. k le.. cya guys.. nite.. take care.. biies.. gd luck to your exams.. biies..

2007-08-11T12:11:00.001+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. sry for so long not posting.. as u all know my old comp cant >.<.. lols.. sad sad.. nvm.. now here i am =).. hmm.. lets talk abt wad happen this few days.. as for overall.. i wanna say is that.. my dar dar.. wei le wan watch movie with me xian and jin.. den this few days keep rush her coursework.. sian sia.. i don wan her rush.. den she nvr eat nvr slp.. how can liddat.. i xin tong sia.. =(.. haiz.. shud not tell her to watch.. shud ask if she is busy this few days.. sad.. haiz..

9th aug
well.. happy national day wor.. althou a little bit late but at least i managed to say happy national day right? haha.. den at that day.. i watch the NDP.. quite nice la.. i only think the first part will they put the word NDP07.. that one nice and the fireworks.. haha.. this year de song all so nice.. those new one.. i like the will you.. lols.. quite nice la.. i not sure anybody like it anot but i like it myself =).. haha..

10th aug
ok.. 10th aug.. wake up.. at around 10+.. den first thing i do is sms dar ask she got slp anot and say gd morning.. den after that.. jin came my house.. his bro go watch movie.. den his father tell him to pei him there den wait for him to watch finish movie den go home tgt.. LOL.. so funny.. like his di very stupid liddat.. -.-.. den jin also don wan.. so he tell his bro.. when finish watching.. sms him.. den jin came my house.. den he play ps2.. i play comp.. after ahwhile.. i help him burn things into his cd.. lols.. den around 5 40.. he go home le.. his di also going home le.. so they meet up at bus stop and walk home tgt.. lols.. hahaha.. ok.. think thats the end of this day

today 11th aug
hmm.. well.. jus wake up.. 12+ lols.. ytd watch too much anime le.. den watch dao very late.. but.. my dar also awake!.. near 2 am le.. she still awake.. haiz.. i don wan her liddat leiis.. i very xin tong.. keep rush coursework.. if she carry on liddat.. even she can finish.. she also cannot come le.. sick liaos.. -.-.. haiz.. sian.. ok le.. today.. i think im gonna rush my homework liaos.. got many homework sia.. im gonna dead.. today cant use comp for playing le~.. maybe only hear songs.. haha..

ok.. i think i stopping here le.. haha.. cya guys.. have a nice day.. gd luck.. take care.. biies =)..

2007-08-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post again lers.. hahas.. miss me anyone? haha.. cus i cannot post using my comp.. so don wan ma fan ppl help me.. so post little abit bahx.. lols.. hahaha.. =p.. i love my aiai =).. today.. at sch.. half day only wor.. den at parade square see those marching.. den talk abt my experience to hong jin on my red cross during the frist few month i join den i quit de.. lols.. haha.. den went up to hall.. den see chinese orchestra perform.. den malay dance.. den finally.. singing of national song.. den was all very happy.. haha.. very xin fen.. when singing las.. haha.. den after singing was abt 9 45 liddat.. den 10 dismiss i think.. den i, jin, xian, alwin went to causeway point.. go there guang guang.. den i buy many things for some1.. don wan to state here.. dar dar don jealous wor.. but i really cannot say >.<.. u know soon =x.. hahaha.. den was wasting all my money.. i even lend 5$ from jin to buy all those things.. bought around.. 1..2..3..4..5.. 5 items.. altogether.. lols.. haha.. my wallet money all gone case.. haha.. nvm la.. haha.. money can earn back =).. lols.. den alwin went home first.. the rest of us continue walk.. den around 2 25.. we went home.. all walk home.. walk from causeway.. to sch.. to traffic light.. walk straight.. den seperate le.. lols.. jin and xian walk another side i walk another side.. lols.. haha.. sad.. den JUST reach home.. cat and her fren wan come my house le.. lols.. haha.. den.. when they on my house.. first thing.. use my comp =.=.. lols.. den let them use lo.. if not they say i not good.. very bad.. den hurt me T_T.. lols.. im soft hearted =x.. haha.. den around 6+.. they go home le.. den i chat with my dar dar.. on msn la.. lols.. haha.. den.. because when cat they all using comp.. i was slping on my room.. i also dunno y lars.. suddenly felt very tired.. head very heavy.. eye lid also very heavy.. den i think i jus close my eye rest.. but eventually fallen asleep.. lols.. den when cat wan go she wake me up.. haha.. den i open their door for them.. den chat with dar dar.. den when i say i very slpy.. she told me go slp den.. gogo.. den i tell her i wan pei her.. nvm de.. den i wrote 4 reason y i don wan slp and wan pei her.. den she say write to 10 las.. lols.. den i write.. den she say until 100.. den i gong diao.. but i tired.. but only reached 40.. woot.. brain cells used up alot haha.. prelium gonna fail liao.. no brain cell =x.. jkjk.. haha.. den now she afk.. dunno went to do wad.. den i write this post lo.. haha.. maybe ask dar dar to post for me.. or maybe ask xian haha.. ok liao la.. i think i write till here lerx.. don talk too much crapps =x.. haha.. kk.. cya guys.. biies.. take care all.. love my dar dar 1314 =).. biies!!

2007-08-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i come post le.. sian sia.. some of my post was gone.. dunno y sia.. sad sad.. T_T.. lols.. haha.. too bad lo.. haha.. anyway.. don care bout it.. think those ppl who come my blog often de will already read all those le.. no point writing it again right? haha.. lets talk abt today.. sian sia.. today no eng period de lo.. but the vik uses home period and ccd lesson for his eng period.. kaox.. eng sux sia.. do wad thingy passenge.. den after sch still make us stay back.. den must do finish den go home.. kaos.. den he mark finish his papers.. den ask who finished.. only 1 person pass up.. zaki.. den the rest haven finish.. sad sad.. den he say.. tml den pass up.. fuk sia.. den make us stay back for nth.. zzz.. waste time nia.. suan le.. better liddat cus i wont do hwk at home =x.. haha.. xPP.. den after sch.. jin, alwin, and xian come my house.. den.. play comp and ps2.. hahaha.. den alwin ahwhile go le.. sho fas.. sad.. den i at there chat on phone.. haha.. guess also know who le bahx? hahaha.. den i got stomach pain at afternoon dunno around 3.. den i vomit 2 times.. zzz.. think eat wrong things.. den around 5 30.. jin and xian go home le.. haha.. den ahwhile later.. i also hang up with her le.. den nth to do le.. haha.. den keep use comp.. use till now.. nvr play any game wor.. so guai.. hahaha.. wanna vomit? get some plastic bag rdy den =).. hahaha.. ok le la.. write till here.. stopping lerx.. cya guys.. biies.. gd night take care =)..

2007-07-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. lols.. ytd.. i was quite angry with sa de.. but den bu she de wor.. angry with her i will xin tong nai.. lols.. den hor.. i was like using a serious tone.. but den.. she one msg with sry and alot dots.. i straight away soft diao.. lols.. bus she de say her or scold her le.. or anything le >.<.. she was toooooo cute le.. >.<.. who she de say her sia.. >.<.. aiyo.. i angry with her.. cus that she wei le that campus superstar de benjamin.. send hell lots of voting msg.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. 2000 msg.. omg.. it cost 1.2k u know? omg.. i cant believe it.. some of u even me also think that she lying.. but den i think i shud trust her.. no point for not believing her.. even she was lie.. jiu gib her lie lo.. i nvm de bahx.. =)..the 1200$$.. u know that can last me dunno how many years be4 i use finish it? zzz.. thats the different.. between rich and poor.. lols.. she rich and she spend like nobody business >.<.. for me.. its dam hell lot of difference.. lols.. 1200.. almost my whole jia chan.. mine only lols.. my bank around that much money only.. sad case.. nvm le bahx.. wads done is done.. wish that she don do it again bahx.. benjamin ah benjamin.. pls ah.. u better don out wor.. u out den the 1200 will be gone.. lols.. ok le bahx.. lets talk abt wad happen today.. hmm.. today ma.. in sch same as usual.. study -.-.. lols.. den pe.. run 2.4 km.. sian sia.. too fat le.. fail again.. ahhhhh.. sian sia.. my fitness so sux.. -.-.. fail 3 sia.. haizzzz... so sad.. liddat no girl like me de la >.<.. lols.. hahaha.. too bad.. den.. vik and sarina nvr come 2 days le.. form and co form nia.. hahaha.. so happy no teacher lols.. haha.. wa lao.. got new timetable le.. sian diao.. 3 pe in one week -.-.. wtf lo.. sian diao.. tml wear pants to pe liao la.. no shorts le.. lols.. hahaha.. =p.. k le la.. write till here le.. stopping liao.. hahaha.. cya guys.. biiiiessss.. takeeeeee careeeeeee hahaha.. =p

2007-07-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. haha.. my old comp back le.. but den hor.. alot virus still inside nia.. my bro wan reformat it also cannot.. tio block by the virus.. lols.. hahaha.. also dunno y so many de.. haha.. =p.. den also cannot post leiis.. load bu dao the page.. lols.. sad sia.. now at xian hse post.. lols.. hahaha.. ok.. lets talk abt today.. at sch.. woot.. many teacher nvr come sia.. almost all sia.. only a few come.. haha.. =p.. den after sch.. come xian hse with jin.. den play maple.. haha.. den jin at 5 go home le.. lols.. den me still staying here.. haha.. dunno when den go home.. maybe soon bahx.. hahaha.. ok le.. i wanna change url liao.. lonelyyi sian le.. haha.. =p.. wad shud i put.. hmm.. put br0kenheartx bahx.. not exactly br0kenheart.. only a name.. just write shuang haha.. =p.. ok le la.. nth much to write le.. haha.. cya.. bb.. take care xD

2007-07-28T11:37:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. sian sia.. post got prob.. keep cannot post.. zzz.. lols.. post so many time le.. tired of writing liao.. summarise it =).. lols.. today my dog came le.. now at my house.. i at xian house.. cus house de comp blogger got prob.. den cannot post properly.. lols.. don care bout it.. tml my dog jiu go back le.. lols.. haha.. ytd ma.. i went to xian house.. with zi jie.. lols.. haha.. den at there play.. den jin come also.. later den us.. lols.. den we play dota and maple.. den around 4 15 they went home le.. i stay dao night around 9 30 den go back home.. xian pei wo haha.. den 9 45 liddat reach home =).. lols.. haha.. k le la.. write till sian le.. stopping here =).. haha.. cya guys.. biies.. take care..

2007-07-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

haiz.. come post le.. very sad.. im such an bastard.. a jerk.. dump of rubbish.. piece of shit.. worthless scum.. got wad use of me.. just hate me la.. u don hate me only make me more guilty.. i go say out your private things.. i break promise that i say i wont say out.. im just a bastard isnt it? no wonder god wanna play me.. cus he know im a bad person and wanted to punish me.. ok.. fine.. y don he make me die better off.. wish i can go out on road and get bang by a car.. and sayonara to this world.. or maybe i shud hang myself like how my 3rd uncle died? living in this world is such an pollutant.. haiz.. wad am i.. i spoil your life.. u could have not been heartbroken so many times.. if i wasnt there.. u such a pretty.. cute girl.. but y u chooses to love me.. u made the biggest mistake in your life i can gurantee u.. im just a jerk that played with your feelings.. when im done with you i dump u aside.. isnt it? yea.. i think i am.. can? i played your feelings.. i toy with you.. im a jerk.. den hate me with all u can la.. u tell me u don hate me.. i think thats wad ur mouth is saying but not your heart.. i believe u hate me alot.. come on.. no need to act de.. tell me u hate me and block me away from contacting u in any ways la.. block me from msn.. block me from your blog.. cancel my hp.. change hp.. all kind of thing u can do.. just do it.. i don care le.. since im jus a jerk den i will be a jerk lo.. now.. i dunno who go tell her that i told bao abt her things.. bao.. u got the biggest suspicious.. becus i think only u and jia qing heard it.. and xian.. but xian have not been contacting with sa.. so cant possible is him.. den jia qing dunno sa.. so only u.. i got nth to say.. i said that tell u act dunno.. but u went and tell her.. i really dunno wad to say to u.. fight i lose.. wan show temper also tio people joke.. wad can i do.. i really dunno.. how i wish.. could have just died.. haiz... don wan to say le.. bao.. u good..

2007-07-25T17:38:00.001+08:00

harlow.. come post le.. hmm.. ytd go to bright hill to cremate my 3rd uncle le.. sayonara.. hmms.. i and my big bro.. drive van with those flower there.. but den sadly.. want to go there throw de.. but cant throw... den drive back.. i and my big bro walk tgt with the coffin first... den run back to the place to drive van.. den we go another direction.. we reach first.. but too big.. den dunno where to stop.. den saw dao the bus.. den folo.. den found liao.. but can throw.. so drive back to the camp.. think is camp bahx.. the place the coffin there for some days den move to cremate de place.. those yellow cloth cover de.. den at there eat.. den went home le.. den from around 6 slp to today morning 7.. den rush to sch.. lols.. slp so long.. haha.. =p.. den today at sch.. heard that zi jie write love letter to esther!!!.. woot.. zi jie pro wor.. haha.. sadly his retarded =x.. lols.. too bad.. esther only treat him abittttt good he like her le.. =.=.. lols.. and hor.. wtf lo.. he in letter say.. i lost the treasure is i blind.. btw the treasure he mean is esther.. wtf.. wad he mean by this sia.. zzzz.. i don wan say something that will hurt SOME ppl.. so i better don say out bahx.. but i wan to say is that i nvr blind k? and i nvr lost a treasure as i nvr gotten any treasure.. o.. got.. only sa bahx.. too bad.. i lost the treasure to andy le~.. toooooo bad for me.. gd luck to andy and sa =).. andy say himself de.. say u two stead wor.. so i nth to say le.. so only gd luck =).. ok.. back to wad happen today.. btw got 2 letter =x.. but i only read 1.. the other one dunno go where le.. den danny make it till so funny.. zi jie write in chinese but he translate to eng.. tilllll so funny.. laugh until stomach ache.. haha.. kk.. after sch.. hong jin and loong xian come my house.. play majong.. haha.. =p.. lols.. i got win.. but little.. jin win alot.. den sadly.. i liddat say u all also know who lose alot.. haha.. xian sad sia.. lose so much.. wait.. is not real money haha.. we play fake money.. lols.. haha.. den 4 30.. both of them go home le.. den i bath.. den i come here post.. haha.. think write till here le.. btw.. i might wan to change blog wor.. i also not sure.. u all tell me bahs.. u all wan me to change only blogskin or the whole blog include blog add? or wan me to keep this blogskin.. or wan me keep blogskin and change web.. lols.. vote vote =).. think only a few ppl will read till here.. lols.. haha.. those who read dao must vote for me =) haha.. k le.. stopping here le.. cya.. gd luck.. take care all.. biies =)

2007-07-23T15:38:00.001+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. haiz.. since you say its difficult to believe again.. as it already 3rd time.. den jiu suan le bahx.. i don wan to hurt u any further.. u say got ppl woo u le.. u jiu accept him and go bahx.. don waste your time on me le.. i think i will just let u go bahx.. no point keeping u trapping you liddat.. maybe u anyhow find 1 boy also better den me.. can yang ni yi bei zi.. no need me le bahx.. go ahead bahx.. don care bout me lo.. i just be your kor kor can le bahx.. i just wish u happy can le.. don force yourself to stead with me anymore.. i hurt u enough le.. i don wan to hurt anymore.. cus i don hav a 100% confidence that i will not hurt u anymore.. so don bother about me.. who u wan gif chance u jiu go bahx.. haiz.. today.. got chinese oral.. i dunno i done well anot.. i think also like shit liddat bahx.. all ppl say easy but i feel abit difficult.. den the conversation i said something wrong.. haiz.. i such a useless guy.. come on.. don waste your time here.. y love me.. go love other guys la.. they are much more better den me.. andy is a good choice.. his dam good.. way better den me.. tml i wont be going to sch le.. i going to attend the funeral.. stay overnight there.. so.. wed see each other bahx.. i stop writing le.. bb..

2007-07-22T11:34:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. ytd de ytd.. my 3rd uncle passed away.. he suicide.. i dunno wad happen to him that he chooses to suicide.. very sad.. den ytd go that pai pai.. wish he can go to the correct path.. 3rd uncle.. man zuo.. farewell to 3rd uncle le.. they say tuesday den send to dunno how to say.. burn bahx.. dunno wad to write le.. weekends nth happen de.. later still need go there again.. i wont feel ma fan.. cus i know its a kind of respect.. if i don even gif this kind of respect to deads.. den i wont get any respect from humans.. haha.. =p.. k le.. stop here.. i talking craps =p.. haha.. cya biies..

2007-07-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come to post le.. well.. getting emo again le.. lols.. sry ah "o.o".. i also wanna try to keep away my emos.. but den.. something can just make me sad easily.. i might lose everything i wanted soon.. i not sure.. suan le.. no point mentioning it.. zuo yi bu suan yi bu liao.. it will be good if everything turns out nicely and go by my heart.. but.. if everything went out badly.. all i think i will do is ren ming bahx.. im tired fighting with things liddat.. god wanna play me den let he play lor.. y must i retalite.. no point.. his the biggest.. wad can a small human do? seems like its a end for me soon.. maybe ending up sweeping floor in evg.. hahas.. too bad den.. at least a cleaner can earn 800 a month ya? im quite satisfied in just a small thing.. i don wish perfection.. but neither i wish for a awkward outcome.. well.. think i don wish to write le.. cya.. wish all of u have a nice day ahead.. good bye..

2007-07-20T14:09:00.000+08:00

hello.. come post le.. today my sch celebrate racial harmony day.. haha.. today got VIPs.. den the sch den very good.. wad shit.. lols.. from sec 1 to 3 it doesnt seems that my sch will celebrate.. see.. they gif us shirt.. gif us chairs at hall.. gif us food.. lols.. want to make the VIPs see that our sch is a very good sch only nia.. if the VIPs nvr come.. think they wont treat us so good.. lols.. haha.. =p.. sian sia.. SO BORING!.. haha.. haiz.. xian now still the same.. suan le.. he wan do wad is his choice.. i also don wan to force him for anything.. k le.. i think i stopping here.. nth to write about le.. cya.. biies.. take care =).. good luck to all ppl taking chinese oral on monday..

2007-07-19T10:24:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come to post le.. now at cpa lab.. do finish work.. den come post lo.. this few days feeling abit low.. things became more and more complicated.. all are just like they are bluffing me.. i also dunno wad to do now.. suan le.. i think i wan to start ignoring all things.. let it forget.. esther wan wu hui wad thing i also don wan care.. she wan ignore me wan avoid me.. by all means.. i don wan to care le.. make me more and more xing fan.. its tiring.. now xian.. he dunno wad happen.. say want to break relationship.. xian.. u really wan walk my old path? i climb out of that path but u walked into it.. u saw me falling into that hole.. i climbed out.. but why u jump in yourself.. u know thats a hole.. camouflage.. cover by grass.. i walked into it.. but i at least climb up.. but y.. tell me.. y u wan jump in.. its fun liddat? the time i drop into the hole.. i don wish to climb up.. but all of u told me to climb up.. i listen to all of u.. climb up.. now... wish you could climb up.. i don wish u to stay in that hole by yourself.. like my past.. its sad u know? u say u nvr help anything and creating trouble for all.. now.. thats really creating trouble for all people.. u now den is really making trouble.. u cant help.. does not mean u are extra.. if u extra.. den i wad.. i also cant help people.. but make trouble for people.. den i wad.. so wake up.. stop being an idiot to stay in that idiotic hole.. its time for u to wake up le.. i cant do anything to help u.. but may this words knock into your senses.. i don wan to say anymore le.. guess i will be stopping here.. bye.. take care..

2007-07-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

haiz.. guess that all is blaming me le? ok la.. i wrong.. my fault.. i shud check properly be4 saying esther like me.. k? from all.. i heard it from weldon and laiyou.. nvm.. maybe its them who listen wrong.. den gif wrong information.. suan le.. i don blame anyone for that.. u all wan jiu blame me lars.. i already xi guan le.. everytime wrong.. all will aim at me.. saying my wrong.. my bro also always say i wrong de.. maybe im jus stupid.. idiot.. can? fine with this answer? but being stupid.. idiot.. i wan de? as if i can choose liddat.. who wan to be stupid.. who wan to be idiot.. issit wrong? for being natural stupid.. idiot.. not that i wan anyhow say.. but when i gave false hope to sa.. i need to explain to her de right? when i heard esther like me.. my feeling for her back le.. den i need to tell sa de right? if not later she keeps on wait.. she said she is my toy.. u think i want? but no1 there to blame.. blame me for loving a person who don even care a single bit of me.. thats really stupid of me.. suan le.. now all ppl blame me.. i only can blame one ppl.. the stupid god.. playing me.. u all might say i talking craps.. but it didnt happen to u.. u wont understand.. maybe only xian saw wad happen to me.. agree with me that god play me.. maybe jin also.. he heard my xin shi.. and maybe he also agree.. but the rest of u.. guess it take your whole life also wont understand this.. i cant be bothered to explain things le.. u all wan jiu say me la.. i anyhow spread esther like me.. can can can??? wad u wan me to do.. ok la.. send ppl come beat me la.. kill me la.. if thats all u all wan den come la.. suan le.. i don wan to say le.. bb..

2007-07-15T07:46:00.000+08:00

Tears.. flowing thru my cheeks day and night.. it tells me.. how much i treasure u.. each drop it came.. tells me how much i couldnt let u go.. every drops from my eye.. came with a bitter taste.. because.. you are not there with me.. beside me.. i need you.. u the only one who made all of my tears.. no matter wad.. became sweet.. but den.. u went and make it taste hell.. i really need you alot.. why did u leave my side.. haiz..

I made a promise to you.. that i will stay beside you.. accompany you when u are sad.. stay beside u every day from day to night.. but.. in the end.. when i wanted to complete my promise.. u make me break it.. u left my side.. refuse to let me get close.. i only.. can stay far away.. watching you from a distance.. and couldnt get close.. wont you feel cruel..?

you know i love you.. you know i just wanted to watch you.. looking at you.. and accompany you.. as close to you as possible.. but why.. it was just this simple things.. u just refuse to do it.. and block me away from the distance.. it hurts my heart totally.. it broken my heart.. into shattered parts..

At first.. i was about to give up on you.. i begin to give up all my hope on you.. when the time you know i love you.. u begin to avoid me.. no longer talking to me.. and i knew that if i love you.. i couldnt be with you.. as a fren.. i and you would became just like a stranger.. which do not know each other.. so i decided to let go of you.. i wanted to push away all feeling out of myself.. but u went and push it back in me.. I heard that you start to like me.. my feelings.. all went back to me.. i was so happy that time.. to heard that.. thou i not sure if i should just trust anot.. but i decide to trust it.. i choose to.. but den.. it hearts my heart again.. u told me.. that u never.. that u never love me a single bit.. it breaks my heart into pieces.. it was like.. you pierce my heart with a spear.. pull out.. and pierce it in again.. it damaged my heart alot.. it hurts alot.. it was awfully pain.. but u still harded your heart.. and stab me.. why you have to do that.. loving someone have wrong?

All i wanted.. is to watch you.. play with you.. laugh with you.. let you vent your anger.. help u share your sadness.. is that wrong? wad the hell did i do wrong.. i know that i could not be with you.. but is that really wrong? i know.. i make you feel uncomfortable that time.. that time.. i shoud not touch you.. but.. u can just tell me.. that u feel uncomfortable.. i understand that.. i can understand the whole thing.. but den.. you chooses to end it another way.. you did not tell me.. you run away from me.. running away from me.. not telling me the reasons.. and i have to go collect the reasons.. myself..

You are cruel.. i really hate you.. but.. i love you.. i just couldnt make myself hate you.. everytime i think of you.. my heart hurts.. it was like a million stab across my heart.. it really hurts.. when i need you.. you are not there.. to help me.. i fall down.. and all you did was stand aside and look at me.. not helping me up..

That time.. u are sad.. u told me that.. you could not listen anything from the teachers.. now.. i can tell you.. i cant hear a single words from teacher.. all my mind was thinking about you.. the happiest moments.. and the saddest moment.. that you gave me.. wad else can i think of.. haiz..
Pls.. come back to my side.. and mend my heart into 1 whole piece again.. i will.. and willing to wait you.. even it cause my whole lifespan.. i willing to wait.. awaits the time where you come and mend my heart..

you made me became a bad person.. treating another girl.. as a toys.. i don wish to.. and i don wan.. but den.. i could not control.. the god is playing me.. sasa.. you said u are fated to be my toys.. that i played your feelings.. i think i could not say no le.. that night.. i ask you that.. if i ask you for patch.. would you accept..? you said yes.. but i need to get rid of her.. so.. i decide to let go her.. that night.. i walking on the street.. i saw weldon.. laiyou.. yong seng.. and elliot.. laiyou and weldon.. told me.. that she ask laiyou.. whether should accept me anot.. when i heard that.. i did not care abt them.. and walk away.. that time.. when i heard laiyou say.. my feelings have all came back.. and i know.. i given sasa false hope.. a hope to be with me.. she love me dearly.. but i went and play with all the feelings.. it was not under my control.. i wanted to love you back.. but den.. by all means.. the god play with me.. making weldon laiyou appear that night to tell me these things.. why..? it could not really be so concidence.. but why.. the god just wanted to play me.. and not just me.. sasa was included.. she was innocent.. i don wan to play her.. i guess.. its the time.. that i shud really let sasa go.. maybe by that.. she would forget me.. and live her own life.. not played by me.. sasa.. pls.. hate me.. just hate me.. i don wish to play you anymore.. haiz..

now.. with tears on my eyes.. i written all this.. all from my heart.. i really wish two person to read this.. esther.. and sasa.. i wish you two could understand me.. my tears begin to drop again.. i guess.. stopping here.. good bye.. take care..

2007-07-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post lerx.. sho sad.. "some1" avoiding me le.. its hurts me alot when i know that.. is loving someone have wrong? sho wad i love her.. why must she avoid me.. haiz.. it broke my heart.. i sms her.. she no reply.. why.. just some words also cannot say? need to just ignore me? i really get hurt alot this time.. haiz.. suan le.. she want avoid jiu avoid bahx.. what can i do if she wants that.. haiz.. today got n lvl oral.. i do quite badly.. i keep looking at examiner.. waiting for her to ask question.. sad.. means - marks.. haiz.. den PE lesson.. my standing board jump.. done dam bad.. den my face was like bao qing tian.. i really no mood diao.. den "she" sit there looking.. den i really don wan jump le.. den anyhow jump.. can jump jiu hao le.. den at oral.. i 2nd last person.. shuyi last.. den was at there keep talking.. when left me and her.. den was so quiet le.. nth to say.. very nervous.. den finally finish.. with a piece of shit.. haiz.. at least i got laugh today le.. talk to wei lun they all.. maybe will cry again? cus when i think of her avoiding me.. its hurts me deeply.. she told me to leave her alone.. haiz.. suan le.. i must perserver.. i must jian qiang dian.. thx to all who stand beside me and giv me support.. k.. i stop here le.. biies.. take care.. gd luck for those who taking n lvl.. biies..

2007-07-12T18:12:00.000+08:00

hello.. haiz.. i at xian house post.. tml got n lvl oral exam le.. i very de scared.. cus i get nervous when talk to teacher.. haiz.. esther go le.. now only me cat and xian.. just now me esther cat and xian at xian house.. den weldon lai you and elliot come.. den ahwhile they go le.. den after that.. esther also go le.. haiz.. just now i very sad.. be4 they all go.. i very de sad.. but i don feel like saying out.. if not will hai dao ren.. den i hide in blanket.. i tot i wont hab tears lerx.. but it somehow came out.. maybe 2 or 3 drops.. den i wipe away.. den no more le.. i don wan tell them that i cried.. den act as nth.. act as im just slping.. and sniffing cus cold liddat lo.. now cat and xian asleep.. so i came to post.. haiz.. wo hao xiang ni.. haiz.. i really feel like saying out.. but.. she told me that she already trying to forget le.. i don wan let her feel so bad.. haiz.. why am i liddat.. i only want to love her faithfully.. but wad hab i done.. haiz.. i actually hurt her more den dote her.. haiz.. haiz.. think i stop here bahx.. if not i really will say out all derx.. biies.. take cares..

2007-07-12T10:33:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come blog lerx.. now at sch CPA lesson.. nth to do so come post lo.. do finish work le den very de sian.. dunno wad i shud do.. den hor.. esther de shi also very sad.. i also dunno how to help her.. maybe lend her a shoulder.. let her cry on.. but lolipop to make her happy.. i will try make her don think abt so much thing bahx.. lols.. try only la.. cus i don think i can.. wad am i anyway.. lols.. suan le suan le.. well.. on sasa de side.. i quite miss her actually.. hahas.. the feeling calling her those words.. haha.. think i better don call her those bahx.. make her remember sad things.. den she trying hard to forget me le.. i think i better leave her mind bahx.. don go fan her le.. lols.. ytd.. i and jin quarrel bahx.. now we also no talk.. quite sad.. nvm bahx.. sooner or later will ok de.. den i and esther and catherine go to xian hse.. jin also there.. den we stay until late 10.. lols.. haha.. we at there playing.. lols.. nth quite much.. lols.. k le.. i stop here le.. cya.. biies.. take care all.. gd luck to all taking n lvl oral.. =).. biies..

2007-07-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

hello.. come to post le.. lols.. today ma.. whole day at kfc.. can liddat say le.. at first.. around 1 liddat.. weldon called me to go kfc study.. with weldon and lai you.. lols.. den around 2 liddat loong xian come le.. den they all study lols.. i nvr study.. haha.. den around 4+ we all go le.. lai you went back home dunno wan do wat.. weldon go home for tution.. den xian go to causeway for tution.. den i go home.. den when i reach home.. after awhile.. go down again.. lols.. this time is pei esther ler.. den go kfc STUDY again.. zzz.. lols.. den around 5+ going 6.. catherine came.. den around 7+ came loong xian.. he jus come back from his tution.. den we all at there talking and laughing.. lols.. den 9 30 liddat i and xian go home.. i and xian walk walk walk to my house below.. den i say i pei him go home lols.. haha.. den i pei xian go home.. den use his comp ahwhile.. den i go back home =).. lols.. haha.. k le.. write till here bahx.. haha.. cya.. bb..

2007-07-05T16:51:00.000+08:00

hi.. haiz.. maybe im jus bad bahx.. why don all ppl treat me bad boy.. im bad wor.. now i quarrel with sa and esther le.. i go say hurtful words to them.. i also dunno wad i am mad at them at.. or maybe shud say.. i dunno wad i am mad at esther.. i scold her for wad..? i don wan to vent my anger on her.. y am i doing this.. im such a idiot.. dammit sia.. haiz.. im the world's number 1 worthless scum.. an idiotic.. a extra person.. maybe she shud really don care abt me.. if not.. i would hurt most of them who cared abt me.. really.. im not kidding.. i cant control myself from saying those things.. stupid arent i? now i really decided le.. no more poly for me bahx.. i wan go ITE le.. at least i no need try so hard for studies le.. also no motivation to go poly.. just good luck to all my frens in 4 thinking and 4 dynamic.. and also 4 caring.. u all try your best to achieve the point for sec 5 bahx.. im going to go ITE le.. who cares man.. ITE jiu ITE lo.. its still school.. ITE also can earn money.. maybe earn lesser.. but at least can earn money can le.. a few hundred bucks is enuff le.. ytd.. i told u all esther bite me.. the mark was still there.. and it even hei qing.. touch le will pain.. maybe thats the last she bite me bahx.. haiz.. so sian.. today.. period after recess was free period.. but den was very sian.. haiz.. watch some movie only.. i also feel i very bad.. cus the quarrel occur ytd night.. den today in school.. i dunno why.. i really dun understand.. i used a fierce looking at esther.. why i become liddat.. ytd i was only angry.. actually i really don mean those words.. but since i said.. let it be bahx.. thats lesson for me bahx.. i cant possible rely on sry.. everytime wrong.. den jiu sry.. sry cant cures everything.. theres hurt inside already.. cant cure le.. maybe if esther don care bout me.. i wan hurt her also cannot de.. same for sa.. don care me bahx.. den jiu cant quarrel with u le.. and sa.. u don care about me.. sooner or later u can forget me de bahx.. den with andy happily.. wish u two gd luck bahx.. don always think of me le.. im a big bad jerk.. don love a person like me.. its utterly useless guy in the world.. haiz.. k le bahx.. i write till here le.. bb..

2007-07-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come post le.. i think i found the ans le.. andy and sandy bluff me de.. suan le.. don wish to talk abt it le.. today.. at sch.. as usual.. study.. den ss.. teacher give us question but can see notes to do.. but not counted as test le.. next monday den he test.. sian sia.. study so hard.. nvm.. he say he give same question.. he wan let us know the question and go study.. and wan us make sure get A1 for it.. if cant den only got 1 thing to say.. u no hope le.. i also quite agree bahx.. got question le.. jus study wad is the answer can le.. don say study.. mermorise it can liaos.. no need read other thing.. if cant get really die liao.. den after school.. jin and xian come my house.. but only i play ps2.. den around 4+ esther called me and say she wan to come my house.. den jiu come lo.. den go down fetch her.. den at my house.. i tio her di siao.. but nvm bahx.. let her be lo.. den.. jin go le.. left xian and esther.. den after that.. zzz.. esther bite me -.-.. den now abit swollen.. nvm la.. not very pain de la.. so i don mind.. den.. around 6+ they both go le.. den now at home.. nth to do.. so on comp blog den going to close le.. i also don wan to play game le.. if not my bro wan scold me use long time le.. i try to control myself le.. jus use comp for blog or chat ahwhile can le la.. sian.. now no food eat.. den very tired tired.. wait my bro back den got food eat le.. den maybe eat le go slp bahx.. tired.. k le.. stopping here le.. cya.. bb..

2007-07-03T13:59:00.000+08:00

arlow.. i come post lerx.. today so shiock.. no lesson nia.. except for physics.. haha.. PE also hab abit bahx.. =p.. the rest free period whole day nia.. hahaha.. den last period teacher let us see a show.. haha.. not that i enjoy it.. but i like the wolf >.<.. hahaha.. so cute nia.. wish i hab 1 that folo me whole life.. hahaha.. =p.. but think its impossible also de.. hahaha.. =p.. got 1 more thing i wanna say is that.. i think andy and sa is bluffing me lo.. they like not stead de.. if u two see my post.. i tell u.. don bluff me.. andy especially u.. my 8 years fren le.. if u try to bluff me.. u'll see.. im not joking with u anymore le.. im serious bout this.. u better becareful if i found out that u bluff me.. as i ask u so many time u say u not bluffing me.. if i found out.. den i tell u.. we are no longer fren.. its too over for u.. hear that? as for sa.. if u bluff me.. i nvm.. cus i know u like to bluff ppl to know something.. i can forgive u for that.. but not for andy.. cus i already warn him.. if it was true.. andy.. u better take good care of sa.. if not i come find u hor.. k le.. stop here le.. cya.. biies..

2007-07-02T10:56:00.000+08:00

hello.. i come to post le.. sry bout this few days.. i got abit too moody.. yea.. maybe some of u knows why.. theres many problem occuring.. and most of it i really dunno wad to do.. how to solve it.. im tired of that kind of life le.. now i and her is fren le.. maybe thats a better choice den tgt.. cus frens is forever.. while love cant be forever.. well.. at my gan laopo side.. dunno wad happen le.. she like very sad le.. i also dunno how to help.. i scare i only huo shang jia you.. maybe she don wan to talk but i go ask her.. or things liddat.. and i also not good in comforting ppl.. only know how to tell ppl happy? got wad use sia.. i only know how to keep myself happy.. cus i know how to control my emotions de.. maybe jus few hours of quiet i can make myself happy le.. and i mean quiet.. but sometimes my fren would ask me.. and that triggers my sadness again.. well.. i don mind bahx.. at least they ask becus they care about me.. why scold them? i can keep myself happy.. and i wish all ppl around me are happy.. sa.. maybe she now is quite happy le bahx.. told me that she found a new stead.. andy.. my best fren wor.. they kept asking me.. if i mind them tgt.. well.. i hab two thinking.. maybe i jus kept quiet can help them.. y go seperate a couple? ming yi.. don be an extra btw them.. maybe u all shud jus treat me invis de.. don ask me about i mind anot.. if u all ask again.. i might think u all bluffing me le.. cus sa.. i know u like to test ppl de.. u maybe jus ask andy to act your stead and test me if i mind u tgt with another guy.. and if i still care about u.. so.. i wish it was true.. i really hate.. nvm.. i really don like ppl lying to me.. thou when we tgt u keep lie to me.. but i nvm bahx.. so.. sa and andy.. treasure u two de relationship.. don let history happen.. sa.. don jealous so easily.. a boy with some girl is ok de.. unless they really out of the limit.. den do wad u shud do.. den.. andy.. try not to stay with girl so much eh.. she gets jealous easily de.. k.. bless u two tgt forever.. well.. when i told hong jin abt they two stead.. jin tell me that.. wa.. best fren snatch your gf? i said nvm bahx.. let them be.. jin told me.. if it was me.. i would feel like killing him.. den he not like me so kang kai.. two hands give your treasure away.. haiz.. maybe bahx.. who cares man.. i don wan she to continue hurt by me.. so letting her go is the best choice.. k le bahx.. xian coming to my house soon le.. still need do ss homework.. need study ss.. sat and sun i wasted cus i was so moody to study.. so didnt.. now i need to work out le.. k le.. cya guys.. wish all ppl have a smooth route to go..

2007-06-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

haiz.. maybe she's right.. im jus a jerk.. bluff ppl feeling? ya.. maybe im.. im jus a big bad guy.. just let her think liddat bahx.. cus im really is a big jerk.. haiz.. but wad can i do.. not that i really wan to bluff u.. but "she" in my heart de place is difficult to replace.. i tried to replace her with u de.. but i cant do it.. suan le.. i don feel like being with anyone anymore le.. its over with my love route.. over.. if it continues.. more hurts will came in.. den why bother starting it.. haiz... don wan talk le.. bb..

2007-06-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

arlow.. back to post le.. hahas.. sian sia.. today no need bring books de.. but i and jin bring dao so many.. go sch no need use dao 1 book.. sian diao.. haha.. tml half day school only.. sch celebrate school results.. hahaha.. so happy.. and hor.. today.. henry gimme present.. cus maybe some students say don wan the papai chicken.. den wtf lo.. gib me wad present sia.. a badana -.-.. he tot i japanese issit.. sad.. lol.. but nvm.. i know is 1 of his sincere.. thou its a strange present.. but i know wad he meant.. the words on the badana.. maybe he trying to encourage me continue work hard to "pass" bah.. cus the words means pass.. lol.. haha.. thanks cher.. i try my best to strive for poly.. cus i got 1 person waiting for me.. haha.. yep.. k write till here bah.. cya all.. gd day.. biies..

2007-06-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

arlow all.. hahas.. today first day of school.. haha.. sian sia.. i bring dao so many books.. lols.. den today.. no study at all.. boring~~.. hahaha.. den i slp soooo late.. only slp around 1 hour nia.. sad.. my bro play games.. -.-.. den wake me up.. den i cant slp le.. lols.. hahaha.. den at sch keep wan slp lol.. sad.. hahaha.. lols.. today.. change new time table again.. lol.. sian lor.. keep remember and forgetting the time for the subjects le.. haha.. =p.. too bad.. haha.. today also go cut hair.. haha.. cus i forgotten to find 1 date to cut hair.. haha.. lucky tml den hab spot check haha.. but den ho.. this time cut dao not very good.. hair wont stand up liao.. haha.. =p.. lols.. k liao la.. write till here.. cya all.. bb.. =p